Michelle Hodkin - The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer

BEFORE

Laurelton, Rhode Island

THE ORNATE SCRIPT ON THE BOARD TWISTED in the candlelight, making the letters and numbers dance in my head. They were jumbled and indistinct, like alphabet soup. When Claire pushed the heart-shaped piece into my hand, I startled. I wasnt normally so twitchy, and hoped Rachel wouldnt notice. The Ouija board was her favorite present that night, and Claire gave it to her. I got her a bracelet. She wasnt wearing it.

Kneeling on the carpet, I passed the piece to Rachel. Claire shook her head, oozing disdain. Rachel put down the piece.

Its just a game, Mara. She smiled, her teeth looking even whiter in the dim light. Rachel and I had been best friends since preschool, and where she was dark and wild, I was pale and cautious. But less so when we were together. She made me feel bold. Usually.

I dont have anything to ask dead people, I said to her. And at sixteen, were too old for this, I didnt say.

Ask whether Jude will ever like you back.

Claires voice was innocent, but I knew better. My cheeks flamed, but I stifled the urge to snap at her and laughed it off. Can I ask it for a car? Is this like a dead Santa scenario?

Actually, since its my birthday, Im going first. Rachel put her fingers on the piece. Claire and I followed her.

Oh! Rachel, ask it how youre going to die.

Rachel squealed her assent, and I shot a dark look at Claire. Since moving here six months ago, shed latched onto my best friend like a starving leech. Her twin missions in life were now to make me feel like the third wheel, and to torture me for my crush on her brother, Jude. I was equally sick of both.

Remember not to push, Claire ordered me.

Got it, thanks. Anything else?

But Rachel interrupted us before we could descend into bickering. How am I going to die?

The three of us watched the board. My calves prickled from kneeling on Rachels carpet for so long, and the backs of my knees felt clammy. Nothing happened.

Then something did. We looked at each other as the piece moved under our hands. It semi-circled the board, sailing past A through K, and crept past L.

It settled on M.

Murder? Claires voice was soaked with excitement. She was so sketchy. What did Rachel see in her?

The piece glided in the wrong direction. Away from U and R.

Landing on A.

Rachel looked confused. Matches?

Mauling? Claire asked. Maybe you start a forest fire and get eaten by Smokey the Bear? Rachel laughed, briefly dissolving the panic that had slithered into my stomach. When we first sat down to play, I had to resist the urge to roll my eyes at Claires melodramatics. Now, not so much.

The piece zigzagged across the board, cutting her laughter short.

R.

We were silent. Our eyes didnt leave the board as the piece jerked back to the beginning.

To A.

Then stopped.

We waited for the piece to point out the next letter, but it remained still. After three minutes, Rachel and Claire withdrew their hands. I felt them watching me.

It wants you to ask something, Rachel said softly.

If by it you mean Claire, Im sure thats true. I stood up, shaking and nauseous. I was done.

I didnt push it, Claire said, wide-eyed as she looked at Rachel, then at me.

Pinky swear? I asked, with sarcasm.

Why not, Claire answered, with malice. She stood and walked closer to me. Too close. Her green eyes were dangerous. I didnt push it, she said again. It wants you to play.

Rachel grabbed my hand and pulled herself up off the floor. She looked straight at Claire. I believe you, she said, but lets do something else?

Like what? Claires voice was flat, and I stared right back at her, unflinching. Here we go.

We can watch The Blair Witch Project. Claires favorite, naturally. How about it? Rachels voice was tentative, but firm.

I tore my eyes away from Claires and nodded, managing a smile. Claire did the same. Rachel relaxed, but I didnt. For her sake, though, I tried to swallow my anger and unease as we settled in to watch the movie. Rachel popped in the DVD and blew out the candles.

Six months later, they were both dead.

AFTER

Rhode Island Hospital Providence, Rhode Island

I OPENED MY EYES. A PERSISTENT MACHINE BEEPED rhythmically to my left. I looked to my right. Another machine hissed beside the bedside table. My head ached and I was disoriented. My eyes struggled to interpret the positions of the hands on the clock hanging next to the bathroom door. I heard voices outside my room. I sat up in the hospital bed, the thin pillows crinkling underneath me as I shifted to try and hear. Something tickled the skin under my nose. A tube. I tried to move my hands to pull it away but when I looked at them, there were other tubes. Attached to needles. Protruding from my skin. I felt a tugging tightness as I moved my hands and my stomach slithered into my toes.

Get them out, I whispered to the air. I could see where the sharp steel entered my veins. My breath shortened and a scream rose in my throat.

Get them out, I said, louder this time.

What? asked a small voice, whose source I couldnt see.

Get them out! I screamed.

Bodies crowded the room; I could make out my fathers face, frantic and paler than usual. Calm down, Mara.

And then I saw my little brother, Joseph, wide-eyed and scared. Dark spots blotted out the faces of everyone else, and then all I could see were the forest of needles and tubes, and felt that tight sensation against my dry skin. I couldnt think. I couldnt speak. But I could still move. I clawed at my arm with one hand and ripped out the first tube. The pain was violent. It gave me something to hold on to.

Just breathe. Its okay. Its okay.

But it wasnt okay. They werent listening to me, and they needed to get them out. I tried to tell them, but the darkness grew, swallowing the room.

Mara?

I blinked, but saw nothing. The beeping and hissing had stopped.

Dont fight it, sweetie.

My eyelids fluttered at the sound of my mothers voice. She leaned over me, adjusting one of the pillows, and a sheet of black hair fell over her almond skin. I tried to move, to get out of her way, but I could barely hold my head up. I glimpsed two dour-faced nurses behind her. One of them had a red welt on her cheek.

Whats wrong with me? I whispered hoarsely. My lips felt like paper.

My mother brushed a sweaty strand of hair from my face. They gave you something to help you relax.

I breathed in. The tube under my nose was gone. And the ones from my hands, too. They were replaced by gauzy white bandages wrapped around my skin. Spots of red bled through. Something released itself from my chest and a deep sigh shuddered from my lips. The room shifted into focus, now that the needles were out.

I looked at my father, sitting at the far wall, looking helpless. What happened? I asked hazily.

You were in an accident, honey, my mother answered. My father met my eyes, but he didnt say anything. Mom was running this show.

My thoughts swam. An accident. When?

Is the other driver I started, but couldnt finish.

Not a car accident, Mara. My mothers voice was calm. Steady. It was her psychologist voice, I realized. Whats the last thing you remember?

More than waking up in a hospital room, or seeing tubes attached to my skinmore than anything elsethat question unnerved me. I stared at her closely for the first time. Her eyes were shadowed, and her nails, usually perfectly manicured, were ragged.

What day is it? I asked quietly.