Sara Larson - Defy

THE CRACKLE AND hiss of the flames devouring our house couldnt block out the screaming and wailing of those who were still alive. My friends, the children, and babies. Orphans. Most of the men were dead. For how few of us there were, scattered around what used to be our village, the noise was almost deafening. I stood in the damp mud in front of our home, pressing my hands to my ears, trying to shut out the sounds. My jaw was clenched, but I couldnt stop the tears from welling up and slipping down my cheeks.

Alexa, hurry! Marcel grabbed my arm, trying to pull me away. But I yanked out of his grip.

I cant leave them, I said, still staring at what remained of my mother and father. I did not look at my brother. Nor at the flames engulfing our home. Nor at the backs of the retreating enemy. Not even at the kings army, which had become visible on the horizon. It had materialized too late from the depths of the jungle that wrapped around our village, finally scaring off the Blevonese soldiers, but not before their sorcerer had done this.

Alexa. Marcels voice was more urgent as he reached up and turned my face to his, forcing my eyes away from the two bodies. But I couldnt see him, not really. The image of my parents lying broken, charred on the ground in front of us, was burned onto my retinas. Onto my memory. The sorcerer had been no match for Papas fighting skills but no one was a match for the unholy fire the sorcerer had used against him and Mama.

I shuddered as I remembered the feel of magic in the air when the sorcerer killed them both, a stream of fire bursting from his hands.

The smell of burned flesh and the sight of them lying there were too much. I dropped to my knees and vomited into the thick undergrowth that never stopped trying to reclaim the ground wed built our home on.

Papa made us promise to hide when we saw the soldiers from Blevon heading for our village. But then he and Mama were slain and I had done nothing to stop it.

The armys coming, Alexa. We have to do it now. Marcel knelt down and held my hair back for me as I wiped my mouth on my sleeve, my stomach still heaving. If they see me cutting your hair, theyll take you theyll force you into the breeding house.

I looked up at him, fear hitting me square in the chest. His hazel eyes, mirror images of my own, were bleak.

I glanced toward the winding trail that led to the jungle, which would take us to Tubatse, to King Hectors palace. And his breeding house. The army was getting closer. Too close.

Maybe if I show them how well I fight, theyll let me join the army instead? The panic in my voice was matched by the desperate pounding of my heart.

Marcel shook his head. The wind turned, and the smoke blew into our faces for a moment, burning my nose and obscuring Marcel from view. His hand tightened around my hair, which he still held back from my face.

Fine, I said. Lets do it. Hurry, I added, spitting into the dirt one last time, trying to get rid of the bitter taste in my mouth. My knees were still weak when I stood up. Marcel grabbed the shears hed managed to save before the fire grew too large, and moved to stand behind me.

When the blades bit through my hair and the first long, dark strands landed on the ground at my feet, I had to choke back a sob. It was stupid and vain, but my hair was the one feature that had truly been mine. Looking so similar to my twin brother had been fun as a child, but as we grew older, it became irritating. My jaw was too square, I was too tall, I hadnt even managed to grow breasts yet. Other than my hair, I could have passed for a boy.

But now the very traits that Id always been frustrated with would hopefully save me.

When the last lock of hair fell, my head felt lighter, colder, naked. I reached up with trembling fingers, but couldnt make myself touch it.

How do I look? My voice wobbled, but I refused to let myself cry again. The army would be here any minute.

Like me, Marcel said.

Together, we hurried to pick up all the hair and threw it into the flames that were consuming what was left of our cottage. The long strands, years worth of growth, curled up and burned away in moments. Gone. Like my parents. Like my home. All taken, burned, hewn down, and turned to ash.

now

MARCEL LUNGED AT me, his movement lightning fast. But my block was even faster. Our practice swords collided, sending a jolt up my arm. Wed been sparring for quite a while, but neither of us was ready to back down. I jabbed at him again, but missed a beat when I noticed Prince Damian standing behind the other members of his guard, outside the practice ring, watching us. Marcel took full advantage of my momentary distraction and landed a blow on my shoulder. I grunted, aggravated with myself, but quickly recovered, spinning away from him and Prince Damians unwavering gaze. The gloating expression on Marcels face wasnt going to last long. I twisted around in the opposite direction and before he could parry my blow, I hit him in the rib cage.

A killing strike.

Marcel threw his weapon on the dirt, rubbing his ribs with a grimace. My wooden sword would probably give him a bruise, despite the padding we both wore.

I never should have taught you to hit me, Marcel grumbled as most of our audience whooped and hollered from outside the practice ring.

Id hit you again, except I know you arent serious. I bent down and picked up his sword, daring a peek to see if the prince was still there. Hed come to watch me spar before, but he always seemed to slip away just as I finished a match. Not this time. He still stood there, the sunlight bright on his dark hair. I could have sworn there was admiration on his face admiration and something else I couldnt name but when I blinked, it was gone, replaced by his usual sardonic expression.

Prince Damian clapped slowly twice, making a couple of the guards in front of him jump. They spun around quickly, and upon seeing the prince, they immediately straightened to stand at attention.

An impressive display, Alex, but next time, keep your guard up at all times. It never pays to get distracted, Prince Damian observed. I had to clench my jaw to keep from blushing at the condescension in his voice. Part of me longed to challenge him, to tell him to take a turn and see how long he lasted. Instead, I stiffly tipped my head to him. He looked at me for a moment longer, his gaze inscrutable, and then turned on his heel and strode away.

I stood in the ring, clutching both my and Marcels swords, my heart pounding with anger.

Give that to me. Marcel swiped his sword back with a furtive glance at the other members of the princes personal guard. But they were all still watching the prince, their backs to us. I dont need you to carry my sword for me.

I blinked as he stormed away. I knew he wasnt really mad. Death was once nothing more than a game to us, back at home, when we were children and we practiced for hours every day with sticks instead of swords. Back when I was still Alexa, instead of Alex, Marcels twin brother and member of Prince Damians personal guard. He used to get so mad at me for beating him, he wouldnt talk to me for the rest of the day.

Before our parents were killed and death suddenly became so very, very real.

Marcel didnt get angry when I beat him anymore.

Nice job, Alex. Dont listen to the prince. We all know he couldnt use a sword if his life depended on it. Rylan nodded at me with an approving smile when I walked over to him and the other men whod been watching.