Giselle Renarde - Best Lesbian Erotica 2011

Walking down Commercial Street in Provincetown during 2009 Womens Week, (question: can this sentence get any gayer?) I ran into Lea DeLaria (answer: yes).

Wed seen her perform the night before as a washed-up80s rock star in Meryl Cohns musical Insatiable Hunger and stopped to tell her how much we enjoyed the show. We continued on to our respective brunches, and an idea was born.

Id been thinking about who I should ask to judge Best Lesbian Erotica 2011, and after last years trio of musical judges, BETTY, did such a great job, I liked what musicians added to the mix.

I think many musicians understand what makes short fiction work instinctively, because in their own genre, they have to get in/get out and do it beautifully and uniquely each time, and it has to be a complete thing, not a phrase, or a riff or an idea. Leas known for her stand-up comedy and acting, but shes also made a name for herself as an accomplished jazz vocalist, and I thought it would be fun to see where her instincts took her. (No scat jokes, please!)

When I asked her to come onboard, she accepted with alacrity, and I got to work reading the submissions. I have edited, screened, assembled and adjudicated plenty of writing over the years, and Ive noticed that when you sit down with a great big stack of prose, poetry or plays, certain themes emerge, ideas that seem to be percolating up out of a collective unconscious. You can sense widely felt emotions, fears and also euphoria in better times. In the submissions for 2010s book, I saw more comedy, more playful stuff and even some political pieces written in the wake of the 08 elections (with plenty of hot sex, of course).

The submissions for 2011 seemed a little more doubtful. There were fewer outright comic pieces, more pieces about negotiating long-term relationships and marriage (in places where gay marriage is allowed), and the political pieces were less hopeful (but with plenty of hot sex, of course).

And this year the trend was also toward butch: stories told from the butch point of view, of femmes seduced by and seducing butches, and butches being mistaken (and sometimes passing for) men. Leas selections included several particularly strong pieces featuring butch characters, and I was glad to see it.

You may have noticed we live in an extremely uncivil age. The term cyberbullying didnt exist ten years ago, though the action is alive and vicious now. And while it may begin with middle schoolers, it extends through all ages these days, in so many of our social interactions, both in person and online. The vicious quip, the snarling insult, the intent to hurt someone and deny their identity is not only accepted, but standard operating procedure for more and more people. Theyre proud that they wound, glad that theyve called a spade a spade, or a fag, or a pervert, or just it.

Even in the LGBT community, theres always a center and outliers: I know people who think there shouldnt be a T in the mix and that B doesnt really exist. On a sunny weekend in June, I went to see a reading of Doric Wilsons play, Street Theater, set on Christopher Street on the night the Stonewall riots began. In the play, the cops entrapped and extorted from the gays, and taunted and were frustrated by the ones who didnt fit into their image of what fairies were supposed to look and act like. Boom Boom and Ceil were drag queens, Jack was a leatherman and C.B. a butch dyke. The other gays called them pathetic, (even as they were attracted to them). In the play (and on Christopher Street), it was the others, the outsiders in their own community, who started it all that night.

There are still plenty of others, plenty of outsiders: woman-identified butches, gender queers, trans people and the ones who stubbornly refuse to be one of four or five letters of the alphabet (and plenty of contention and controversy about that identity within the community itself). Because they cant/wont pass, people who blur the boundaries in such a way are still the ones attacked first, sneered at, scoffed at, discriminated against even by fellow queers who say, Why do they have to be like that?

Which is why Im glad to see such excellent pieces celebrating butch sexiness, identity, and the serious, soulful, lusty interplay between butch/femme. Its about the need, the desire, the essential connection between two people. Its not always joyful or pretty, but its passionate. Its not about what body part is doing what to who: its about everyone being allowed to get her or his fill and achieve satisfaction.

Thats an essential pleasure, an innate right that cant be legislated (though you can certainly go to jail for it, still, in many places).

Id like to thank you for choosing this book and peering into the many worlds and windows of this years Best Lesbian Erotica. Thanks to Cleis for championing the series, and to our fabulous contributors, who hail from six different countries this year, and range from first-time authors to masters (or mistresses) of the form.

I hope you enjoy it.

Kathleen Warnock

New York City

I picked up a twentysomething-year-old Jewish straight girl when I went out for Chinese with my manager last Saturday night. There is just something about those inelegant, bespectacled, somewhat tightly wound straight girls. To me they are a narcotic, a kind of annoying heroin that once you shoot it up, you are endowed with a permanent hard-on coupled with a giant stomach ulcer. I know this and I still cant leave em alone, especially the Jewish ones. Especially the Jewish ones with huge knockers.

She invites me up to her Central Park West doorman apartment for a drink. Of course we know where this will end. She offers me a glass of wine, which I eagerly accept. I always find with the straight ones that a little alcohol loosens the inhibitions. Remember, you want to imbibe her. It doesnt work to get her to the point where she has a drink and the next thing she knows shes in the White Castle on 8th and 36th at 3:00 a.m. and shes working there. Shoot for becoming the tragic end of a bottoming out story at an AA meeting. If its a hot night its worth it.

I flirt. We move to her couch. We have another glass. I ramp up the flirt a little more. She gives me that look that girls give you when they want you to make the first move, and (without revealing the details a gentlemen should not tell) I give her an orgasm.

She immediately bursts into tears. She wont let me hold her or comfort her in any way so I just sit there until she finally chills. We talk some more. She rolls over onto her belly.

Mmm, I think. We continue to talk. She starts to move her hips a little. Mmm, I think once more. Now get this, she raises her ass in the air. Actually raises it in the air.

Okay! I think, and one thing leads to the next. I end up giving her yet another orgasm and she bursts into tears again.

You have got to be joking, I am screaming in my mind. I mean, I am aware that the fear of homosexuality that a lot of women repress can be stressful but Really? Do you have to fucking cry twice in front of a complete stranger? Or are you one of those babes who cry every time they come?

She then begins a mantra of how she cant be a lesbian, her family will disown her, what about her job? You know, the stuff we all went through around 135 years ago that nobody really does anymore, at least not since Will and Grace went into syndication. Well, maybe they still do it in Zimbabwe.