Peter Orullian - The Hell of It

Russet hues lit the western horizon and caught in the surfaces of the quiet harbor. Soon the sun would set, making Malen Staneds scrub-work more difficult. But he was nearly finished. Kneeling on the trawler deck, he scrubbed away fish blood with a stiff brush and scraped the tougher bits with a flat knife. Around his knees he wore the double-woven wool wraps that hands-and-knees workers used. But even with the wraps his bones ached. He paid the pain little mind and added a fistful of lye to his water bucket before mopping down the deckthe smell of scales and entrails was particularly strong today. He was shooing away a few lingering seagulls when Captain Lowell appeared from the small stern-side doorway. A doorway that led to the mans cabin, where he would have been reviewing his daily catch ledgers.

Malen, the captain said, and waved him over before disappearing back inside.

He set down his mop, grateful to be done for the day. His arms ached, and at this hour his son, Roth, would be waiting on him. Before going into the captains quarters, Malen rolled down his sleeves. He always sought to be as presentable as possible when he spoke with the ships steward. The smell of fish was strong on him, but there was no help for that.

Just as he reached the doorway, another man emergedone he didnt know. The others eyes narrowed against the glare of westering sun, and he moved with a deliberate step to the portside plank. Malen caught a glimpse of a patch sewn to the mans cloak, the insignia of the League of Civilityfour hands, each gripping the wrist of the next to form a squared circle.

Some called the League our civic mind. They were an influential fellowship that challenged old traditions and had become the Wanship watchdog. More than that, really. Beyond the port city of Wanship, throughout the broad kingdom of SoDell, the League, some said, was more powerful than the ruling class. The squared round of hands carried more weight than the SoDell realm marka schooner whose sails resembled swooping cutlasses. But Leaguemen didnt go about idly.

Malen watched the stranger descend to the dock before turning and ducking into the dark hall. He now felt a tug of uncertainty, coming to the captain after a Leaguemans visit.

Inside the ships cabin, two small lamps burned against the onset of twilight. Malen liked the quiet feeling of authority here. The charts and compass and skyglass all gave him a sense of the captains knowledge, and Lowell made smart use of the instruments. Other trawlers had lain up at the dock for weeks now. Given the new levies, and the rate of their yield, most were unable to afford a crew. Captain Lowell still sailed daily to the fishing waters.

The man sat at his small desk, staring down at a ledger marked with dates and notes of catch size. He wore his spectacles, which gave him a studious, seasoned look. The lenses caught the glimmer of the lamp flames.

As if coming to the same conclusion again, the man sighed and removed his glasses.

Malen sensed it before Lowell spoke. The captain had been staring at his ledgers, as though trying to will a different sum from the numbers there. Numbers, Malen guessed, that led to a grim financial reality. Numbers that were about to take him in their rough embrace.

Im sorry, Malen. These are hard times. The captain shut his eyes tight, and rubbed at them with the balls of his hands. He then finally looked up at Malen, blinking away some weariness. Theres no other way, my friend. I have no more work for you.

Malens heart began to race. This had been the only job he could find. The fishing trade, though slow, was the last profitable commerce in Port Wanship. Maybe in all of SoDell, come to that. And even so, he made scarcely enough coin to get bread and oil and other common necessaries. His mind went instantly to his son. Malen hadnt been able to afford to send the boy to lessons of any kind. Not even the new schools opened by the League, which accepted anyone for a two-plug tuition. After Marta had gone to her earth hed struggled.

I can work for less, he offered. Please, Captain, Ill take part of my pay in fish.

Lowell gave a wan smile. You already do, Malen. Its how Ive kept you working as long as I have. He paused. I know you have a son Im sorry. When the fishing picks up again, Ill take you back. I have hope that the spring season will come with full nets.

I can work for fish alone, Malen countered.

The captain shook his head. Ill need every pound weighed for market, and that wouldnt be right, besides. Your work deserves compensation. Id feel the cheat.

Malen stared back, his panic and desperation mounting. Hed made only one promise to Marta when her womb had continued to bleed well after Roth had been cleaned and swaddled.

See that he grows up right, my love. I want him to be honest and fair. I want him to work hard and follow his heart. I want him to be like his father.

Shed reached up a cold hand and caressed his cheek. He could no longer remember how long his love had lived after giving birth to their son. An hour. A day. A week. It all blurred together now.

The only grace he felt was that she couldnt see how hed failed her request. He worked and lived in the Wanship slums along the wharf. And though he hadnt the courage to ask his son, he felt sure the lad had begun to beg and hustlewharf games, they called itwith the alley kids he called friends. Roth was only ten. Dear abandoning gods.

Malen got down on his knees, a sharp pain rising in his bruised bones. I beg you, Captain. Please. Ill do more for less. Ill prepare the bait. I can move the catch to market for you. Tell me what I can do.

Captain Lowell looked across his small desk at him, his eyes apologetic. Before he spoke, he scanned his ledger one last time. The excise Im sorry, Malen. I can scarcely afford deckhands. Id take you on there, but every hands got to turn twelve nets an hour or Ill lose my ship. Your net days are well behind you.

But Malen heard little of his captains explanation. He was seeing the man hed just passed moments ago. The Leagueman. It was the League that had pressured the mayor to impose the new levies. And helped enforce them. He bristled with anger and confusion over it. The League liked to be seen as a champion for the wharf-poor. Mostly, their reform efforts meant taxes for men like Captain Lowell. Malens hands clenched into fists. What they all needed was another Cutlass Seaa storied revolt of the sailors and fishers that had given SoDell its realm mark.

That isnt the end of it, the captain said, drawing his attention. I dont even have coin for your last days labor. A note of shame crept into the mans voice. Ill ask you to take fish for payment.

Malen looked down at his hands, the skin still puckered from so much time in the wash pail. His fingernails held grit and fish blood. He saw only his failure to make good use of his hands to provide for his son. Not simply because the captain had no work for him, but because the best hed been able to do, in these later years, with these hands was scrub a deck. And hed known (even if hed never admitted it to himself) that he couldnt raise his son doing this thing.

Ive failed you, Marta. What do I do now?

Malen stared down into the bowl of mash hed prepared for supper. Across the kitchen table from him sat his son, head bowed and eyes shut, waiting for his father to offer the prayer over the food. The sea trout that had been his final payment had cooked just fine. But the wheat was old. Much of it floated in the mealy stew, meaning it bore weevil larvae. They werent harmful to eat, but the thought of it soured his stomach. And it pained him to ask his son to eat them, too.