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This book is dedicated to my family for experiencing so much so fast! Through the ups and downs, you have been there for me every step of the way. This is also dedicated to every person who has supported me personally through my journey. I want to thank every single one of you for all you have done! The littlest things from liking a photo to leaving a positive comment, and being there every step of the way. I would not be here if it werent for every single one of you. You have helped me push through every single day in conquering the odds and pushing thousands and millions to do the same.
Introduction
Im not exactly known for listening to doctors. Dont get me wrong, doctors have saved my life and given me incredible care through one of the hardest times anyone could go through. But some of them have also told me things like you have one to ten years to live and you wont be able to work out during chemo and go have a burger and a beer and enjoy yourself. I couldnt just take their word for it.
However, when one of my doctors saw what I was going through and said, Logan, you should write a book, I listened. At the time, I wasnt sure how it would all come together. Mostly, I just wanted to have a place to vent while my world was falling apart.
When I was nineteen, in one moment my whole world changed. I went from high school athlete and college freshman to stage IV glioblastoma patient overnight. I was told to give up on life, on my entrepreneurial dreamsI even lost my girlfriend. The thing is, my life changed for the better just as quickly. Its strange, but the people who doubted me in my life inspired me. My setbacks motivated me to keep going, regardless of what happened.
Nelson Mandela famously said, It always seems impossible until its done, and its true. There is literally no way I could have imagined the obstacles that were ahead of me. There were times when I didnt know how I would get past them. Now that its done, Im just grateful.
Writing this book was a challenge. It made me uncomfortable in so many ways. I had to see my story laid out from top to bottom. I had to wrestle with comparison and wonder whether I had anything worth sharing. When I got to the end, I wrote a letter right to cancer. I thought about everything wed been through together and what Id learned along the way. I imagined myself stopping the fight, not running anymore, and just turning around to shake cancers hand and say thank you for the way it changed my life.
If youve picked up this book and youre struggling with somethingwhether youve come here through my fitness channels and youre working on your body, or youre facing cancer or any other obstacleyou have everything you need to overcome it, right there inside of you. Ive learned that none of the people who told me you cant were ever my obstacle. Really, we make our own limitations.
Think about it. When were ready to lose weight, if we dont see results after a week, we start to fall off. We tell ourselves that were failing or that this isnt going to go well. We compare ourselves to other people, hang on to our past, and feed on the negative energy like fuel.
So for the next thirty days, Id love to share my story with you as you face your own obstacles. Take your time. Use what Ive learned along the way as fuel that can keep you going, no matter what youre up against. In fact, as youre reading my story and thinking about your own life, see if you can find a way to actually thank that obstacle or struggle.
Think of it this way: Could you write a letter to your weight, your debt, or your business? Could you thank it for making you grow? Can you find room to become happier, to enjoy the present, and to face the fear and doubt that has held you back?
Lets do that together. Lets find the energy, inspiration, and power to stop saying f*** you and start saying thank you to the stuff in our way.
Thank you for letting me share my story with you. Thank you for taking me along on your journey as you face your own impossible situation. Thank you for giving me some of your precious, beautiful time, and for investing it all into the better you that youre creating every day.
Remember, it only seems impossible until its done.
Week One
Week One : Inner Fortitude
Once your mindset changes, everything on the outside will change along with it.
Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free
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Pre - Diagnosis
Im nineteen and wrapping up my freshman year in college. Life is as good as it can possibly be. I have a vision. I want to carve my own path. The very first day of school, I tell my girlfriend of four years that my goal is to drop out one day.
My parents are completely on board, as always. Id played basketball all through high school and could have accepted scholarships to play in college, but I wanted to be an entrepreneur. My dad and I started a private - label bodybuilding supplement company, and now its tracking to become my full - time gig.
As long as I wait until my company is off the ground before quitting, theyre completely fine with my plan. Honestly, theyve never not been supportive. I thinkI knowIm invincible.
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Thought
noun. an intention, hope, or idea of doing or receiving something.
synonyms: anticipation, expectation, prospect, contemplation, likelihood, possibility.
Nothing bad was ever on my radar. Maybe that made some things go unnoticed, like the mild headaches I would get pretty regularly. But things were too good and my dreams were too big to slow down for something like a headache.
On March 6, 2016, I didnt have a choice anymore.
That morning, I was so motivated. It was time to get lean, hit my bulking goal, shred up for summer. So I prepped a meal, posted a picture on Instagram, and headed out for the gym. On the way there, I FaceTimed my girlfriend, set my phone on my knee, and smiled when I saw her face. I know, I know. Maybe I shouldnt have been on the phone while I was driving. I was just trying to be a good boyfriend. And really, if I hadnt called her, Im not sure what would have happened.
Within seconds, something went wrong. I knew exactly what I was trying to say, but the words didnt come out. It felt like I was a robot with bad programming or something. My body was doing something completely different than what I thought it should. She thought I was playing a joke on her as I started to slur, but then the seizure started.
She and her mom watched from the phone at my knee as I drove for about a half mile, completely unconscious. If Id already been on the highway, my story would have ended very differently. Thankfully, I ran into a little ditch and wound up without any damage to the car at all. My girlfriend called an ambulance, and I remember waking up inside of it for just a quick moment. I could tell where I was but had no idea why. A few hours later, I woke up again, this time lying on my side on something like a stretcher. I could hear voices, see the bar of the bed in front of my face and the doctors jacket on the other side. My mom was thereand then I was gone again.
No one really knew what was going on. They asked all of the standard questionshas he ever had a seizure, is he doing any drugs, does he have any health issuesand had no obvious answers. When I came around, they did some blood work and a CAT scan. Nothing.