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Introducing a new star of her generation, an electric debut story collection about young African-American and mixed-race teens, women, and men struggling to find a place in their families and communities. When Danielle Evanss short story Virgins was published in The Paris Review in late 2007, it announced the arrival of a bold new voice. Written when she was only twenty-three, Evanss story of two black, blue-collar fifteen-year-old girls flirtation with adulthood for one night was startling in its pitch-perfect examination of race, class, and the shifting terrain of adolescence. Now this debut collection delivers on the promise of that early story. In Harvest, a college students unplanned pregnancy forces her to confront her own feelings of inadequacy in comparison to her white classmates. In Jellyfish, a fathers misguided attempt to rescue a gift for his grown daughter from an apartment collapse magnifies all he doesnt know about her. And in Snakes, the mixed-race daughter of intellectuals recounts the disastrous summer she spent with her white grandmother and cousin, a summer that has unforeseen repercussions in the present. Striking in their emotional immediacy, the stories in Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self are based in a world where inequality is reality but where the insecurities of adolescence and young adulthood, and the tensions within family and the community, are sometimes the biggest complicating forces in ones sense of identity and the choices one makes.

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Table of Contents Im sick of mediating with your worst self On behalf of - photo 1
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Im sick of mediating with your worst self On behalf of your better selves I am - photo 2
Im sick of mediating with your worst self
On behalf of your better selves
I am sick
Of having to remind you
To breathe
Before you suffocate
Your own fool self
DONNA KATE RUSHIN, The Bridge Poem

I do not believe our wants
have made all our lies holy.
AUDRE LORDE, Between Ourselves
Virgins
Me and Jasmine and Michael were hanging out at Mr. Thompsons pool. We were fifteen and it was the first weekend after school started, and me and Jasmine were sitting side by side on one of Mr. Thompsons ripped-up green-and-white lawn chairs, doing each others nails while the radio played Me Against the World. It was the day after Tupac got shot, and even Hot 97, which hadnt played any West Coast for months, wasnt playing anything else. Jasmine kept complaining that Michael smelled like bananas.
Sunscreen, Jasmine said, is some white-people shit. Thats them white girls youve been hanging out with, got you wearing sunscreen. Black people dont burn.
Never mind that Michael was lighter than Jasmine and I was lighter than Michael, and really all three of us burned. Earlier, when Jasmine had gone to the bathroom, Id let Michael rub sunscreen gently into my back. I guess I smelled like bananas, too, but I couldnt smell anything but the polish, and I didnt think she could, either. Jasmine was on about some other stuff.
You smell like food, Jasmine said. I dont know why you wanna smell like food. Aint nobody here gonna lick you because you smell like bananas. Maybe that shit works in Bronxville, but not with us.
I dont want you to lick me, Michael said. I dont know where your mouth has been. I know you dont never shut it.
Shut up, I said. They were my only two real friends and if they fought Idve had to fix it. I turned up the dial on Mr. Thompsons radio, which was big and old. The metal had deep scratches on it, and rust spots left by people like us, who didnt watch to see whether or not wed flicked drops of water on it. It had a good sound, though. When the song was over they cut to some politician from the city saying again that it was a shame talented young black people kept dying like this, and it was time to do something about it. Theyd been saying that all day. Mr. Thompson got up and cut off the radio.
You live like a thug, you die like a thug, he said, looking at us. Its nothing to cry over when people wake up in the beds they made.
He was looking for an argument, but I didnt say nothing, and Jasmine didnt, either. Part of swimming in Mr. Thompsons pool was that he was always saying stuff like that. It still beat swimming at the city pool, which had closed for the season last weekend, and before that had been closed for a week after someone got beat up there. When it was open it was crowded and dirty from little kids who peed in it, and was usually full of people who were always trying to start something. People like Michael, who had nothing better to do.
Im not crying for nobody, Michael told Mr. Thompson. Tupac been dead to me since he dissed B.I.G. He looked up and made some bootleg version of the sign of the cross, like he was talking about God or something. He mustve seen it in a movie.
Mr. Thompson shook his head at us and walked back to the lawn chair where hed been reading the paper. He let it crinkle loudly when he opened it again, like even the sound of someone else reading would make us less ignorant.
Jasmine snorted. She lifted Michaels sweatshirt with the tips of her thumb and index finger so she didnt scratch her still-drying polish and pulled out the pictures he had been showing us before Mr. Thompson came overphotos of his latest girlfriend, a brunette with big eyes and enormous breasts, lying on a bed with a lot of ruffles on it.
You live like a white girl, you act like a white girl, said Jasmine, frowning at the picture and making her voice deep like she was Mr. Thompson.
Shes not white, said Michael. Shes Italian.
Jasmine squinted at the girls penny-sized pink nipples. She look white to me.
Shes Italian, said Michael.
Italian people aint white?
No.
What the fuck are they, then?
Italian.
Mr. Thompson, Jasmine called across the yard, are Italian people white?
Ask the Ethiopians, said Mr. Thompson, and none of us knew what the hell he was talking about, so we all shut up for a minute.
The air started to feel cooler through our swimsuits, and Michael got up, putting his jeans on over his wet swim trunks and pulling his sweatshirt over his head. I followed Jasmine into the house, where we took turns changing in the downstairs bathroom. It was an old house, like most of the ones in his part of town, but Mr. Thompson kept it nice: the wallpaper was peeling a little, but the bathroom was clean. The soap in the soap dish was shaped like a seashell, and it seemed like we were the only ones who ever used it. On our way out we said good-bye to Mr. Thompson, who nodded at us and grunted, Girls; then, harsher, at Michael: Boy.
Michael rolled his eyes. Michael wasnt bad. Mostly I thought he hung out with us because he was bored a lot. He needed somebody to chill with when the white girls he was fuckings parents were home. We didnt get him in trouble as much as his boys did. We hung out with him because we figured it was easier to have a boy around than not to. Strangers usually thought one of us was with him, and they didnt know which, so they didnt bother either of us. When you were alone, men were always wanting something from you. We even wondered about Mr. Thompson sometimes, or at least we never went swimming at his house without Michael with us.
Mr. Thompson was retired, but he used to be our elementary school principal, which is how he was the only person in Mount Vernon we knew with a swimming pool in his backyard. Weand everybody else we knewlived on the south side, where it was mostly apartment buildings, and if you had a house, you were lucky if your backyard was big enough for a plastic kiddie pool. The bus didnt go by Mr. Thompsons house, and it was a twenty-minute walk from our houses even if we walked fast, but it was nicer than swimming at the city pool. We were the only ones hed told could use his pool anytime.
It s cause I collected more than anyone else for the fourth-grade can drive, when we got the computers, I said. He likes me.
Nah, Jasmine said, he dont even remember that. Its cause my mom worked at the school all those years.
Jasmines mom had been one of the lunch ladies, and wed gone out of our way to pretend not to know her, with her hairnet cutting a line into her broad forehead, her face all covered in sweat. Even when she got home shed smell like grease for hours. Sometimes if my mother made me a bag lunch, Id split it with Jasmine so we didnt have to go through the lunch line and hear the other kids laugh. At school, Mr. Thompson had been nicer to Jasmines mother than we had. We felt bad for letting Mr. Thompson make us nervous. He was the smartest man either of us knew, and probably he was just being nice. We were not stupid, though. Wed had enough nice guys suddenly look at us the wrong way.
My first kiss was with a boy whod said hed walk me home and a block later was licking my mouth. The first time a guy had ever touched melike touched me thereI was eleven and he was sixteen and a lifeguard at the city pool. Wed been playing chicken and when he put me down he held me against the cement and put his fingers in me, and I wasnt scared or anything, just cold and surprised. When I told Jasmine later she said he did that to everyone, her too. Michael kept people like that out of our way. People had used to say that he was fucking one of us, or trying to, but it wasnt like that. He was our friend, and hed moved on to white girls from Bronxville anyway. It was like he didnt even see us like girls sometimes, and that felt nice because mostly everybody else did.
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