Candace Bushnell - The Carrie Diaries

They say a lot can happen in a summer.

Or not.

Its the first day of senior year, and as far as I can tell, Im exactly the same as I was last year.

And so is my best friend, Lali.

Dont forget, Bradley, we have to get boyfriends this year, she says, starting the engine of the red pickup truck she inherited from one of her older brothers.

Crap. We were supposed to get boyfriends last year and we didnt. I open the door and scoot in, sliding the letter into my biology book, where, I figure, it can do no more harm. Cant we give this whole boyfriend thing a rest? We already know all the boys in our school. And

Actually, we dont, Lali says as she slides the gear stick into reverse, glancing over her shoulder. Of all my friends, Lali is the best driver. Her father is a cop and insisted she learn to drive when she was twelve, in case of an emergency.

I hear theres a new kid, she says.

So? The last new kid who came to our school turned out to be a stoner who never changed his overalls.

Jen P says hes cute. Really cute.

Uh-huh. Jen P was the head of Leif Garretts fan club in sixth grade. If he actually is cute, Donna LaDonna will get him.

He has a weird name, Lali says. Sebastian something. Sebastian Little?

Sebastian Kydd? I gasp.

Thats it, she says, pulling into the parking lot of the high school. She looks at me suspiciously. Do you know him?

I hesitate, my fingers grasping the door handle.

My heart pounds in my throat; if I open my mouth, Im afraid it will jump out.

I shake my head.

Were through the main door of the high school when Lali spots my boots. Theyre white patent leather and theres a crack on one of the toes, but theyre genuine go-go boots from the early seventies. I figure the boots have had a much more interesting life than I have. Bradley, she says, eyeing the boots with disdain. As your best friend, I cannot allow you to wear those boots on the first day of senior year.

Too late, I say gaily. Besides, someones got to shake things up around here.

Dont go changing. Lali makes her hand into a gun shape, kisses the tip of her finger, and points it at me before heading for her locker.

Good luck, Angel, I say. Changing . Ha. Not much chance of that. Not after the letter.

Dear Ms. Bradshaw, it read.

Thank you for your application to the New Schools Advanced Summer Writing Seminar. While your stories show promise and imagination, we regret to inform you that we are unable to offer you a place in the program at this time.

I got the letter last Tuesday. I reread it about fifteen times, just to be sure, and then I had to lie down. Not that I think Im so talented or anything, but for once in my life, I was hoping I was.

I didnt tell anyone about it, though. I didnt even tell anyone Id applied, including my father. He went to Brown and expects me to go there, too. He thinks Id make a good scientist. And if I cant hack molecular structures, I can always go into biology and study bugs.

Im halfway down the hall when I spot Cynthia Viande and Tommy Brewster, Castleburys golden Pod couple. Tommy isnt too bright, but he is the center on the basketball team. Cynthia, on the other hand, is senior class president, head of the prom committee, an outstanding member of the National Honor Society, and got all the Girl Scout badges by the time she was ten. She and Tommy have been dating for three years. I try not to give them much thought, but alphabetically, my last name comes right before Tommys, so Im stuck with the locker next to his and stuck sitting next to him in assembly, and therefore basically stuck seeing himand Cynthiaevery day.

And dont make those goofy faces during assembly, Cynthia scolds. This is a very important day for me. And dont forget about Daddys dinner on Saturday.

What about my party? Tommy protests.

You can have the party on Friday night, Cynthia snaps.

There could be an actual person inside Cynthia, but if there is, Ive never seen it.

I swing open my locker. Cynthia suddenly looks up and spots me. Tommy gives me a blank stare, as if he has no idea who I am, but Cynthia is too well brought up for that. Hello, Carrie, she says, like shes thirty years old instead of seventeen.

Changing. Its hard to pull off in this little town.

Welcome to hell school, a voice behind me says.

Its Walt. Hes the boyfriend of one of my other best friends, Maggie. Walt and Maggie have been dating for two years, and the three of us do practically everything together. Which sounds kind of weird, but Walt is like one of the girls.

Walt, Cynthia says. Youre just the man I want to see.

If you want me to be on the prom committee, the answer is no.

Cynthia ignores Walts little joke. Its about Sebastian Kydd. Is he really coming back to Castlebury?

Not again. My nerve endings light up like a Christmas tree.

Thats what Doreen says. Walt shrugs as if he couldnt care less. Doreen is Walts mother and a guidance counselor at Castlebury High. She claims to know everything, and passes all her information on to Waltthe good, the bad, and the completely untrue.

I heard he was kicked out of private school for dealing drugs, Cynthia says. I need to know if were going to have a problem on our hands.

I have no idea, Walt says, giving her an enormous fake smile. Walt finds Cynthia and Tommy nearly as annoying as I do.

What kind of drugs? I ask casually as we walk away.

Painkillers?

Like in Valley of the Dolls ? Its my favorite secret book, along with the DSM-III , which is this tiny manual about mental disorders. Where the hell do you get painkillers these days?

Oh, Carrie, I dont know, Walt says, no longer interested. His mother?

Not likely. I try to squeeze the memory of my one-and-only encounter with Sebastian Kydd out of my head but it sneaks in anyway.

I was twelve and starting to go through an awkward stage. I had skinny legs and no chest, two pimples, and frizzy hair. I was also wearing cats-eye glasses and carrying a dog-eared copy of What About Me? by Mary Gordon Howard. I was obsessed with feminism. My mother was remodeling the Kydds kitchen, and wed stopped by their house to check on the project. Suddenly, Sebastian appeared in the doorway. And for no reason, and completely out of the blue, I sputtered, Mary Gordon Howard believes that most forms of sexual intercourse can be classified as rape.

For a moment, there was silence. Mrs. Kydd smiled. It was the end of the summer, and her tan was set off by her pink and green shorts in a swirly design. She wore white eye shadow and pink lipstick. My mother always said Mrs. Kydd was considered a great beauty. Hopefully youll feel differently about it once youre married.

Oh, I dont plan to get married. Its a legalized form of prostitution.

Oh my. Mrs. Kydd laughed, and Sebastian, who had paused on the patio on his way out, said, Im taking off.

Again, Sebastian? Mrs. Kydd exclaimed with a hint of annoyance. But the Bradshaws just got here.

Sebastian shrugged. Going over to Bobbys to play drums.

I stared after him in silence, my mouth agape. Clearly Mary Gordon Howard had never met a Sebastian Kydd.

It was love at first sight.

In assembly, I take my seat next to Tommy Brewster, who is hitting the kid in front of him with a notebook. A girl in the aisle is asking if anyone has a tampon, while two girls behind me are excitedly whispering about Sebastian Kydd, who seems to become more and more notorious each time his name is mentioned.

I heard he went to jail

His family lost all their money

No girl has managed to hold on to him for more than three weeks

I force Sebastian Kydd out of my thoughts by pretending Cynthia Viande is not a fellow student but a strange species of bird. Habitat: any stage that will have her. Plumage: tweed skirt, white shirt with cashmere sweater, sensible shoes, and a string of pearls that is probably real. She keeps shifting her papers from one arm to the other and tugging down her skirt, so maybe shes a little nervous after all. I know I would be. I wouldnt want to be, but I would. My hands would be shaking and my voice would come out in a squeak, and afterward, Id hate myself for not taking control of the situation.