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For my wife, Taylor, and my children, Christopher, Alex, Zach and Hannah Grace: They have given me a world beyond anything I imagined. And become my best friends along the way.
Acknowledgments
Dr. David Hunter, Dept. of Ophthamology, Childrens Hospital Boston, Harvard Medical School. Dr. Stephen Rose, Chief Research Officer, Foundation Fighting Blindness. The great Terry Hanratty, who once lit up college football Saturdays at Notre Dame. Billy Goldman, of Highland Park, Illinois. Esther Newberg. Bene and Lee Lupica, who still make me look for the best in myself. And, of course, Michael Green: Im just sayin.
CHAPTER 1
This was always the best of it for Nate Brodie, when he felt the slap of the ball in his hands and began to back away from the center, when he felt as if he could see the whole field, and football made perfect sense to him.
Sometimes when you were thirteen nothing seemed to make sense, and the world came at you faster and trickier than flying objects in a video game.
It was never like that for him in football.
Never.
Nate had been having more and more trouble figuring out his world lately, especially with everything that had been happening to his family. School was schoolhe tried hard, but there were times he just felt lost, in search of answers that wouldnt come.
And no matter how hard he tried, how hard he could try, he was never going to make sense out of what was happening to his friend Abby.
But on a Saturday morning like this, underneath all the sun and blue sky, with the guys in the line already into their blocks and Nate feeling as if he had all day to throw the ballfeeling that weird calm he always felt in the pockethe had all the answers.
Football was like this for Nate Brodie.
As he scanned the field now, he recognized one of those answers he instinctively knew. Pete Mullaney, his favorite receiver, was about to break into the clear. Once he did that, Nate knew Pete was going to run all day.
When it was just Nate and Pete and some of the other guys on the team playing touch football in the empty lot next to Nates house, they called this play Hutchins-and-Go. One day Nate had told Pete to fake toward the Hutchins house, the one on the other side of the lot, fake like he was running a sideline pattern in that direction, and then, as soon as the guy covering him bit, Pete was supposed to plant his outside foot and spin and take off down the sidelines.
The play had just always been called Hutchins-and-Go after that.
Nate watched as Pete sold his fake now, sold it like he was selling candy, didnt rush, even turned and looked back for the ball. That was when the defensive back on him committed, turned, and looked for the ball himself.
Only Pete was gone.
And the ball wasnt coming, at least not yet.
Now it was just a question of what kind of throw Nate wanted to make. Because with the kind of arm he hadhis buds and teammates always called him Brady, knowing that Tom Brady was Nates all-time favorite playerthere were a couple of ways he could go. Nate could put a lot of air beneath the ball, really hang it up there and let Pete use those jets of his to run under it. Or Nate could gun one right now, throw one of those dead spirals that was the same as one of his football fastballs, put so much sting and hurt at the end of the pass that Pete sometimes said he wished he was allowed to wear a catchers mitt.
Nate decided to put this one way up there.
Moon shot.
He rolled to his right now, feeling pressure coming from his left, a right-handed quarterbacks blind side, without actually seeing it. But just to make sure, to know exactly how much time he had, he shot a quick look over his shoulder and saw that the Hollins Hills nose tackle had cleared Malcolm Burnley, Nates center and the best blocker Valley had, on an outside route and was coming hard, thinking he might have a shot at getting his first sack of the day.
Nate knew he didnt.
In no hurry, Nate kept moving toward the sideline, toward the Valley bench, almost feeling as if he were floating. Having cleared the pocket completely, a nice patch of open green waited for him a few yards in front of Coach Rivers.
He stopped now, planting, making sure to square his shoulders so he didnt drop his arm angle and sidearm the ball, setting himself on his back foot, carrying the ball high. The throwing mechanics that Coach said you pretty much had to be born with.
And he let the ball rip.
Knowing that the cornerback who had been covering Pete was never going to catch up with him and that the Hollins Hills safety had no chance of getting over to the sideline in time.
He watched the ball like it was on a string, like one of those perfect casts his dad used to make across the water when the two of them still had time to go fishing together, before his dad began working all the time.
He hoped his mom was getting this on the video recorder that was on its last legs and had been for a while, because his dadworking a double shift on Saturdays nowwasnt here to see it in person.
The ball came down into Pete Mullaneys hands, Pete in perfect stride, just crossing the Hollins Hills 10-yard line.
Pete pressed the ball to the front of his white uniform with those sure hands of his and crossed the goal line. Then he turned and just tossed the ball to the referee, because if you played on a team with Nate Brodie, if he was the one throwing you the ball, you knew enough not to do some kind of crazy touchdown dance afterward.
You could be happy, just not happy enough to show the other team up.
Nate was running down the sideline now, almost as fast as Pete just had. All the things that were confusing about his thirteen-year-old life latelythe things that made him sad and just plain mad once he got away from a football fieldNate had left them all in his dust.
By the time Nate got to Pete, the little wide receiver was on the Valley sideline, waiting for him with his arms stretched wide. Nate, taller than Pete by a whole helmet, grabbed him, picked him up, put him down just as quickly, as much celebration as he was going to allow himself, mostly because there was still some game left to play.
Pete said, That throw was legit.
You always say that, Nate said.
No, Brady, this time I really mean it. That throw was, like, righteous.
Nate laughed now, couldnt help it. I had the wind behind me.
Pete Mullaney shook his head, smiling from behind his face mask. Dude, he said, as far as I can tell, your arm is pretty much where the wind starts.
Nate ran over to Coach Rivers then, to get the play Coach wanted them to run on the conversion. Then he ran back on the field and told his teammates he was faking to LaDell and then taking it in himself, on a roll to his left.
Nobody touched him. Valley was up 22-7. They all knew the game was over, even with the clock showing two minutes, straight up, left.
He and Pete ran off the field together, knowing that the forty yarder theyd just hooked up on had put this one in the books.
When Nate got back to the bench, Coach Rivers gave him a simple handshake.
A Brady throw all the way, he said.
I wish, Nate said.
Im serious, Coach said. Biggest throw of the season. For now, Nate thought.
