Copyright 2017 by Mike Lupica.
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This book is for my Pop, Bene Lupica, who came home from flying in B-24s over Europe at the age of twenty to live a great American life.
ONE
C LAYS COACH SAID YOU CANT play football scared.
Well, that wasnt exactly the way Coach Monty CooperCoach Coopsaid it in his South Texas accent. He said you caint play football scared, and to never forget that, because he never had.
Coach Coop said a lot of things, about football and life and Texas, mostly about his playing days with the Dallas Cowboys and how much he missed those days, every single damn one of them. When hed say that, the last part, hed apologize for swearing and tell them all over again that they ought to have a swear pot for him. Clay always thought that if they did, theyd be on their way to buying the Cowboys.
And Coach Coop had all these expressions, some of them Texas and some of themat least to Clays twelve-year-old mindjust plain weird. But they were all just plain Coach, who liked to joke that a lot of people hed met across the years, from his time playing college ball at TCU and then with the Cowboys, said he acted as if hed played without a helmet.
I really shouldve been born in another time, Coach said after practice one day to Clay and his buddy David Guerrero, the quarterback for the Alamo Stars.
What time would that be? Clay said.
Coach Coop looked at him and said, Thought I told you never to ask me what time it was. He laughed and turned his head and spit, something he did a lot. A lot of em when I played were smarter than me, he said to Clay and David. Heck, most of em were smarter than me. But not one I ever played with or against was ever any by-God tougher.
He had been born in San Antonio and played his high school ball here before he went to TCU and then to the Cowboys. And because he had finally come back home and was living in San Antonio again, he was always referencing the Alamo when hed give them a pep talk, telling them that those good ol boys hadnt gotten beat, that old General Santy Annawhich is what Coach called himhad just been allowed to have way too many men on the field.
But as big as Coach was with all his expressions and all his stories about his playing days, the expression he kept coming back to was the one about not playing scared. He made doing that sound like some kind of sin. Or a crime against football.
Coach Monty Cooper said that once you put on those shoulder pads and strapped on that helmet, you could be a lot of things. Smart or dumb. Fast or slow. Step ahead of the action or step behind.
You just couldnt be afraid.
Not of the other team. Not of making a mistake, or losing. Especially not afraid of getting hit, of taking a good lick, as Coach liked to say.
And that had never been a problem for Clay Hollis from the first time hed put on pads and strapped on a helmet.
Until today.
TWO
C LAY WAS A WIDE RECEIVER, the best on the Stars, probably the best in the Pee Wee Divisionthere wasnt a player on the team who didnt hate that nameof San Antonio Pop Warner, the division for kids between ten and twelve.
In the words of David Guerrero, whose job it was to get the ball to him, when it came to football, Clay Hollis was serious.
He wasnt the biggest receiver they had. But he was big enough, with hands and speed to match, and with the gift that Coach Coop said the best receivers had to have: the ability for finding a seam in the defense a couple of steps before it opened up for him. Coach Coop had been a wide receiver at TCU himself, then drafted as one by the Cowboys, even though hed become more famous laterClay knew by reading up on himfor being a total maniac on special teams. But he knew that sometimes it took more than speed and good moves to get you open downfield. You just had to be born with the ability to see the field; see things that were about to develop before they actually did; see even the smallest patch of green waiting for you, whether it was in the middle of the field or a place on the sideline, where youd have enough room to make a catch and keep your feet inbounds.
Sometimes that meant busting a pattern when Clay would look back and see that David Guerrero was scrambling away from a pass rush, something David could do with the best of them.
It was another thing Clay had going for him. He knew where he needed to go when he had to make up a brand-new pass pattern on the fly, like when he and David were playing touch football on the big stretch of lawn behind Clays house. Clay knew where he needed to be, and David knew where to look for him. From the time theyd first started playing catch together, it was as if they were able to hack into each others brains, no problem.
But the problem today wasnt fixing a busted pattern. It was a simple crossing pattern over the middle, third and eight, first quarter of a still-scoreless game against the River Walk Lions. That was when Clay got hit, and his day changed, just like that. He loved reading about sports and sports history, not just football, and remembered reading one time about how Mike Tyson, the boxer, said everybody had a plan until they got hit.
Bobby Flores, a friend whod moved out of the east San Antonio school district last summer, was guarding him. But Clay had made a neat inside move as soon as hed cleared the line of scrimmage and gotten a step on Bobby. All he needed.
That wasnt Clays problem, either.
His problem was that David Guerrero, with all the time in the world in the pocket, led Clay by too much with his pass. Not a lot. But it didnt take much to blow up what should have been a simple completion, make what should have been an easy-as-pie completionand a sure first downinto something harder.
A whole lot harder.
Hard, as Clay had heard plenty of times already this season, as his old coachs head.
When the ball was halfway to him, Clay started to think it wasnt just a bit of an overthrow, but might be completely out of his reach. Unacceptable. Totally. You wanted the ball or somebody else wanted it more. That was something else he had heard from Coach Coop plenty of times. So at what he thought was the exact right moment, Clay extended his arms and himself as much as he could, almost as if he were diving for the ball without his feet leaving the ground, just because he thought he might have a better chance of collecting the ball and holding on to it if he didnt have to worry about coughing it up when he hit the ground. Or the ground hit him.