Richard Powers - Generosity: an Enhancement

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Gain

Plowing the Dark

The Time of Our Singing

The Echo Maker

GENEROSITY

RICHARD POWERS

A FRANCES COADY BOOK
FARRAR, STRAUS AND GIROUX NEW YORK

Farrar, Straus and Giroux

18 West 18th Street, New York 10011

Copyright 2009 by Richard Powers

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Distributed in Canada by Douglas & McIntyre Ltd.

Printed in the United States of America

First edition, 2009

A portion of this work was published in slightly different form in A Public Space.

What the scientist says, on , is a paraphrase from Antonio Damasios Looking for Spinoza.

Grateful acknowledgment is made for permission to reprint the following previously published material: Excerpts from Exuberance, by Kay Redfield Jamison, and A History of the World in 10 Chapters, by Julian Barnes, both courtesy of Alfred A. Knopf / Random House, Inc.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Powers, Richard, 1957

Generosity : an enhancement / Richard Powers.1st ed.

p. cm.

ISBN: 978-0-374-16114-9 (alk. paper)

1. College teachersFiction. 2. GeneticsResearchFiction. I. Title.

PS3566.O92 G46 2009

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2008054249

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La vraie gnrosit envers lavenir consiste tout donner au prsent.

Camus

Exuberance carries us places we would not otherwise goacross the savannah, to the moon, into the imaginationand if we ourselves are not so exuberant we will, caught up by the contagious joy of those who are, be inclined collectively to go yonder.

Kay Redfield Jamison, Exuberance

A man rides backward in a packed subway car. This must be almost fall, the season of revision. I picture him in the thick of bequest, tunneling beneath the I Will City, the worlds twenty-fifth biggest urban sprawl, one wedged in the population charts between Tianjin and Lima. He hums some calming mantra to himself, a song with the name Chicago in it, but the train drowns out the tune.

Hes just thirty-two, I know, although he seems much older. I cant see him well, at first. But thats my fault, not his. Im years away, in another country, and the El car is so full tonight that everyones near invisible.

Look again: the whole point of heading out anywhere tonight. The blank page is patient, and meaning can wait. I watch until he solidifies. He cowers in the scoop seat, knees tight and elbows hauled in. Hes dressed for being overlooked, in rust jeans, maroon work shirt, and blue windbreaker with broken zipper: the camouflage of the non-aligned, circa last year. Hes as white as anyone on this subway gets. His own height surprises him. His partless hair waits for a reprimand and his eyes halt midway between hazel and brown. His face is about six centuries out of date. He would make a great Franciscan novice in one of those mysteries set in a medieval monastery.

He cups a bag of ratty books on his lap. No; look harder: a ruggedized plastic sack inscribed with bright harvest cornucopia that issues the trademarked slogan, Total Satisfaction... plus so much more!

His spine curls in subway contrition, and his shoulders apologize for taking up any public space at all. His chin tests the air for the inevitable attack that might come from any direction. Id say hes headed to his next last chance. He tries to give his seat to a young Latina in a nurses uniform. She just smirks and waves him back down.

Early evening, four dozen feet below the City on the Make: every minute, the train tunnels underneath more humans than would fit in a fundamentalists heaven. Aboveground, it must be rainy and already dark. The train stops and more homebound workers press in, trickling September drizzle. This is the fifth year since the number of people living in cities outstripped those who dont.

I watch him balance a yellow legal pad on his toppling book sack. He checks through the pages, curling each back over the top of the pad. The sheets fill with blocks of trim handwriting. Red and green arrows, nervous maneuvers and counter-maneuvers, swarm over the text.

A forest of straphangers hems him in. Many are wired for sound. A damp man next to him drips on his shoes. Humanity engulfs him: phone receptionists for Big Four accounting firms. Board of Trade pit bulls, burned out by twenty-eight. Market researchers whove spent days polling focus groups on the next generation of portable deionizers. Purveyors and contractors, drug dealers, number crunchers, busboys, grant writers. Just brushing against them in memory makes me panic.

Advertisements crown the cars walls: Outpsych your tyke. Want to know what makes the planet tick? Make your life just a little perfecter. Every few minutes, a voice calls over the speakers: If you observe any suspicious behavior or unattended packages...

I force my eyes back down over the scribblers left shoulder, spying on his notes. The secret of all imagination: theft. I stare at his yellow legal pages until they resolve. Theyre full of lesson plans.

I know this man. Hes been fished from the citys adjunct-teacher pool, an eleventh-hour hire, still working on his first nights class even as the train barrels toward his South Loop station. The evidence is as clear as his all-caps printing: ethics has wrecked his life, and this fluke part-time night job is his last hope for rehabilitation. He never expected to land such a plum again. Death and resurrection: I know this story, like I wrote it myself.

The train wags, he pitches in his seat, and I dont know anything. I stop deciding and return to looking. A heading on the top of his pads first page reads: Creative Nonfiction 14, Sect. RS: Journal and Journey.

A heavy teen in a flak jacket bumps him. He squeezes out a retreating smile. Then he resumes drawing red arrows, even now, two subway stops from his first nights class. As I always say: Its never too late to overprepare. His pen freezes in midair; he looks up. I glance away, caught spying. But his hand just hovers. When I look back, hes the one whos spying on someone else.

Hes watching a dark-haired boy across the aisle, a boy with a secret quickening in his hands. Something yellow floats on the back of the boys curled fist. His two knuckles pin a goldfinch by the ankles. The boy quiets the bird, caressing in a foreign tongue.

My adjuncts hand holds still, afraid that his smallest motion will scatter this scene. The boy sees him looking, and he hurries the bird back into a bamboo cylinder. My spy flushes crimson and returns to his notes.

I watch him shuffle pages, searching for a passage in green highlighter that reads First Assignment. The words have been well worked over. He strikes them out once more and writes: Find one thing in the last day worth telling a total stranger.

Clearly hes terrified there may be no such thing. I see it in his spine: hell bother no one with his days prize, least of all a total stranger.