A. Igoni Barrett - Blackass: A Novel

BLACKASS

BY THE SAME AUTHOR

Love Is Power, or Something Like That

Blackass

A Novel

A. IGONI BARRETT

Graywolf Press

Copyright 2015 by A. Igoni Barrett

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First published in 2015 by Chatto & Windus, an imprint of Vintage/Penguin Random House UK, London

This publication is made possible, in part, by the voters of Minnesota through a Minnesota State Arts Board Operating Support grant, thanks to a legislative appropriation from the arts and cultural heritage fund, and through grants from the National Endowment for the Arts and the Wells Fargo Foundation Minnesota. Significant support has also been provided by Target, the McKnight Foundation, the Amazon Literary Partnership, and other generous contributions from foundations, corporations, and individuals. To these organizations and individuals we offer our heartfelt thanks.

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To Carlton Lindsay Barrett

O gbodo ridin (dont be stupid)

O gbodo suegbe (dont be slow)

O gbodo ya mugun lEko (dont allow yourself to be taken for a fool)

Words on the plinth of the Agba Meta (Three Elders) statue at the entrance to Lagos

FURO WARIBOKO

And now? Gregor asked himself,
looking around in the darkness.

Franz Kafka, The Metamorphosis

Furo Wariboko awoke this morning to find that dreams can lose their way and turn up on the wrong side of sleep. He was lying nude in bed, and when he raised his head a fraction he could see his alabaster belly, and his pale legs beyond, covered with fuzz that glinted bronze in the cold daylight pouring in through the open window. He sat up with a sudden motion that swilled the panic in his stomach and spilled his hands into his lap. He stared at his hands, the pink life lines in his palms, the shellfish-coloured cuticles, the network of blue veins that ran from knuckle to wrist, more veins than he had ever noticed before. His hands were not black but white same as his legs, his belly, all of him. He clenched his fists, squeezed his eyes shut, and sank on to the bed. Outside, a bird chirruped short piercing cries, like mocking laughter.

When he opened his eyes again the air was silent, the bird was flown. Turning on his side, his gaze roved the familiar corners of his bedroom and rested on his going-out shoes, their brown leather polished to a dull lustre, placed at attention beside the door. His blue T.M. Lewin shirt and his favourite black cotton trousers (which he had stayed awake till after midnight, when power returned, to iron) were hanging from the chair at his desk. His plastic folder, packed tight with documents, was on the desk. He stared at the folder till his eyeballs itched with dryness, and then he rolled to the beds edge and blinked at the screen of his BlackBerry lying on the floor. He grimaced with relief: the alarm hadnt gone off: he had sixteen minutes until it rang at eight. On account of Lagos traffic he planned to leave the house at half past eight. A bath, get dressed, eat breakfast, and then he would be off.

Furo heaved on to his back and fixed his gaze on the white ceiling squares festooned with fragments of old cobwebs. He tried to corral his thoughts into the path of logic, but his efforts were brushed aside by his panicked heartbeats. Through the window and far away he heard the unruffled buzz of traffic, the whale honks of trailers, the urgent beeping of a reversing Coaster bus, the same school bus that arrived every weekday around this time. The accustomed sounds of Monday morning. It appeared a normal day for everyone else, and that thought brought Furo no succour, it only confirmed what he already knew, that he was alone in this lingering dream. But what he knew did not explain the how, the why, or the why today. I shouldnt have stayed up late, he said to himself, no wonder I had such nightmares I, who never dream! He tried to remember what he had dreamed of, but all he recalled was climbing into bed with the same dread he had slept with since he received the email notifying him of his job interview.

He was startled back to alertness by his phone alarm. He reached forwards to turn it off, then pushed his legs off the bed, and sat at the edge with his feet pressed into the rug. The pallor of his feet was stark against the rugs crimson. He was white, full oyibo, no doubt about it and, with his knees swinging, the flesh of his thighs jiggling, his mind following these bone-and-flesh motions for bewildered seconds before moving its attention to other details of his physiology, he began to comprehend the extent of his transformation. He stilled his knees and, calming himself with a deep suck of air, raised his hand to his cramped neck. As he massaged, his mouth hung open and gastric gasses washed over his tongue in quiet hiccups.

Then, without telltale footsteps, three knocks sounded on the bedroom door. Furo caught his breath and glared, thinking, I locked it, didnt I? I hope I locked it! Furo, his mother called, tapping again. Are you awake? The handle turned. The door was locked.

Im awake! Furo cried out. The relief in his voice made it sound strange to his ears, but otherwise it was his, unchanged. Good morning, Mummy.

Morning, dear, his mother said, and rattled the handle. Come and open the door.

Im not dressed, Im getting ready, Furo said in a rush, and bit his lip at the quaver in his voice. But his mother it seemed had noticed nothing abnormal. Im off to work, she said. Remember, today is Monday, traffic will be bad. You should leave soon.

Yes, Mummy.

Your fathers awake. I asked him to drop you off.

OK, Mummy.

Ive told Tekena to fix you breakfast, but you know how your sister is, she wont get out of bed unless shes dragged. Remind her before you enter the bathroom.

Let her sleep. I can take care of myself.

In the ensuing silence, the back of Furos neck ached, the hairs on his arms prickled, and he moved his hands to his groin, cupped it from view. When his mother spoke again, her tone sounded like it came from a troubled place.

Dont worry too much, ehn. Just do your best at the interview. If that job is yours, Im sure youll get it. Everything will be OK.

Thank you, Mummy, Furo said. Have a good day.

At the sound of the front door closing, Furo raised both hands to stroke the sweat from his bristled scalp, and after dropping his hands to the bed to dry them, he tried to focus his mind on the problems that swelled before him. His father and his sister were obstacles he had to elude. Another hurdle was money. He had no money, not a kobo on him. Hed planned to ask his mother for the bus fare to the interview, but even if hed dared to speak about it through the closed door, his fathers offer of a ride had quashed any chances of that succeeding. (It was impossible to accept, absurd to even think it, but there it was before his eyes, this skin colour that others were born into but he, Furo, had awoken to.) There was his sister, and he could try borrowing from her, but how to collect the money without facing her? No, too risky he would have to walk. There was no time to eat, to bathe, to take chances. He had to leave now. There was no more denying what he was experiencing at this moment: he, Furo, son of a mother who knew his voice, was now a white man.