Marilyn Kaye - Gifted: Now You See Me

For Devlin Burstein

TRACEY!

Her mothers voice rang out loud and clear from the kitchen. Curled up with a book on the living room sofa, Tracey responded.

What?

Tracey! Have you seen my handbag?

Tracey raised her eyes from the page and surveyed the room.

Its under the coffee table, she called back.

Tracey! Now her mother sounded annoyed. Tracey, answer me!

Tracey frowned. Was her mother developing a hearing problem? She was about to yell back even louder when the front door opened and her father came in and walked right past Tracey without even greeting her. That was when Tracey realized that sometime in the past half-hour, shed gone invisible.

She wished she could understand how and why this had happened. It used to be so simple. Years of feeling unimportant and not worthy of attention had caused her to go invisible on a regular basis. She didnt feel that way about herself any more, but occasionally she could make herself go invisible by recalling how she used to feel. It wasnt always a reliable process, but shed been getting better and better at controlling her gift. Still, every now and then it just happened she would disappear, and she wasnt sure why. Maybe this time it was caused by the book shed been reading, Jane Eyre. The character of Jane had just been sent away to a nasty boarding school, and she was lonely. Maybe Tracey was simply feeling sad for the character. .

Her father had gone into the kitchen and she could hear her parents conversation.

Have you seen my handbag? her mother asked.

No, did you lose it?

I dont know. I dont think so I had it this morning. But Ive looked all over the house! The seven are at their swimming class, I have to pick them up in ten minutes, and I cant find my bag!

So that was why the house was so quiet, Tracey mused. Her little sisters, the identical septuplets collectively known as the Devon Seven, werent at home.

What am I going to do? her mother wailed. She sounded on the verge of hysteria, which didnt really alarm Tracey. Mrs Devon had a tendency to become terribly dramatic very easily.

Reluctantly, Tracey put her book down. Come back, she ordered herself. But of course, it wasnt that easy. She concentrated on feeling good about herself. People pay attention to me, my parents care about me, Ive got friends. It didnt work she was still invisible. She really had to work harder on controlling her gift, practise more, learn how to concentrate harder. But meanwhile, her mother needed her handbag.

Tracey got up, retrieved the handbag from under the coffee table, and ambled into the kitchen. Her mother was still ranting.

My car keys are in the bag! How can I pick the girls up without car keys?

Take my car, Mr Devon suggested.

But my drivers licence is in my bag! I cant drive without a licence!

Tracey planted herself in front of her mother and dangled the bag in the air. Her mother didnt blink.

Where did I leave that bag? she fretted.

Tracey hadnt been thinking. Of course, if she was invisible, and the bag was in her hands, the bag was invisible too. She dropped the bag on to the kitchen counter.

Isnt that your bag? her father asked.

Mrs Devon turned, and gasped. It wasnt there two seconds ago! Then she shrieked. That was when Tracey realized she had become visible again.

This wasnt the first time shed suddenly appeared in front of her parents, and her parents knew about her so-called gift, but her mother couldnt get used to it.

Tracey, dont do that! she cried out.

Sorry, Mom, I didnt mean to scare you. Tracey glanced at the clock on the wall. I gotta go Im meeting Jenna and Emily at the mall. Ill be home before dinner.

But will we actually see you later? her father wanted to know.

Tracey just grinned and took off. She was heading to the big mall, not the one across from their school, so she had to take a bus. She supposed she could have asked her mother to drop her off on the way to pick up the seven, but she wasnt in the mood to listen to her go on and on about her disappearing act. She had to admit, though, it was kind of nice hearing her parents express a desire to see her. There was a time when that hadnt been the case at all.

Thank goodness she was meeting two friends from her Gifted class, where every student had an unusual skill. Even though their abilities were different, they had some of the same problems. She didnt have to explain or apologize with them.

Jenna Kelley and Emily Sanders were waiting for her at their usual meeting place, in front of the bookstore. They made an unlikely pair, Tracey thought as she approached them. Jenna was a goth goddess black spiky hair with a long fringe that gave her a witchy look. Pale complexion, eyes circled in black kohl, purple lips and a variety of piercings. Black skinny jeans and a black T-shirt with white letters that read Stay Out Of My Way. If you didnt know her, you might think she was dangerous.

Emilys plain long brown hair, soft dreamy expression and unmade-up face made her look at least three years younger than her fourteen years. Her jeans were baggy, and her T-shirt was a washed-out pale blue.

And how would Tracey herself fit into the odd combo? As she passed a shop, she glanced at her own reflection in the window and caught a glimpse of a small, slender girl with blonde hair that skimmed her shoulders. Not a lot of make-up just a little green liner to make her pale eyes sparkle, and a wash of pink gloss on her lips. It was still a pleasant surprise to see how much better she looked now than she used to. Lately, she was happy just to be able to see herself at all.

Her friends were pleased to see her too, though Jenna glanced pointedly at her watch.

Youre five minutes late, she declared.

Tracey grinned. Just be glad Im here at all. I disappeared for a while today.

Without trying? Emily asked.

Tracey nodded. Yeah. It was kind of freaky. Of course, I wasnt as freaked out as my mother was when I reappeared right in front of her. She practically fainted!

Jenna made a humph sound. Serves her right. The way shes treated you, she deserves to be freaked out.

Tracey brushed that aside. Thats all in the past, Jenna. And look on the bright side. If my parents hadnt ignored me all those years, I might never have developed my gift.

But it still wasnt nice, the way they behaved, Emily murmured.

She was right, Tracey thought. The Devons had been normal, attentive parents to her when she was very young. But something happened when she turned eight. That was the year the Devon Seven were born.

They werent the first septuplets in the world, but they were the first identical set of seven girls. Her family became famous, and Tracey could remember being just as excited as everyone else about the remarkable birth of her sisters. But then things changed.

She supposed it was normal for her parents to become completely preoccupied with the newborn girls. But was it normal for them to completely forget their oldest child?

It wasnt like those terrible stories of child abuse you read about in newspapers. They didnt yell at Tracey, or hit her, or refuse to give her food. It was more like Tracey just wasnt there any more, like shed ceased to exist. And Tracey found herself responding by simply fading away.

At first, it was just in her mind it was her own attitude that made her feel invisible to people outside her own family. If she didnt deserve attention at home, why should she expect anyone else to notice her? That was the kind of vibe she gave off, and people reacted by not giving her any consideration. At school, teachers never called on her. On the street, people would bump into her and then look surprised, as if they hadnt realized anyone was there. In shops, she couldnt get a salesperson to wait on her.