It is insane that two men, sitting on opposite sides of the world, should be able to decide to bring an end to civilization.
JOHN F. KENNEDYon the Cuban Missile Crisis,October 27, 1962
1
I wake to a hand on my shoulder. Dads voice is urgent. Get up, Scott! The light in the bedroom is on, and I squint up into his face. Dads eyes are wide, and hes shaking me hard, not gently, the way he usually does when he wants to wake me.
Up! Now!
I rub my eyes. An inner clock tells me that its the middle of the night. My heart starts to race with alarm. What?
Were being attacked. He swivels to my little brother Sparkys bed. Edward!
Attacked? As my brain claws toward alertness, I hear sirens wailing in the distance. Not the melodic bursts of code directing volunteer firemen to a fire. These are shrill swooping wails.
Sparky groans and tries to roll over. Instead of arguing, Dad scoops him up, blankets and all. Put me down! Still half asleep, Sparky kicks as Dad cradles him and turns to me.
Come on!
Barefoot, heart heaving with panic, I race after him out onto the cold hall tiles, where we nearly crash into Mom, whos carrying an armful of things shes just gotten from the kitchen.
Hurry! Dad barks, and we scurry down the hall. In the dark playroom, he opens the closet and, with a loud clatter, sweeps away whatever toys and games lie on top of the square metal trapdoor. Outside, the sirens continue to blare.
Whats going on? Sparky cries, awake now.
Mom dumps the things from the kitchen on the floor and pulls him close. Its okay. Dont be scared.
But now loud banging sounds echo down the hall from the front of the house.
I gasp. Whats that?
Without answering, Dad yanks the metal trapdoor up and points down into the square of darkness. Go!
I cant see a thing. How?
Crash! Glass smashes somewhere in the house.
Whats happening? Sparky wails.
Its okay, Mom says soothingly. Then to Dad: Hurry!
I feel Dads arms pick me up and lower me into the emptiness. My feet dangle in the dark air. Frightened that hes about to let go, I dig my hands into his arms. I cant see!
Feel the rungs with your feet! he commands.
I find a cold metal bar with my toes just as footsteps slap into the playroom. Its Janet, our maid who stays over one night a week. Shes pulling a light-blue robe closed, and her eyes are moons of terror.
Go down! Dad barks at me.
Richard? From somewhere in the house, a mans voice calls through the dark.
The metal rungs hurt the bottoms of my bare feet as I lower myself. The dark air in the shelter is cool and damp and smells like mildew. Suddenly boxes and bags of things shower down, bouncing off my head and arms, and falling into the shadows below. I cry out in surprise, even though it doesnt really hurt. Already Moms feet are on the rungs just above me.
Hurry! Dad yells.
Ow! Sparky cries, and I wonder if Dad accidentally banged him into something as he tried to lower him through the trapdoor.
One of my feet touches the cold concrete floor; the other steps on a box that collapses with a crunch.
In there! a mans voice shouts.
Above me, Mom yells, Careful, Edward!
Suddenly theres scratching and grunting overhead. Sparky cries out, and Mom gasps loudly. Something big is plummeting down, and I barely have time to jump out of the way before Mom crashes to the floor with a horrible, crunching thud, Sparky on her chest.
Mom! A terrified cry tears through my throat. Sparky!
two
Me could eat horse, Kemo Sabe, Freak O Nature said in the diction of Tonto, the Lone Rangers Indian sidekick. Freak O Natures real name was Norman Freeman, but his friends called him Freak O Nature because well, because thats what he was.
It was the last week of fifth grade, and he, Ronnie, and I were lounging on his lawn listening to Freak O Natures black transistor radio, which lay on the grass broadcasting the game between the Yankees and the Cleveland Indians. Mickey Mantle, playing for the first time after a month on the disabled list, had just smashed a come-from-behind pinch-hit home run to put the Yanks ahead 97.
Who wants to bet they still lose? asked Ronnie, wearing a colorful Indian madras short-sleeve shirt that was the current height of style.
Me hungry, said Freak O Nature, who sat cross-legged, all sharp, bony angles, with brown hair, freckles, and thin metal wires across his upper and lower teeth from his bite plates.
Lying on my back, feeling the grass tickle my neck and ears, I gazed up at the puffy white clouds in the blue sky. The June sun warmed our faces and arms. In a few days, school would end, and we would have all summer to play baseball and swim and have fun.
On the radio, the Indians pitcher Gary Bell got Clete Boyer out on a ground ball and Bobby Richardson swinging. But it didnt matter. The Mick was back, and the Yanks were winning.
Want a Sara Lee cheesecake? Ronnie asked as he sucked on a stem of clover hed plucked from the lawn. He was a stocky, muscular kid with black hair greased back along the sides of his head into a ducktail, while the front hung down in a spit curl.
The thought of sweet, creamy cheese filling and graham-cracker crust made my stomach rumble with anticipation. Even though it was only an hour before dinnertime and a sure bet to ruin my appetite, I asked, How?
Theres a million of em in Lindas garage.
Ronnie might have been exaggerating, but we got the point. The houses in our neighborhood didnt have basements, so people put freezers in their garages and filled them with food.
You mean, steal it? I sat up and tugged nervously at the hair behind my ear. Id never stolen anything except for the stuff it was okay to steal, like cookies from the kitchen when Mom wasnt around and our Halloween candy from the shopping bag Dad hid in his closet so Sparky and I wouldnt eat it all at once but really, we suspected, so he could eat some of it, too.
Its not stealing, Ronnie insisted. We know Linda. Besides, you ever looked in their freezer? Its so full, theyll never notice if one cheesecake is gone.
Linda Lewandowski had four brothers and sisters, so it made sense that there might be more food in the freezer than her mother could keep track of. But even if thered been enough cheesecakes to fill Yankee Stadium, that still didnt make stealing right.
Freak O Nature gave me an uncertain look. What you think, Kemo Scott?
What if we get caught? I asked.
Ronnie plucked another clover from the lawn and sucked on it pensively. What difference will it make? We could all be dead tomorrow.
3
From above come grunts, banging, and scraping the sounds of a scuffle. Richard, let us in! someone shouts frantically. Dont let us die!
Petrified with fear, I crouch on the concrete floor beside Janet, who climbed down after Mom fell. The still forms of Mom and Sparky lie in the dark while Dad clings to the metal rungs and tries to pull the trapdoor closed. But people on the other side are trying to pull it open.
The lights gone on in the playroom, and the shelter brightens each time the trapdoor rises a few inches, then darkens again when Dad manages to yank it down. With each flash of light, I glimpse Mom on her back, one arm stretched out, one leg bent at the knee, the other propped against the wall, Sparky sprawled on top of her.