Suzanne Selfors - Coffeehouse Angel

Coffeehouse Angel

Suzanne Selfors

For my little sister, Laurie Selfors, who likes her coffee ultrastrong and her marathons ultralong. She amazes me each and every day.

Be not forgetful to entertain strangers, for thereby some have entertained angels unawares.

Hebrews 13:2, The New Testament

For a single good deed, one will be rewarded tenfold.

6:161, Al-An'am, The Koran

Do you believe in signs?

Lightning striking a car you just stepped out of, a black cat crossing your path, a piece of frozen toilet waste falling from an airplane and crashing through your living room ceiling--that kind of thing? Happenstance, maybe. Or maybe something bigger than you is well aware of your existence and trying to tell you something. I never used to believe that kind of stuff.

But then I met him.

One

T he first time I saw him, he was lying in the alley behind my grandmother's coffeehouse. I figured he was some sort of bum.

The yellow bulb above the back door cast an eerie light, pooling around his brown hair like melted margarine. What was he doing out there? Homeless people didn't hang out in Nordby. Too much rain. No public shelters or bus stations. Was he dead?

I took a cautious step out the door, leaning to get a better look. His chest rose with slow, deep breaths, but the way he was stretched out on his back, his arm flung over his face, I couldn't tell if his eyes were open or closed. Maybe he was passed out drunk, or waiting for me to get closer so he could grab me--another sixteen-year-old girl, gone.

Problem was, I had forgotten to take out the trash the night before and I needed to get it into the Dumpster or it would stink up the coffeehouse. But he blocked the way.

He was dressed in a khaki kilt and a ragged sweater. His bare legs were pale against the cobblestones and his toes stuck out past the ends of his sandals. December, in my part of the world, is way too cold for sandals.

"Hello," I called. "Do you need help?"

"Sleepy," he mumbled. That was all he said.

Who wasn't sleepy at 6:00 a.m.? I would have loved another hour in bed, but as usual, I was working the early shift--alone. Suddenly, I wished I hadn't said anything to him.

If he turned out to be some kind of murderer, there was no one around to hear my screams. None of the other shops had opened yet. The employees of Java Heaven, our next-door neighbor, didn't show up until seven. That's right--two coffeehouses, side by side. Maybe that's not unusual in the coffee-drenched world we live in, with coffeehouses sprouting up as fast as cavities after Halloween. But we were here first!

Anyway, no one would be out walking a dog on such a cold morning, or window-shopping in the dark. Even though Grandma Anna was upstairs in our apartment, she'd have her radio on full blast, which would drown out my cries if that guy strangled me.

Maybe I was overreacting, but normal, safe, sane people don't usually sleep in alleys.

He rolled over.

I dropped the bag of garbage, ran inside, and locked the door. Then I did what I always did when I didn't know what to do. I called my best friend. We were both early birds--me because of my job, Vincent because of swim team practice.

"Vincent," I said, clinging to the ancient rotary phone my grandmother kept in the kitchen. "There's a guy lying in our alley and he's freaking me out."

"Maybe you should call the police."

That wasn't such a good idea because my grandmother Anna Svensen, owner of Anna's Old World Scandinavian Coffeehouse, had gotten a stern warning from Officer Larsen just a few days before. "You can't keep calling the department for every little thing," he had lectured after pulling his head out of the freezer.

"But it's groaning. I thought it might be dangerous," she had explained. "Maybe it's a fire hazard. You want this place to burn down?"

"If you're worried about a fire hazard, then for God's sake, Anna, call an electrician.

Groaning freezers are not part of my job. Or lost keys, or late deliveries, or tourists who forget to tip." He tucked his thumbs under his belt. "There might come a day when you've got a real emergency and you'll want me on your good side."

Grandma Anna didn't like people telling her what and what not to do. And because her husband had served as a Nordby police officer for most of his life, she believed that the local force should be at her disposal, end of story.

"I don't want to call the police," I told Vincent. "It's not a real emergency. But can you stop by?"

"Sure," Vincent said. "I'll be right over. Hey, don't go into the alley, just in case."

I hung up the phone, feeling a bit less worried. It wouldn't take Vincent long to shoot down Main Street on his bike. I checked the back door again, to make certain I had locked it. Then I began my morning chores.

Every morning before school I worked at our coffeehouse, getting things ready for Grandma Anna, who would hobble downstairs at seven to open the doors to her loyal customers. I didn't mind the early hours. I liked the darkness, the way all the shops slept, the way the seagulls called from the docks. Vincent often stopped in before swim practice to grab a scone or Danish. We'd sit at the counter and share the quiet, as if we were the only two people in the world. For a few minutes he'd forget his single-minded goal--to earn a swimming scholarship to a top university and go to the Olympics. And I'd forget my single-minded goal--to, well, I didn't have one.

Vincent had known that swimming was his thing from the moment he had accidentally toddled off the edge of the Nordby public pool. What was my thing? My life was an ode to failure--the closet at the end of our hallway held the proof. A guitar, a harmonica, a recorder, a chess set, a fencing mask, a dried-out box of clay, skating boots, sheets of choir music, a microscope, and some boxing gloves-- evidence of things started but not finished. Desired but not achieved. Okay, I admit it. I lost interest the moment those projects went from "fun new idea" to "oh crud, I actually have to practice." But I kept hoping that something would flow, something would come as naturally to me as swimming had come to Vincent.

Each of us is supposed to be good at something. Maybe that's one of the big lies they feed us in school, like telling us that Columbus discovered America, or that your vote actually counts, or that girls and boys are equal. Hello? Ever heard of biology?

Maybe the horrid truth is that some of us aren't meant to be good at anything. But I wanted to be able to say, This is what I'm good at, it's what I was born to do. This is my thing.

Even if I had discovered some God-given talent like Vincent's, I wouldn't have had much time to pursue it. The coffeehouse supported Grandma and me, so my working there was a matter of survival. I may sound like I'm complaining, but I really love the place. It had been my home for as long as I could remember. I fit right in with my pale blond hair and hand-knit sweaters. Look at the Norwegian girl in the cute embroidered apron. Take a picture of her and stick it on a postcard!

I slipped an apron over my head and poured coffee beans into the grinder. Fog drifted past the front picture windows. The guy in the alley would definitely be cold. Didn't homeless people usually carry blankets around with them? A shopping cart filled with extra shoes, a poncho or two, maybe a tarp?

I measured the coffee and dumped it into a huge percolator. A smaller percolator was saved for decaf. Only a few of Grandma Anna's customers drank decaf.

Scandinavians like their coffee strong and jolting--a craving for caffeine that is embedded in their DNA after all those centuries of darkness and cold. That's my theory.