J. D. Robb - Creation in Death

Ah! The clock is always slow;
It is later than you think.

ROBERT W. SERVICE

And music pours on mortals
Her magnificent disdain.

RALPH WALDO EMERSON

FOR HIM, DEATH WAS A VOCATION. KILLING WAS NOT MERELY an act, or a means to an end. It certainly was not an impulse of the moment or a path to gain and glory.

Death was, in and of itself, the all.

He considered himself a late bloomer, and often bemoaned the years before hed found his raison dtre. All that time lost, all those opportunities missed. But still, he had bloomed, and was forever grateful that he had finally looked inside himself and seen what he was. What he was meant for.

He was a maestro in the art of death. The keeper of time. The bringer of destiny.

It had taken time, of course, and experimentation. His mentors time had run out long before he himself had become the master. And even in his prime, his teacher had not envisioned the full scope, the full power. He was proud that he had learned, had not only honed his skills but had expanded them while perfecting his techniques.

Hed learned, and learned quickly, that he preferred women as his partners in the duet. In the grand opera he wrote, and rewrote, they outperformed the men.

His requirements were few, but very specific.

He didnt rape them. Hed experimented there, as well, but had found rape distasteful and demeaning to both parties.

There was nothing elegant about rape.

As with any vocation, any art that required great skill and concentration, hed learned he required holidayswhat he thought of as his dormant periods.

During them he would entertain himself as anyone might on a holiday. He would travel, explore, eat fine meals. He might ski or scuba dive, or simply sit under an umbrella on a lovely beach and while away the time reading and drinking mai tais.

He would plan, he would prepare, he would make arrangements .

By the time he went back to work, he was refreshed and eager.

As he was now, he thought as he readied his tools. More, so much morewith his latest dormant period had come the understanding of his own destiny. So hed gone back to his roots. And there, where he had first seriously plied his trade, he would re-form and remake connections before the curtain came down.

It added so many interesting layers, he mused, as he tested the edge on an antique switchblade with a horn handle hed purchased while touring Italy. He turned the steel blade to the light, admired it. Circa nineteen fifty-three, he thought.

It was a classic for a reason.

He enjoyed using tools from long ago, though he also employed more modern pieces. The laser, for instanceso very excellent for applying the element of heat.

There must be a varietysharp, dull, cold, heata series of elements in various forms, in various cycles. It took a great deal of skill, and patience and concentration to spin those cycles out to the absolute zenith of his partners aptitude.

Then, and only then, would he complete the project and know hed done his best work.

This one had been an excellent choice. He could congratulate himself on that. For three days and four nights, shed survivedand there was life in her yet. It was so satisfying.

Hed started out slowly, naturally. It was vital, absolutely vital, to build and build and build to that ultimate crescendo.

He knew, as a master of his craft knew such things, that they were approaching that peak.

Music on, he ordered, then stood, eyes closed as he absorbed the opening strains of Puccinis Madame Butterfly .

He understood the central characters choice of death for love. Hadnt it been that choice, so many years before, that had sent him on this path?