Winston Graham - Demelza (The Poldark Saga)

DEMELZA: A Novel of Cornwall

by

Winston Graham

Book one.

Chapter one.

THERE COULD HAVE been prophecy in the storm that blew up at the time of

Julia's birth.

May month was not a time for heavy gales, but the climate of Cornwall is

capricious as any child ever born. It had been a kindly enough spring, as

kindly as the summer and winter that had gone before it; mild, soft,

comfortable weather; and the land was already heavy with green things.

Then May broke rainy and gusty, and the blossom suffered here and there

and the hay leaned about looking for support.

On the night of the fifteenth Demelza felt her first pains. Even then for a

while she gripped the bedpost and thought the matter all round before she

said anything. All along she had viewed the coming ordeal with a calm and

philosophical mind and had never troubled Ross with false alarms. She did

not want to begin so late. Last evening she had been out in her beloved

garden, digging round the young plants; then as it was going dark she had

found a disgruntled hedgehog and had played with him, trying to persuade

him to take some bread and milk, and had only come in reluctantly as the

sky clouded and it went cold.

This now - this thing in the middle of the night - might yet be only the

result of getting overtired.

But when it began to feel as if someone was kneeling on her backbone

and trying to break it, she knew it was not. She touched Ross's arm and he

woke instantly.

'Well?'

'I think,' she said, 'I think you will have to fetch Prudie.'

He sat up. 'Why? What is it?'

'I have a pain.'

'Where? Do you mean..

'I have a pain,' she said primly. 'I think twould be as well to fetch

Prudie.'

He climbed quickly out of bed, and she listened to the scratch of flint

and steel. After a moment the tinder caught and he lit a candle. The room

flickered into view: heavy teak beams, the curtain over the door moving

gently in the breeze, the low window seat hung with pink grogram, her

shoes as she had kicked them off, one wooden sole upmost, Joshua's

spyglass, Ross's pipe, Ross's book and a fly crawling.

He looked at her and at once knew the truth. She smiled a pallid

apology. He went across to the table by the door and poured her a glass

of

brandy.

'Drink this. I will send Jud for Dr Choake.' He began to pull on

his clothes, anyhow.

'No, no, Ross; do not send yet. It is the middle of the night. He will

be asleep.'

Whether Thomas Choake should be called in to her had been

a dissension between them for some weeks. Demelza could not forget

that twelve months ago she had been a maidservant and that Choake, though

only a physician, owned a small estate which, even if it had been bought

with his wife's money, put him on a level from which the likes of her would

be seen as unimportant chattels. That was until Ross married her. Since

then she had grown to her position. She could put on a show of refinement

and good manners, and not at all a bad show at that; but a doctor

was

different. A doctor caught one at a disadvantage. If the pain was bad

she

would almost certainly swear in the old way she had learned from

her father, not a few genteel 'damn mes' and 'by Gods,' as anyone might

excuse from a lady in trouble. To have a baby and be forced to act genteel

at the same time was more than Demelza could look forward to.

Besides, she didn't want a man about. It wasn't decent. Her cousin-in-law

Elizabeth, had had him, but Elizabeth was an aristocrat born and bred,

they looked at things different. She would far rather have had old Aunt

Betsy Triggs from Mellin, who sold pilchards and was a rare strong hand

when it came to babies.

But Ross was the more determined and he had had his way. She was

not

unprepared for his curt, 'Then he shall be woke,' as he left the room.

'Ross!' She called him back. For the moment the pain had gone.

'Yes?' His strong, scarred, introspective face was half lit by the candle.

the up growing dark hair was ruffled and hardly showed its hint of copper.

his shirt was open at the throat. This man... arIstocrat of them all,

she thought... this man, so reserved and reserving, with whom she had shared

rare intimacy .

'Would you?' she said. 'Before you go .

He came back to the bed. The emergency had come on him so quickly in

sleep that he had had no time yet to feel anything but alarm that her

time

was here and relief that it might soon be over. As he kissed her he saw

the

moisture on her face and a worm of fear and compassion moved in him.

He took her face in his hands, pushed back the black hair and stared a moment

into the dark eyes of his young wife. They were not dancing

and

mischievous as they so often were, but there was no fear in them.

'I'll be back. In a moment I'll be back.'

She made a gesture of dissent. 'Don't come back, Ross. Go and

tell

Prudie, that's all. I'd rather - you didn't see me like this.'

'And what of Verity? You specially wanted Verity here.'

'Tell her in the morning. Tisn't fair to bring her out in the night air. Send

for her in the morning.'

He kissed her again.

'Tell me that you love me, Ross,' she said.

He looked at her in surprise.

'You know I do!'

'And say you don't love Elizabeth.'

'And I don't love Elizabeth.' What else was he to say when he did not

know the truth himself? He was not a man who spoke his inmost feelings

easily, but now he saw himself powerless to help her, and only words of his

and not actions would give her aid. 'Nothing else matters but you,' he said.

'Remember that. All my relatives and friends - and Elizabeth, and this

house and the mine... I'd throw them in the dust and you know it - and

you know it. If you don't know it, then all these months I've failed and no

words I can give you now will make it otherwise. I love you, Demelza, and

we've had such happiness. And we're going to have it again. Take hold of

that, my sweet. Hold it and keep it, for no one else can.'

'I'll hold it, Ross,' she said, content because the words had come.

He kissed her again and turned and lit more candles; took up one and

went quickly out of the room, the hot grease running over his hand. The

wind had dropped since yesterday; there was only a breeze. He did not

know the time, but it felt about two.

He pushed open the door on the other side of the landing and went

across to the bedroom where Jud and Prudie slept. The ill-fitting bed

room door opened with a long squeak which merged into Prudie's slow

rasping snore. He grunted in disgust, for the hot close sweaty smell

offended his nose. The night air might be dangerous, but they could surely

open the window during the day and let this stink out.

He went across and parted the curtains and shook Jud by the shoulder.

Jud's two great teeth showed like gravestones. He shook again, violently.

Jud's nightcap came off and a spot of the candle grease fell on his bald

patch. Jud woke. He began to curse; then he saw who it was and sat up

rubbing his head.

'What's amiss?'

'Demelza is ill.' How call her anything but Demelza to a man who had

been here when she came as a tattered waif of thirteen? 'I want you to go

for Dr Choake at once. And wake Prudie. She will be wanted too.'