Tara Hudson - Hereafter

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Hereafter
Copyright 2011 by Tara Hudson

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To Robert. In an instant. In a heartbeat.

H EREAFTE R

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Chapter
One

I t was the same as always, but different from the first time.

It felt as if my sternum was a door into which someone had roughly shoved a key and twisted. The doormy lungswanted to open, wanted to stop fighting against the twist of the key. That primitive part of my brain, the one designed for survival, wanted me to breathe. But a louder part of my brain was also fighting any urge that might let the water rush in.

The black water seized and scrambled and found purchase anywhere it could. I kept my lips pressed together and my eyes shut tight, though I desperately needed sight to escape this nightmare. Yet the water still entered my mouth and my nose in little seeps. Even my eyes and ears couldnt hold it back. The water wrapped around my arms and legs like shifting fabric, tugging and pulling my body in all directions. I was buried under layers and layers of slippery, twisting fabric, and I wasnt going to claw my way free.

Id struggled too long, fought too hard, and now my body was weakening from the lack of oxygen. The flail of my arms toward what I assumed was the surface became less exaggerated, as if the invisible fabric around them had thickened. I literally shook my head against the urge to breathe. I shouted No! in my head. No!

But instinct is a slippery thing, tooultimate and untrickable.

My mouth opened and I breathed.

And as I always did, except for the first time Id experienced this nightmare, I woke up.

My eyes remained closed and I continued to gasp. This time my gasp brought hysterical gulps of air, but not the brackish water that had flooded my lungs and stopped my heart during that first nightmare.

Now the air was useless, purposeless in my dead lungs. I nonetheless felt a dull joy at its presence: although my heart no longer beat, the air meant I was no longer drowning.

Still, I felt a little silly for being afraid. After all, its not like you can die twice.

And I was already dead, that much was certain.

It had taken me awhile to accept the fact, perhaps yearstime became a very uncertain thing in death. Years of wandering, confused and distracted by every sight and sound. Screaming at passersby, begging them to help me understand why I was so lost or even just to acknowledge my presence. I could see myselfbare feet, white dress, and dark brown hair that had dried into thick wavesbut others couldnt. And I never saw another person like myself, someone dead, so there was really no point of comparison.

The nightmares were what made me finally see, and accept, the truth.

At first nothing in my wandering existence brought back memories of my life, nothing but the elusive familiarity of the woods and roads I wandered.

But then the nightmares began.

I would suddenly and without warning fall into periods of unconsciousness. During them I would drown again. Only after the first few nightmares did I see them for what they were: memories of my violent death.

So the memories of my death had returned. Yet only a few memories of my life came with them: my first nameAmeliabut not my last; my age at deatheighteenbut not my date of birth; and, of course, the fact that Id apparently thrown myself off a bridge into the storm-flooded river below. But not the reason why.

Though I couldnt remember my life and what Id learned in it, I still had some vague recollections of religious dogma. The few tenets I remembered, however, certainly hadnt accounted for this particular kind of afterlife. The wooded, dusty hills of southeastern Oklahoma werent my idea of heaven; nor were the constant, narcoleptic revisits to the scene of my drowning.