John Lawton - Riptide

The fourth book in the Frederick Troy series, 2001

Berlin April 17th 1941

It was an irrational moment. A surrender of logic to the perilous joy of common nonsense. When the train stopped between stations on the S-Bahn, Stahl felt exposed, fearful for his life in a way that made no sense. High on the creaking metal latticework, the train tortured the tracks and juddered to a halt. Then the lights went out and Stahl knew that there was an air raid on. Yet again the RAF had got through to a city that the Fuhrer had told them would never see a British plane or hear the crash of a British bomb. Berlin the impregnable, some of whose citizens now trembled and wept in the darkness, packed into a swaying train, high above the streets.

It was irrational. He was no more at risk here than on the ground. It just seemed that way-as though to be stuck on the elevated tracks like a bird on the wire made him into a sitting duck. He recalled a phrase of his fathers from the last war, one every old Austrian soldier used occasionally-every old British soldier too, he was certain-If its got your name on it which meant that death was inevitable, and urged a grinning stoicism on those about to die.

The raid distracted him. He had been pretending to read a newspaper. He always did when he waited for the word. Tonight he had been oddly confident that there would be word. So confident, he became worried that he would miss her. More than once he had carried the pretence into practice, and had been caught engrossed in some nonsense in the Volkischer Beobachter and all but oblivious when she had brushed past him and muttered a single sentence.

The train moved off, the lights still out, sparks visible on the tracks below-hardly enough to make them the moving target his fellow-Berliners thought they were. At Warschauer Strafe station passengers shoved and kicked till the doors banged open, a human tide surging for ground level and the shelters. The moment had passed, he was happier now in the open air and, as ever, curious about the men who dropped death on the city night after night. He stepped onto the platform, gazing into the clear, night sky hoping for a glimpse of a Blenheim or a Halifax. This was a reprisal raid. Last night-and into the small of hours of the morning-as the wireless had crowed all day, the Luftwaffe had blasted central London.

She brushed his shoulder. So quick, so quiet he could have missed her. A dark woman in a belted, brown mackintosh, almost as tall as he. He could scarcely describe her face-he didnt think hed ever seen her eyes.

You are in the gravest danger. Go now. Go tonight.

He heard his heart thump in his chest. He had expected this for so long that to hear the words uttered at last was like a body blow. The wind knocked from his lungs, his pulse doubled, a weakness in the knees that was so hackneyed a response he could scarcely believe it was happening to him.

Go now, she had said. Go tonight.

Leave Berlin, it meant, leave Germany. And with that phrase, twelve wretched years of his life were stitched and wrapped and over.

A uniformed corporal grabbed him by the arm with not so much as a Heil Hitler, and pulled him towards the staircase. His cap went flying, rolling onto the tracks, the little silver skull glinting back at him in the moonlight.

Its a big one, sir. We have to take cover.

Stahl knew the man. That meant he was getting sloppy. He should have known the man was there. An Abwehr clerk-a privileged pen-pusher, the sort whod never see the front line except as punishment. Stahl could not recall his name-odd that, that he should have a hole in his memory, a memory so precise for words heard, so precise for words seen-but he let himself be manhandled, clerkhandled, into a shelter: a concrete blockhouse beneath the S-Bahn station, hastily thrown up in the winter of 1939. Throughout the false start of Czechoslovakia and the easy victories over Poland and France, the Fuhrer had made swift provision for bomb-shelters, whilst reminding them all that they werent going to be bombed. It was a brave man-in Stahls experience, a drunken man-who pointed out the anomaly.

Stahl was surprised. Hed never been in a street shelter before. Hed half expected satanic darkness, piss in the corner, vomit on the floor. But it was clean and only faintly malodorous. It was warm, too-the combined heat of all those bodies and the pot bellied French stove against the back wall, looted from the Maginot Line less than a year ago, into which an enthusiastic youth, with phosphorous buttons on his jacket, was stuffing the remains of a beer crate. He stripped off his raincoat and draped it over one arm. The concrete cell was dimly lit by a ring of bulkhead lights-light enough for people to see him for what he was.

A middle-aged man in rimless spectacles had both arms wrapped around a whimpering woman. He stared at Stahl, patted his wife gently on the back. She too turned to look at Stahl and, finding herself looking up at an SD Brigadefuhrer in full uniform, less hat-nil black and silver and lightning-she stopped whimpering. Stahl stood shoulder to shoulder with the corporal, sharing a small room with fifty-odd strangers, and heard the murmurs of fear and reassurance dwindle almost to nothing as though he himself had silenced them. It wasnt him. It was the uniform. It possessed a power he had never thought he had. He wore it out of choice. His job permitted him civilian dress if he saw fit: Canaris wore plain clothes, Schellenberg wore them more often than not, but the dulled imaginations of the Geheime Staatspolizei-long since abbreviated to Gestapo-favoured a civilian uniform of trilby hats and leather greatcoats. Stahl felt better in a real uniform. In a world where all identities were false it was a plain statement. The boldness of a bare-laced lie. It seemed to him far less sinister than the ubiquitous leather coat. Why the Berliners should be more scared of him in a shelter than on a train needed no thought-they were showing treasonable fear in the presence of a man whose power over them might well be life and death-and he stood between them and the door.

When the all-clear sounded, Stahl found himself in the street with the Abwehr corporal once more. This time the man saluted. The contrived formality of a barked Heil Hitler-contrived, Stahl knew, since there was hardly a man in the Abwehr who didnt secretly despise Hitler, the Party and the SS. Stahl returned the salute, scarcely whispering the Heil Hitler. Perhaps hed said it for the last time?

The man was right. It had been a heavy raid. Theyd listened to the bombs explode, felt the earth shake, for well over an hour-wave after wave of bombers, so many hed given up the focused monotony of counting. Now the air stank of cordite, and a haze of dust hung over the city in the moonlight.

He walked home through blitzed streets of dust and debris, almost empty of traffic-cars were abandoned at the roadside, trams did not run, people scurried like ants in all directions, directionless. Stahl turned the corner into Kopernikusstrae ten minutes later. It was deserted, almost silent. His apartment block and the one next to it had collapsed like bellows, breathed their last and died. The main staircase clung precariously to the wall where the strength of the chimney-breast had resisted the blast. He could see the top floor as clearly as if someone had pulled away the front, like the hinged facade of a dolls house. He could see his own apartment, the floor hanging skewed, his bed with one leg resting on nothing, four floors of nothing, his mahogany wardrobe, one door open, almost tilting into the void, and his overcoat flapping on the back of the bedroom door.