Susan Downs - Ekaterina

Kat Moore stared ahead at the customs control booth and tightened her grip on the brass key in her jacket pocket. The keys teeth bit into her palms soft flesh, but the pain shot courage into her veins.

She lifted her chin. Her journey, the one shed waited for her entire life, could come to a smacking halt in about ten steps.

She tore her gaze away from the steely eyes of a Russian passport official and tried to find comfort in the faces of the other passengers. No one smiled or even met her gaze. Their stoic expressions stiffened a muscle in her neck.

The passengers from the KLM plane stretched in a haphazard line down a chipped, gray hallway in Sheremetova 2, Moscows International Airport. The smells of cement, dirt, and fatigue hovered like the presence of Big Brother.

A stiff wind, leftover from some iceberg north of St. Petersburg, whistled in through the metal hanging doors and kicked up dust. Kat pulled her jacket around her and mentally flogged the person whod written warm and sunny in June, in her travel guidebook. They would probably describe the Artic as mildly chilly on overcast days.

The line moved one step forward. Kat shoved her backpack along the floor with a toe, just escaping a nudge from the young lady behind her, the one wrapped in a black leather jacket and sporting a fake blonde hairpiece.

Nine more steps. Kats stomach tangled and she fought her racing heartbeat.

Shed obviously checked her sanity, along with her baggage, back in New York City. The shadows coloring the gray stucco walls did nothing to argue that point. This dungeons gloom, barely fractured by a high-hanging chandelier, even barred entry to the rose-colored dawn shed seen creeping over the eastern Moscow skyline as they landed. Kat couldnt delete the image that ran through her mind of prisoners lining up for execution.

Dust hung like Spanish moss from the ceiling, a steel canopy of what looked like discarded shell casings of a bygone war, and sent chills up her spine. God, I sure hope you can still see me, because I could use a friend right now.

She should have listened to Matthew. He was her common sense, the weight that kept her from taking off with her dreams. You go hunting up the past, youll just find trouble. His voice reverberated like a bass drum through her mind as she stared heavenward.

What had possessed her to think she could traipse around a country that still sent shivers down her spine when she heard the throaty growl of the word, Russhhha? Shivers, yes, and curiosity. Somewhere, Mother Russia secreted Kats family tree. The key in her pocket would unlock the mystery.

If Grandfather had been just a smidgen more forthcoming about the secrets surrounding her Neumann ancestors, perhaps she wouldnt be trying to resurrect her rusty Russian and dog-earing the pages of her passport with her thumb. Edward Neumann had always been a miser with answers to her questions like, How did Grandmother die? or Did she have caramel colored hair, like me and Mommy? Of course, twenty years later, she discovered why he dodged her inquiries with the agility of a rugby player. Not that the new information ebbed her flow of questions.

However impossible, her mother had inherited her Grandfathers stubborn streak, the one that kept Kat out of every meaningful conversationespecially the ones that ended with muttered phrases like, shes too young, or its too dangerous.

Now, as she looked for light in the overhead shadows, she wondered if they both hadnt been right.

The line moved forward. Kat dodged the woman breathing down her neck, and nearly kicked her backpack into the heels of the well-dressed man in front of her. Tall and muscular in a black trench coat, he looked about fifty. Turning, he glanced at her pack, then at her, his dark brown eyes harsh. He wore his shoulder-length, gray-streaked black hair combed back from the deep forehead of someone with Slavic descent.

A blush burned Kats cheeks. She offered an apologetic smile.

To her amazement, he smiled back, little lines crinkling around his eyes as he did it. No problem, he said in English.

Relief poured through Kat. Thank you. She flicked a look at the customs official. Have you done this before?

He gave a wry chuckle. Too many times. A foreign accent laced his English, enough to give it an intriguing lilt. Dont worry. The trick is to look past them. Fix on a spot behind their heads and, whatever you do, dont smile.

Why not?

He grinned and leaned close. Smilers have a reason to smile and usually it isnt a good one.

Kat nodded, eyes wide. Okay, so she still had a few things to learn about international travel. She thought shed prepped pretty well. Russian guidebooks, novels, history textbooks, and insights into the Russian culture crammed her bookshelf in her Nyack, New York apartment. Shed taken a refresher course in Russian and discovered that the language of her great-grandparents came back like an echo. Shed even purchased a travel water filter, designed to keep Russias bacteria out of her veins. But nowhere did it tell her not to smile. Her hand tightened around the key.

The line moved forward. Kats heart moved up into her throat. She tried to swallow it down as the customs officers glance settled on her. She stared at her new hiking boots, hoping she didnt look somehow suspicious.

If only shed inherited the chutzpah that made her grandfather a World War II heroa status hed quickly deny. The Medal of Honor he kept tucked way in his nightstand probably had something to do with his stash of secrets ones she was well on her way to unwrapping.

Before she opened the rumpled package, she sounded out a halting translation of the Russian return address: T. Petrov, from a monastery somewhere near Pskov, Russia. She knew in her heart that this parcel, posted over a year prior and littered with more than a dozen different postmarks, held the key to her past. She just couldnt believe her eyes when an actual key fell out.

The brass key had already opened doors.

She even thought she saw a crack in Grandfathers permanently shuttered emotions. And, when hed met her at the airport and handed her a yellowing photograph, shed glimpsed a sadness in his eyes so profound, her heart wept. Grandfather always said hed lost his heart in the war, but shed never seen the agony of his loss until that day.

Kat had memorized the old photo on the eternal flight over the ocean, hoping to see herself in one of the faces. Two women stood next to a grave, one of them supposedly a distant relation of hers. Their faces were drawn, as if theyd just buried a child or a father. The words written on the back, in Russian, gave no clues.

For the Lord is good and His love endures forever. His faithfulness continues through all generations. Psalm 100.

Perhaps, between the picture and the key, shed find what shed longed for her entire lifeher family tree, her ancestors, her heritage.

The man in front of her stepped over the yellow line to the passport control booth. Kat hauled up her backpack, flung it over her shoulder, narrowly missing the beauty behind her, and shuffled up to the painted yellow boundary. One more step and shed cross over into the past. She already felt like shed stepped into a time warp, perhaps a World War II action movie, complete with soldiers wielding AK-47s and clad in iron gray uniforms. She wondered what it would be like to work as a spy or a covert operator in a foreign country.

Wouldnt Matthew cringe if he knew her thoughts? As an ER doc, Matthews idea of off-hours adventure consisted of ordering green peppers and onions on his plain pepperoni pizza. She smiled, then quickly smothered it, lest one of the storm troopers decide to take her expression as a villainous sign. Still, the image of Matthew tickled a place inside her as she pictured his always-perfect grin dimmed at the thought of his innocent little girlfriend longing for a life of adventure. No, make that ex-girlfriend, as of two days ago.