Diane J. Lewis - Is It Really Goodbye?: One Womans Journey Through Grief

Copyright 2015, Diane J. Lewis

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Publishers Note: This work is the story of a grandmothers journey through the grief of dealing with her granddaughters passing. All effort was made to contact individuals named herein.

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Published by: CAVERN OF DREAMS PUBLISHING Brantford, Ontario, Canada

Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication

Lewis, Diane J., 1938-, author

Is it really goodbye / Diane J. Lewis.

Issued in print and electronic formats.

ISBN 978-1-927899-07-6 (pbk.).--ISBN 978-1-927899-08-3 (ebook)

1. Lewis, Diane J., 1938-. 2. Grandparent and child--Ontario--Paris--Biography. 3. Granddaughters--Death--Psychological aspects. 4. Bereavement--Psychological aspects. I. Title.

Acknowledgements

First, I want to thank my husband, Lloyd, for his understanding and support; I would never have been able to write this book without it.

I want to thank my granddaughter, Amandas sister Kelsey, for her support and help; my daughter, Gerri Lee, for all the computer help, and her support; my sister, Rose Marie; my Aunt Laural; and my friend, Mary Ann, for their continued understanding and support.

I would also like to thank Hazel of the Hazel Tree, who explained so many of the experiences I was having, and Sharon Quirt for her help, as well. When I felt as though I was drowning, and I didnt know where to turn for help, these two mediums helped me keep my balance over the last eight years.

Most of all, I would like to thank my beautiful granddaughter, Amanda, for her faith, her guidance, her love, and for pushing me for five years into realizing that I could do this.

Many thanks to the editing team at Cavern of Dreams PublishingMary M. Cushnie-Mansour, Bethany Jamieson, and Danielle Tanguay for the amazing job they did putting my story together.

The Author

Diane J. Lewis

Diane J. Lewis resides in Paris, Ontario with her husband, Lloyd, and her son, John.

Is It Really Goodbye?

Diane J. Lewis

A manda said it was absolutely true that when we pass over we go directly into the light and check in, after which we are able to return to Earth, if we so choose. She told Hazel to tell me to keep reading all the books I could about the afterlife, and that she loved that so many people had shown up for her funeral.

She told me to keep a journal about everything that was happening, and she suggested that I share my experiences by writing a book. I was stunnedit seemed absurd that I could write a book, and I couldnt help but laugh at the idea.

I dont know how to write a book! I told Hazel. I am not a very descriptive person, I am relatively direct and dont beat around the bushthis seems impossible for me to do!

At the time, I didnt realize Amanda could hear everything I was saying; I hadnt put two and two together yet. But Hazel said that Amanda seemed to have faith in me

In memory of Amanda Owen February 19, 1988 to July 1, 2006

Introduction

This is our story, Gram, yours and mine.

Amandas statement, spoken through my psychic medium, Hazel, was the spark that ignited the writing of this book.

The sudden passing of Amanda Owen, my eighteen-year-old granddaughter, in a car accident, turned my life upside down. I had no idea how I was going to move forward with my life; however, I know that when God calls us, we have no choice in the matter.

After my visit with Hazel, and hearing what Amanda had relayed to her, I knew Amanda wanted me to write this book to help anyone who had lost a loved one. She wanted me to share what to look for after they have passed: the little things spirits will do to let you know they are okay. One should be aware of things being moved for no reason; doors that stand open when they should be closed; doorbells that ring, yet no one is there; and the television changing channels on its own. Those are just a few of the occurrences I have experienced, and will share with you.

Although I had various unexplained experiences before Amandas death, the shock of her passing seems to have opened me wide to receiving from the Other SideAmanda has opened a whole new world to me. I have learned so much about the other dimension since she was called away from us; she has shown me that there is life after death. I am on a journey that I would never have believed possiblea trail of discovery.

I am blessed.

Epilogue

I am overwhelmed with everything that has happened since Amanda passed; it is now 2014, and I have completed my book to the end of December 2013. As I reread all the experiences I have had, I feel incredibly blessed. Everything that has happened has come in cycles, with most of the events appearing to be repeating themselves, although not in an orderly manner. Some have appeared over a period of two or three months, sometimes more, then not appeared again until months later. These unusual cycles apply to everything I have experienced: the visions, the spirit cats, the hitting and the poking, the glowing lamps and doors, the waves of light on the ceilingeverything.

I have come to the conclusion, with the help of Hazel, that it is me who is attracting the spirits, not our house, and if we leave they will follow us to any destination we go. I am overly sensitive now, and I am this way because, if I wasnt, it would be impossible for me to access the Other SideI would no longer have my visions, see or hear spirits, or feel other peoples anxieties when they are ill. This gift of mine is from God, and I must always remember to use it wisely; I have a long way to go, but I am learning.

The events in this book are mine, my familys, and my friends experiences; I cannot ignore they have taken place. Just because I have finished the book does not mean that everything has stopped, either. It has escalated in different directions.

Hazel once told me a quote

My mentor was in the meditation garden one day. A boy came into the garden, and he was holding a cage. There was a bird in the cage, but the boy had left the cage door open.

You left the cage open, my mentor said to the boy.

Oh, do not worry; the bird will not leave the cage. She sat and thought about it, and sure enough, the bird did not leave the cage.

My mentor reflected on it further and said, Do you not find that many people in life do not have the courage to leave the cage? Look what they have missed out on. They could fly really high and see different sights if only they would have the courage to fly out of the cage.