2011
For Brian McDermid, With all my love, now and always
And for Kate Davis Gyles and Michael Edward Gyles, My two favourite things that go bump in the night
But first on earth, as Vampyre sent, Thy corpse shall from its tomb be rent; Then ghastly haunt thy native place, And suck the blood of all thy race;
Byron, The Giaour
In the general belief, however, there was but one land of shades for all alike. The spirits, in form and feature, as they had been in life, wended their way through dark forests to the villages of the dead, subsisting on bark and rotten wood. On arriving, they sat all day in the crouching position of the sick, and, when night came, hunted the shades of animals, with the shades of bows and arrows, among the shades of trees and rocks; for all things, animate and inanimate, were alike immortal, and all passed together to the gloomy country of the dead.
Francis Parkman, The Jesuits in North America in the Seventeenth Century
The past is never dead. Its not even past.
William Faulkner, Requiem for a Nun
Friday, September 22, 1972
The vampire in the dirty green army surplus jacket and cowboy hat boarded the Canada Northern Star Charter Lines bus from Ottawa to Sault Ste. Marie at noon.
Jim Marks, who had been driving for Northern Star for twenty-five years and would retire early at the end of October, looked sourly at this late arrival. He was tired of waiting and wanted to get the trip underway. It was a long one, and boring. The total driving time would be nearly eighteen hours. There would be a refuelling and dinner stop in Toronto at five p.m. and another in Sudbury later that night. He wished hed joined one of the majors years ago, bus lines like Greyhound or Voyageur Colonial, with normal, civilized hours and routes instead of old charter dinosaurs like Northern. He was too old for this job. He felt every one of his forty-eight years tonight, and his ass in the drivers seat felt ninety.
Ticket, Jim grunted, extending his hand. The vampire gave him the ticket. Jim tore off the drivers half and handed the remaining portion back.
Jim, of course, didnt see a vampire. He saw a filthy hippie.
In fairness to the vampire, any man with hair below his collar looked like a filthy hippie to Jim Marks. The world was crazy. Between the hippies down in the States and that commie Jane Fonda carrying on over in Viet Nam and all the drugs and weird music-never mind the fact that you couldnt tell the boys from the girls anymore-the planet was going to hell in a handbasket. If Jim Marks was the Prime Minister of Canada, the first thing hed institute was mandatory haircuts for every male over the age of five.
The vampire took the ticket and moved down the aisle. His hockey bag banged against the metal armrests a couple of times. Jim resisted the urge to tell him to be careful. There was nothing to be careful of, but the metallic noise was annoying and Jim already had a headache and a long night drive ahead of him.
None of the other passengers noticed the vampire as he passed. No one notices anyone on buses unless they are exceptionally beautiful or handsome, or dangerous-looking, or extremely fat-in which case the potential seatmate can look forward to a very long, very uncomfortable ride. The vampire was none of these things. He was entirely nondescript-a bit more dishevelled-looking than the average bus passenger, maybe a little dirty, but not remarkably so for a passenger on a night bus through the mining towns of northern Ontario. He seeped into his seat near the back of the bus like cigarette smoke and settled in for the ride north. For all intents and purposes, he might have been a ghost-felt rather than seen, whose passage might have been marked at most by a momentary waft of air. Or, marked by nothing at all. He wasnt sure what people felt as he passed, but he did like to imagine the worst.
In his seat near the back, the vampire covered his eyes with the brim of his cowboy hat and laid his head against the window. He closed his eyes and tried to sleep. If he slept, he would dream. If he dreamed-as he now could again, since hed stopped taking the pills that flattened out his thoughts, rendering his movements turgid and his dreams uneventful and quiet-the voice would come to him and tell him what to do next. The voice did come to him, and he smiled in his sleep as he listened.
In Toronto five hours later, the vampire got out and stretched his legs. It was raining.
He ordered a hamburger, fries, and a Coke at a greasy spoon on Edward Street, not far from the bus depot, so he could keep his eye on it. He left his hockey bag on the seat, knowing that no one would look inside. He looked through the windows of the diner and watched the cold sluice down, dirty waterfalls of greasy urban soot against the glass. His gaze flickered up to the darkening argentite sky. The rain was intensifying. By his calculations-and he was nothing if not obsessively fastidious about facts-the moon had been ninety-seven percent full last night and would be entirely full when it rose tonight, and remain so through Saturday as he completed his voyage north. While the rain and clouds might try to hide it, the full moon would still be there. The vampire would know. Hed feel it rise and he would grow stronger and stronger.
When the vampire was finished eating his hamburger, he took out the paperback novel he always carried in the side pocket of his army surplus coat with the intention of reading it to pass the forty-five minutes until it was time to re-board the bus.
He patted his pocket, feeling an unfamiliar bulge there, and frowned. Hed forgotten he still had the fucking things. He looked around to make sure no one was watching, and then he took the grimy, nearly full bottle of pills out of his pocket, squinting to read the label. With a ragged thumbnail, he scratched off his name. Then he carried the Thorazine to the garbage can near the door of the diner and tossed it in. He glanced about again to make sure no one had noticed him. Of course no one had noticed him. They never did.
The coach was less than half full as it pulled out of Toronto at 6:15 p.m. Jordan Lefebvre was glad of it. He had his choice of seats. He chose two on the left-hand side of the bus, towards the back. He placed his guitar and his rucksack on the seat next to the aisle and leaned his bruised face against the window. The cool glass felt good against his swollen skin. The sun left the sky early in mid-September and the coming night rode alongside it beneath a shroud of rain as the driver navigated his way out of the city, turning north onto highway 400.
Jordan was seventeen, almost eighteen, and today he had run out of both money and luck. Hed heard the term rock bottom before, but he never expected to have reached it before he was old enough to legally drink and vote. On the other hand, today he was finally a man. Hed grown up hearing older boys talk about how great it felt to finally lose it. It didnt feel great to Jordan. He touched his swollen bottom lip, probing it gently. He winced when he found the split skin and his finger came away wet and red.
Jordan had arrived in Toronto three months earlier from Lake Hepburn, a small mining town in northern Ontario that no one in Toronto seemed to have heard of-a fact few people he met there had ever allowed him to forget. Hed brought his guitar, a few changes of clothes-a couple of pairs of Lee Riders, some underwear, some faded flannel bush shirts, a spare pair of boots.
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