Archer - Tell All From Insanity To Sane

Tell All
From Insanity to Sane

Barbara Archer

Tell All From Insanity To Sane

Authored by Barbara Archer

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Isaiah 41:10

So do not fear for I am with you. Do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

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Dedication:

To My Lord & Savior Jesus Christ

Daddy, I praise you for all you have done for me. I am only here today because of Your love, grace and mercy. Not only did you save me seventeen years ago in that jail, but seventeen years later you saved me from self-destruction. My heart is so filled with Your joy.

I know what it means to say The joy of the Lord is my strength. You never gave up on me, even in the final weeks of the book. I had many obstacles. It seemed as if Satan did not want me to complete what You started. No matter what came at me, I knew Your grace was sufficient.

I remember the very night You woke me up and gave me the name for the book. I felt Your presence so strong. It was as though You were lying beside me. The words You birthed in my soul, I give to You today and the entire world.

I Live to Say Yes to You Lord

All of my life I knew there was something in me that was good (in spite of what people had said) . Life has a way of beating you down. I was lost, but You came to where I was and opened me to a new life. I felt I was still lost. Crying on the inside and pleading with You to rescue me. I had a hard time believing Your word because your word says God is love. I thought in my mind if what You say is true Why didnt You rescue me that night? I was innocent and young.

For years I had no idea that my pain was in my soul. So many times I questioned Why did You let me go through it? Why did You let me live? Why did You saved me, but only to leave me with this hole in my soul? Why did You save me on the night I wanted to end my life? Part of me wanted to believe You were not through with me yet. But the pain I felt was more than I could bear. Each time I prayed Lord deliver me, You did not answered me. It was as though You had turned Your back on me. I felt so alone. The many questions I had You never answered me. I could not see where my life was any different than before. You wanted me to tell others of Your goodness, when I did not feel it at all. Until one day I pleaded with You, When am I going to know You as Jehovah Rapha, the Lord that heals? That very day Lord, You stepped in and gave my thirty-two year sentencing an expiration date.

I remember the day I cried out to You. As I was driving in my car You healed my heart and restored my soul. You showed me all those years I had been crying out, but I was asking all the wrong questions. I wanted You to take all the pain away, but I was not asking for the healer. Forever I will say Yes Lord! Lord, I now have hope for the future. Please forgive me Lord for all of the excuses I gave you in the past. Forgive me for not taking You at Your word. Forgive me for constantly blaming You for how my life turned out. As I sit back I can see that You were always there; even the night I could have been killed. It was You who rescued me. I was wrong for being in a place I should not have been, but now I know that nothing goes to waste. You use all good and bad for your glory. I love you. Now I know You as Lord! You bankrupt me in every way. I Thank You for the beating; without it I would be existing not living the life Christ died for. All of my days I will proclaim Your name to everyone. I am free today! I am no longer defined by my past or my mistakes. I was afraid of giving my heart to You and not knowing if You would take care of it. God, I know now that I can trust You with everything. You formed me from nothing, but you rescued me from everything. In the past I held back, but now whatever You have for me to do I am yours.

Heaven is Your throne and the earth is Your footstool. You predestined me before the world began to do

Your will, my soul and mind says Yes!

Contents

Foreword

Acknowledgments

Veil Over My Eyes 13

Robbed of My Humanity 24

Before I Self Destruct 33

Last Call God Found Me 65

The Woman at the Well 98

I Lost Me 110

Running For My Life 130

Veil Torn In Two 139

Final Thoughts 149

About the Author 150

Foreword

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As a little girl I longed for a father and his love, however I never received it. The only thing my father taught me was to manipulate others and infidelity. It was not long after I grew up that all of my relationships became toxic. I never had a positive role model to compare to what a real man is supposed to be. So, I started out on a conquest to find one. Soon my path turned into a detour and the one thing in which I hated about my fatherI became. I was a female version of him.

I had no emotion toward anyone the only person I could count on was Me. I never once let myself down, but others will and did. But I now know, I did indeed let myself down. My main purpose in life was to find love and then make that person pay for all of the pain that I suffered in life. My life was a mess for many years. I lived within the prison walls of my mind and years later traded it for a physical prison. Life is so funny, but through all of the pain and dysfunction, God stepped in and gave all of my insanity an expiration date.

As I approached the release date of this book, I had gone through so many storms. My daughters health was compromised and my sister had an accident. At the beginning we are strong and zealous, at the end we know we have the Victory, but that middle section is the hardest. Always remember these words I am about to speak. In the middle is where you will face your most challenges in life. It is a time of uncertainty and the devil is working overtime to get you to a place that you will want to give in or you become fearful. I faced it all, but I am here victorious! Surround yourself with a friend who will pray you through the middle section of your journey. I pray this book will help many women and men.

Be Blessed,

Ms. Barbara Archer