Greg Iles - Black Cross

BLACK CROSS

GREG ILES

Copyright 1995 by Greg Iles

For Betty Thornhill Iles AND every man and woman who sacrificed their lives in the Allied cause.

There is a mysterious cycle in human events.

To some generations much is given.

Of other generations much is expected.

This generation has a rendezvous with destiny.

Franklin Delano Roosevelt

1

Its odd how death often marks a beginning rather than an end. We know someone for ten years, twenty years, longer. We see them in the course of daily life. We speak, laugh, exchange harsh words; we think we have some notion of who they are.

And then they die.

In death, the fluid impressions formed over a lifetime begin to assume definite shape. The picture comes into focus. New facts emerge. Safes are opened, wills read. With finality, and with distance, we often discover that the people we thought we knew were actually quite different than we imagined. And the closer we were to them, the more shocking this surprise is.

So it was with my grandfather. He died violently, and quite publicly, in circumstances so extraordinary that they got thirty seconds of airtime on the national evening news. It happened last Tuesday, in a MedStar helicopter ambulance en route from Fairplay, Georgia the small town in which I was born and raised to Emory University Hospital in Atlanta, where I work as an emergency physician. While making his rounds at Fairplays local hospital, my grandfather collapsed at a nurses station. Fighting to ignore the terrible pain in his lower back, he had a nurse take his blood pressure. When he heard the figures, he correctly diagnosed a leaking abdominal aortic aneurysm and realized that without immediate emergency surgery he would die.

With two nurses supporting him, he spoke on a telephone just long enough to summon the MedStar from Atlanta, forty miles away. My grandmother insisted on remaining by his side in the chopper, and the pilot reluctantly agreed. They dont usually allow that, but damn near everybody in the Georgia medical community knew or knew of my grandfather a quiet but eminently respected lung specialist. Besides, my grandmother wasnt the kind of woman that men talked back to. Ever.

The MedStar crashed twenty minutes later on a quiet street in the suburbs of Atlanta. That was four days ago, and as yet no one has determined the cause of the crash. Just one of those freak things, I guess. Pilot error, they like to call it. I dont really care whose fault it was. Im not looking to sue. Were not or werent that kind of family.

My grandparents deaths hit me especially hard, because they raised me from the age of five. My parents died in a car crash in 1970. Ive seen more than my share of tragedy, I suppose. I still do. It sweeps through my emergency room every day and night, trailing blood and cocaine and whiskey-breath and burnt skin and dead kids. Such is life. The reason Im writing this down is because of what happened at the burial or rather, who I met at the burial. Because it was there, in a place of death, that my grandfathers secret life revealed itself at last.

The cemetery crowd a large one for our town, and predominantly Protestant had already drifted back toward the long line of sedate Lincolns and brighter Japanese imports. I was standing at the green edge of the graves, two side-by-side holes smelling of freshly turned earth. A pair of gravediggers waited to cover the gleaming silver caskets. They seemed in no particular hurry; both had been patients of my grandfather at one time or another. One a wiry fellow named Crenshaw had even been brought into the world by him, or so he said.

They dont make docs like your grandpa anymore, Mark, he declared. Or Doctor, I should say, he added, smiling. I cant quite get used to that title. No offense, but I still remember catching you out here at midnight with that Clark girl.

I smiled back. That was a good memory. I cant quite get used to the title either, as a matter of fact. Doctor McConnell. I know I am a doctor a damn good one but when I stand, or stood, beside my grandfather, I always felt more like an apprentice, a bright but inexperienced student in the shadow of a master. That was what I was thinking when someone tugged at my jacket sleeve from behind.

Afternoon, Rabbi, said the gravedigger, nodding past me.

Shalom, Mr. Crenshaw, said a deep, much-traveled voice.

I turned. Behind me stooped an avuncular old man with snow-white hair and a yarmulke. His twinkling eyes settled on me and gave me a thorough going-over. The spitting image, he said quietly. Though youre a little heavier-boned than Mac was.

My grandmothers genes, I said, a little embarrassed to be at a disadvantage.

Quite right, said the old man. Quite right. And a beautiful woman she was, too.

Suddenly I placed him. Rabbi Leibovitz, isnt it?

The old man smiled. You have a good memory, Doctor. Its been a long time since youve seen me up close.

The old mans voice had a low, musical quality to it, as if all its edges had been worn away by years of soothing, reasonable speech. I nodded again. The gravediggers shuffled their feet.

Well, I said, I guess its about time

Ill take that shovel, Rabbi Leibovitz told Crenshaw.

But Rabbi, you shouldnt be doing heavy work.

The rabbi took the shovel from the amazed gravedigger and spaded it into the soft pile of dirt. This is work for a mans friends and family, he said. Doctor? He looked up at me.

I took the other shovel from the second man and followed his example.

Afternoon, Mark, muttered Crenshaw, a little put out. He and his partner shambled off toward a battered pickup that waited at a discreet distance.

I shoveled earth steadily into my grandmothers grave while Rabbi Leibovitz worked on the other. It was hot Georgia summer hot and soon I was pouring sweat. As the backfill rose toward my feet, I was a little surprised to find that the shoveling felt better than anything I had done since I first heard the news of my grandparents deaths, and far better than anything anyone had said to console me. When I checked the old mans progress, I was surprised to find him only a little behind me in his work. I went back to mine with a will.

When I finished filling my grandmothers grave, I walked around to help Rabbi Leibovitz. Together we finished filling my grandfathers in a couple of minutes. The rabbi laid his shovel on the ground behind him, then turned back to the grave and began praying quietly. I stood holding my shovel in silence until he had finished. Then, as if by mutual consent, we started walking to the narrow asphalt lane where I had parked my black Saab.

I saw no other cars nearby. The cemetery was a good mile and a half from the center of town. Did you walk all the way out here, Rabbi? I asked.

I caught a ride from a good Christian, he said. I was hoping to ride back with you.

The request caught me off guard, but I said, Sure, glad to do it.

I opened the passenger door for him, then went around and got behind the wheel. The Swedish-built engine revved smoothly. Where to? I asked. You still live across from the synagogue?

Yes. But I thought we might visit your grandparents house. Are you staying there while youre in town?

Yes, I admitted. Yes, I am. I looked at him curiously. Then I felt a familiar sense of recognition. I had seen these situations before. Some people dont feel comfortable confronting serious medical symptoms in a physicians office. Is there something you need to tell me, Rabbi? I asked slowly. Are you in need of medical attention?