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Im No Angel: From Victorias Secret Model to Role Model
Copyright 2013 by Kylie Bisutti. All rights reserved.
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To my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. May this book be for Your glory. I am thankful for Your unending love and grace!
To Mikey, the love of my life. Thank you for loving me like Christ loves the church. Thank you for always showing me grace and for your prayers. You are my best friend, and I am absolutely blessed to be able to call you my husband and my partner in life. My greatest gift outside of knowing Christ and receiving His gift of love and salvation is knowing you.
To my mom and dad. Thank you both for pouring into my life and loving me. Thank you for modeling lives of character and integrity. And thank you for teaching me how to hunt and fish! Im grateful to the Lord for all He has done in your lives, and I love who you have become in Christ.
To Papa and Grams. I cannot imagine my life without you. Thank you for all the time you spent with me as a little girl. Thank you for always being there for me. My heart rejoices knowing that I share such a bond with both of you.
PROLOGUE
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the L ORD is to be praised.
PROVERBS 31:30
I LL NEVER FORGET finding that first tweet just after Thanksgiving 2011:
Oh great... the Victorias Secret Fashion Show... another reason not to eat.
It was followed almost immediately by another.
Then another.
And another.
All over the country, teenage girls and young women were taking to their Twitter accounts to pour out their angst and frustration over how they didnt measure uphow they felt physically inadequate in every area, from their weight to their appearance to their bust size.
Then, out of nowhere, amid all the anxiety and insecurity, came the tweet that would change my life forever:
Id rather have a Proverbs 31 woman than a VS model.
The words came from Alex Eklund, the founder of Live 31, an organization committed to helping women gain a healthy, biblical self-image.
I couldnt help but smile. Would anyone believe this is exactly my journey? I wondered.
Then I tweeted:
I quit being a VS model to become a Proverbs 31 wife.
Little did I know what that single sentence would lead to. Within minutes, Alex contacted me and asked if Id be interested in writing a blog post for his website, sharing my story.
Id never spoken publicly about giving up my career as a lingerie model to become the woman God wanted me to be, but I felt like God was nudging me to do this. I said yes.
Later that evening I sat down at my computer and started writing.
I QUIT VICTORIAS SECRET TO BE A PROVERBS 31 WIFE
I started my modeling career at the very young age of fourteen. It was always my dream to become a supermodel, and to be a Victorias Secret model was my ultimate goal....
As I typed the final words of the blog post, I thought, Well, if my modeling career wasnt over before, it will be now. And yet I had total peace about my decision. I knew it was the right messageand hopefully one that might help free others who were trapped in a world of insecurity, self-loathing, eating disorders, and emptinessa world I was all too familiar with.
I wanted no part of it anymore.
This is career suicide, I thought, hitting the Send button.
Chapter 1
ALL THINGS FOR GOOD
We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
ROMANS 8:28
FEBRUARY 7, 2012
D AD JUST TEXTED ME AGAIN. My husband, Mike, glanced up from his phone, shaking his head in surprise. He says Dr. Phil called. Anderson Cooper wants you on his show. Rosie ODonnell wants to talk to you, and someone from Inside Edition just left a message for you at the house.
Whats going on? I wondered. Why is everyone suddenly so interested in me?
Before I could even finish my thought, my phone rang. It was my agent, Sabrina.
Kylie, where are you? She sounded a little frantic.
Im in Fargo, North Dakota, with Mike. Whats going on? All these talk shows and news outlets keep calling Mikes dad, looking for me.
Youre all over the news, Kylie! Sabrina sounded shocked that I had no idea what was happening.
Id been traveling with Mike on business, and we hadnt been online or watched much TV for the past few days. Besides, it had been months since Id stopped modeling. I figured the media had completely forgotten about meand frankly, I was fine with that.
Apparently the interview you did with FoxNews.com about quitting Victorias Secret to become a Proverbs 31 wife went live today. Its all over the news, and Good Morning America has offered to fly you to New York today so you can be on their show tomorrow morning. She paused, waiting for me to respond. I just stared at Mike, stunned.
Kylie? How soon can you get to an airport?
I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the front window. Dressed in a puffy ski coat and hunting boots, with no makeup and my hair pulled back in a ponytail, I was about as far from media ready as I could get. And there wasnt a single thing in my suitcase that was going to be an improvement.