HAVING WATCHED OUR husbands write many books over the years, we thought we knew what we were signing up for when this book project first lifted off the ground. We really had no idea what a team effort it would be. Without the continued encouragement and pushing from so many incredible people in our lives, it would never have come to fruition.
Thanks to our amazing agent, Esther Fedorkevich. From our first conversation, your passion for this project has been unmatched. Thank you for believing in us when we werent even sure we believed in ourselves. Happy you are part of the pastors wives club.
From seaside dinners to late-night chat sessions, we couldnt have asked for a better editor than Jana Burson. We appreciate not only your insight but also your fun sense of humor. Glad we talked you into watching all our favorite TV shows. You are much more than an editor to us; we cherish your friendship.
Thank you to the team at Hachette for taking a chance on usunknown and unproven. Thanks for caring enough about women in leadership to support this book and see it to completion.
Our Leading and Loving It team and sweet friends Tiffany Cooper, Jessica Cornelius, and Lisa Hughes: How incredible is it that God lets us work together even though we are separated by thousands of miles?! We cant convey how much we love our phone calls, video chats, texts, DMs, and trips. You are lifelines, and we cant imagine this life in ministry without your friendship. Glad we are Nacho Average Pastors Wives together. And to our virtual community group leaders and our L&L It local leaders, thanks for your hearts to love and support other pastors wives and women in ministry like you. Leading and Loving It would not be what it is without you.
Thanks to Stacy Gann, Eleana Garza, Joy Henderson, Laura Lasky, Tricia Lovejoy, Michelle Meeks, Heather Palacios, Makeda Pennycooke, Kimberly Scott, Cindy Beall, and Natalie Witcher for taking the time to dive into this book, providing not only meaningful feedback but loads of encouragement as well.
To our church families and staff at Central and Cross Point: Thank you for giving us the grace and freedom to be ourselves. It is truly a joy to serve Christ with you.
From Lori: Mom and Dad, I could not have had better role models either in spiritual life or in family life. Thanks for helping shape me into who I am today. My precious Emma and Ethan: Im so grateful that God let me be your mom. Our prayer is that the blessing we pray over you every night will be real and tangible all the days of your lives. And my amazing husband, Jud: if you asked, Id agree to be your date for life all over again. No one makes me laugh like you do. Love you, babe.
From Brandi: There is no way I could have written one word of this book without Morgantown Community Church in Kentucky, the church that accepted me as its pastors wife at the wee age of twenty-one. Thank you to my parents, who have always been supportive and full of love. Sue, thank you for your willingness to help, your support and encouragement. My Nashville community: you give me laughter, wipe my tears, and keep life full of fun. Jett, Gage, and Brewer, my heart swells with pride for each of you. Never stop chasing after His heart. And Pete, life together has been better than I ever could have imagined. Thank you for loving me so well. Sneaking out and meeting you under that big oak tree at WKU was the best decision I ever made.
Jesus: thank you seems like so little, but we are forever grateful.
I GREW UP in a pastors home and, for the most part, I loved it! Some of you might say I was completely nuts, but I can truthfully say that when I saw my mom and dad be an integral part of transformation in the lives of spiritually hungry people, love people extravagantlythere for them in the Kodak moments of life as well as their deepest griefleave an impact on generations following behind them, and partner with the God of the universe in building His church, I knew this was the life I wanted. What could possibly be better than that?
And then I married a pastor.
Being a pastors wife was not nearly as easy as watching my mom be a pastors wife! She made it seem so easy! Once I married Rick, I got a good dose of realitytoo many late nights, gossipy people who seemed to enjoy my mistakes, a phone that rang off the hook, meetings ad infinitum, never enough money, volunteers who didnt show up, a husband who was cranky on Monday mornings, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera.
I needed help fast, and there wasnt much available. I longed for a practical guide to Ministry 101.
Two of my favorite young leaders, Lori Wilhite and Brandi Wilson, have written that book! Leading and Loving It is a fun, challenging, and comforting book for women like themselves: pastors wives. I love the way they weave their down-to-earth humor, poignant life stories, and Scriptural principles into a message for every woman who is living her life in the fishbowl of ministry. Lori and Brandi will win your heart with their authenticity and encourage your soul with their real-world approach to ministry.
Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church
in Lake Forest, CA
I wouldnt mind a tummy tuck. Things have gone south, ifyouknowwhatimean. Just sayin.
Confession
IT ALL STARTED lighthearted and funny but in the end turned heartbreaking. A simple blog post, requesting confessions.
One day we set out to give pastors wives and women in ministry the opportunity to share their confessions. The silly things that make them not-so-average women in leadership. The serious struggles that had them in full-blown choke holds. They could, and did, share everything.
It started with an I read vampire books, and I like them from Lori, and this is a snippet of what followed:
I like to wear slightly tight jeans with my very red heels.
I suffer from C.H.A.O.S. (Cant Have Anyone Over Syndrome). My house is REVOLTING.
Im bold and nosy, but I dont really want to know about peoples menstrual cycles.
I avoid the lobby. Its a hot mess.
I hate that my husbands job dictates all my friends.
I sometimes just want to skip church entirely. For a few months.
I hate having our salary supplied by church members and family. It makes me feel like I cannot spend my money however I want.
I think it is crazy weird that not only do people drive by our house to see what were doing but even stranger that they tell us they do it!
I resent the way that church people make my husband and me feel insecure and inadequate.
After feeling like I could never really be honest about where I was with the Lord (we are supposed to be perfect, right?), the stress of life broke me in more ways than I care to admit. Now? I feel like I have nothing to give and live under shame of past sin and heartbreak. My confession: 1. Unworthy of being a pastors wife. 2. Im selfish. 3. Im holding on by a thread.
I am DONE with ministry within the church.
Such hurt. Such heartache.
Whether you are a pastor, are a ministry wife, work on a church staff, are a missionary, serve at a nonprofit organization, or teach a Bible study, you are a leader. And to some degree, you will experience the incredible joys and painful sorrows of leadership. We get a front-row seat from which to watch how God is completely transforming peoples lives, and then can be so wounded when those same people turn to us and hurl words of criticism. We are surrounded by people, yet locked away in loneliness and isolation. Thats leadership.