Nancy Reagan - I Love You, Ronnie: The Letters of Ronald Reagan to Nancy Reagan

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For Ronnie

As I reread Ronnies letters to me recently, getting ready to donate them to the Ronald Reagan Library, I realized in a new way how very special they are. Id always intended them for the library, believing them to be of value to historians seeking to learn more about a former president. And yet as I read them once again, fishing around in the shopping bag I kept them in and pulling them out one after another, remembering and enjoying Ronnies humor and style, his presence and his love, I was struck by how much they said about himnot just as a president, but as a man. And about us, the love we shared. The letters took me back in time, to the different moments of the life that Ronnie and I have shared for almost fifty years. And, once more, they brought Ronnie back to me, in his own words.

I realized how valuable the art and practice of writing letters are, and how important it is to remind people of what a treasure lettershandwritten letterscan be. In our throwaway era of quick phone calls, faxes, and E-mail, its all too easy never to find the time to write letters. Thats a great pityfor historians and the rest of us. If only people could see Ronnies letters, I thought, theyd realize so much, including how wonderful it can be to take the time to write what you feel to those you love.

For all these reasons, I realized I wanted to do something more with Ronnies letters than send them to the Reagan Library. I hated the thought of their being stuck in a file there, read by a few scholars and researchers yet not by the many people who love Ronnie but dont have access to the Simi Valley archives. I decided I wanted them to be able to read the letters before I donated them to the library. That way, all the people who admire Ronnie could share in discovering the side of him that hes always kept hidden from public view. That is to say, his private side. His heart.

Some of my royalties from the book will go to the Alzheimers Foundation, and the rest to the Ronald Reagan Presidential Foundation for the Ronald Reagan Library and Museum.

NANCY REAGAN

MAY 2000

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

I am deeply grateful to Judith Warner for her help in the preparation of this book. And to Martin Garbus, my deepest thanks for his advice and friendship.

Many people at Random House handled this book with great care and sensitivity. J. K. Lambert deserves a special thank-you for his beautiful interior design. I am also especially grateful to Frankie Jones, Veronica Windholz, Benjamin Dreyer, Kathy Rosenbloom, Amy Edelman, Robbin Schiff, Andy Carpenter, Meaghan Rady, and Deborah Aiges.

And now, last but far from least, my editor and friend, Kate Medina. She was extraordinarily sensitive to what I was trying to do and very aware when I hit those periods when I just couldnt do anything and had to stop. However, when it was time, she would gently nudge me on, and somehow, with her help, Id get it back together. I can never thank her enough for her patience and kindness.

I Love You, Ronnie

On a boat, during the 1960s.

C hristmas 1980it was perhaps the most important turning point in all of our lives.

We were due to leave for Washington in just a few days, and we both had a lot of things on our mind. They were different things, but still, they were there, and they preoccupied us. Wed been thrilled by the campaign and election night, and now we were planning for our new lives. Ronnie was thinking about all that it would mean to become president. He had always been very clear about his positions and where he wanted the country to go, but the idea of actually sitting in the Oval Office was daunting. I, on the other hand, was packing, getting ready to move us to Washington, clearing out closets and cleaning out the car port, which over the years I had filled with baskets and more baskets.

Christmas was Christmas nevertheless. We were there at home in California. Ronnies thoughts were of those closest to himour family, gathered around us for one last celebration in our house in Pacific Palisades. It was a strange timethe last time we would ever have Christmas together in the house where Ronnie and I had raised our children and built our lives.

On Christmas Day, our children and their families, plus Ronnies brother, Moon, and his wife, Bess, came to dinner. We exchanged presents. Ronnie made a toast, as he always did, and he summed up, I think, what we all felt: This toast is for all of us, he said. Not for what were about to become, but for what weve been, to each other, for so many years.

In the morning, I had found a wonderful letter, just as I almost always found a Christmas letter from Ronnie throughout the years of our marriage.

Christmas was, of course, a special occasion, but it wasnt the only time Ronnie wrote to me. From the earliest days of our marriage, and even before, Ronnie wrote to me all the timebeautiful letters, with descriptions of the world he saw around him; moving letters, filled with emotion, which deepened as we fell more and more in love.

No matter what else was going on in his life, no matter where he was, Ronnie wrote to stay in touch. I found his letters funny, warm, and imaginative. I loved reading them, and found myself looking forward to receiving them. Whenever Ronnie went away, I missed him terribly, and when his letters arrived, the whole world stopped so I could read them. I always loved not only what Ronnie said but the way he said it: the inventiveness and fun, the natural way he expressed his feelings and described the world around him. I saved every letter, every card, and every doodle.