Ted Hughes - Birthday Letters
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for Frieda and Nicholas
I remember that thought. Not Your face. No doubt I scanned particularly The girls. Maybe I noticed you. Maybe I weighed you up, feeling unlikely. Noted your long hair, loose waves Your Veronica Lake bang.
Not what it hid. It would appear blond. And your grin. Your exaggerated American Grin for the cameras, the judges, the strangers, the frighteners. Then I forgot. Yet I remember The picture: the Fulbright Scholars.
With their luggage? It seems unlikely. Could they have come as a team? I was walking Sore-footed, under hot sun, hot pavements. Was it then I bought a peach? Thats as I remember. From a stall near Charing Cross Station. It was the first fresh peach I had ever tasted. I could hardly believe how delicious.
At twenty-five I was dumbfounded afresh By my ignorance of the simplest things.
And the trap unsprung, empty. I felt no interest. No stirring Of omen. In those days I coerced Oracular assurance In my favour out of every sign. So missed everything In the white, blindfolded, rigid faces Of those women. I felt their frailty, yes: Friable, burnt aluminium.
Fragile, like the mantle of a gas-lamp. But made nothing Of that massive, starless, mid-fall, falling Heaven of granite stopped, as if in a snapshot, By their hair.
The world Crossed the wet courts, on Sunday, politely, In tourists tentative shoes. All roads lay too open, opened too deeply Every degree of the compass. Here at the centre of the web, at the crossroads, You published your poem About Caryatids. We had heard Of the dance of your blond veils, your flaring gestures, Your misfit self-display. More to reach you Than to reproach you, more to spark A contact through the see-saw bustling Atmospherics of higher learning And lower socializing, than to correct you With our archaic principles, we concocted An attack, a dismemberment, laughing. We had our own broadsheet to publish it.
Our Welshman composed it still deaf To the white noise of the elegy That would fill his mouth and his ear Worlds later, on Cader Idris, In the wind and snow of your final climb.
She detested you. She fed snapshots Of you and she did not know what Inflammable celluloid into my silent Insatiable future, my blind-mans-buff Internal torch of search. With my friend, After midnight, I stood in a garden Lobbing soil-clods up at a dark window. Drunk, he was certain it was yours. Half as drunk, I did not know he was wrong. Nor did I know I was being auditioned For the male lead in your drama, Miming through the first easy movements As if with eyes closed, feeling for the role.
As if a puppet were being tried on its strings, Or a dead frogs legs touched by electrodes. I jigged through those gestures watched and judged Only by starry darkness and a shadow. Unknown to you and not knowing you. Aiming to find you, and missing, and again missing. Flinging earth at a glass that could not protect you Because you were not there. Ten years after your death I meet on a page of your journal, as never before, The shock of your joy When you heard of that.
Then the shock Of your prayers. And under those prayers your panic That prayers might not create the miracle, Then, under the panic, the nightmare That came rolling to crush you: Your alternative the unthinkable Old despair and the new agony Melting into one familiar hell. Suddenly I read all this Your actual words, as they floated Out through your throat and tongue and onto your page Just as when your daughter, years ago now, Drifting in, gazing up into my face, Mystified, Where I worked alone In the silent house, asked, suddenly: Daddy, wheres Mummy? The freezing soil Of the garden, as I clawed it. All round me that midnights Giant clock of frost. And somewhere Inside it, wanting to feel nothing, A pulse of fever. Somewhere Inside that numbness of the earth Our future trying to happen.
I look up as if to meet your voice With all its urgent future That has burst in on me. Then look back At the book of the printed words. You are ten years dead. It is only a story. Your story.
I can live Your incredulity, your certainty That this was it. You lost your stirrups. He galloped Straight down the white line of the Barton Road. You lost your reins, you lost your seat It was grab his neck and adore him Or free-fall. You slewed under his neck, An upside-down jockey with nothing Between you and the cataract of macadam, That horribly hard, swift river, But the propeller terrors of his front legs And the clangour of the iron shoes, so far beneath you. Luck was already there.
Did you have a helmet? How did you cling on? Baby monkey Using your arms and legs for clinging steel. What saved you? Maybe your poems Saved themselves, slung under that plunging neck, Hammocked in your body over the switchback road. You saw only blur. And a cyclists shock-mask, Fallen, dragging his bicycle over him, protective. I can feel your bounced and dangling anguish, Hugging what was left of your steerage. How did you hang on? You couldnt have done it.
Something in you not you did it for itself. You clung on, probably nearly unconscious, Till he walked into his stable. That gallop Was practice, but not enough, and quite useless. When I jumped a fence you strangled me One giddy moment, then fell off, Flung yourself off and under my feet to trip me And tripped me and lay dead. Over in a flash.
Once to check I dropped a file across the electrodes Of a twelve-volt battery it exploded Like a grenade. Somebody wired you up. Somebody pushed the lever. They crashed The thunderbolt into your skull. In their bleached coats, with blenched faces, They hovered again To see how you were, in your straps. Whether your teeth were still whole.
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