Douglas - I blame Dennis Hopper: and other stories from a life lived in and out of the movies

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For my momthe most cinematic woman I know.

To my four grandparents. My grandfather Melvyn Douglas told me, When you find someone you can learn from, hold on to them.

Mike Nichols had just screened his masterpiece, The Graduate, in New York. Afterward, I was standing in line next to Glenn Gordon Caron, who had directed me in Picture Perfect , waiting to meet Mr. Nichols. I was holding one of his legendary comedy albums he had recorded with Elaine May, hoping to get him to sign it. Glenn whispered to me, Only you could get away with that. I held out my album to Mr. Nichols, and he pointed at me and said, You you know what I like about you? You manage to be both in the movie and outside it, commenting to us in the audience. Then he signed my album: With admiration, Mike Nichols.

Among the pantheon of movie gods I have traveled in, Mike Nichols was Zeus. I was getting the nod from Zeus. Mike Nichols was not just insightfully describing my on-screen persona. He was also describing my life, which has often played like a movie with me both in the movie and outside it , commenting to the audience, Well, I remember how it began, but I have no idea how its going to end. I pass this on not to impress you about me but to impress you about Mike Nichols. His words, and the advice he was about to give, had a profound influence on me.

He asked me, Have you ever read De Tocqueville? It sounded like a name that had come off the Nichols and May album I was holding, Improvisations to Music .

I shook my head and said no, I had not read De Tocqueville. I had never even heard of De Tocqueville.

You should read it, he said thoughtfully. He sounded like a doctor prescribing a vital prescription. In fact And he started to rattle off other books I should read.

I quickly grabbed the pen he had used to sign my record and wrote down the books he suggested. Anything by Alexis de Tocqueville, especially Democracy in America .

Vladimir Nabokov: Speak, Memory . Augusten Burroughs: Running With Scissors and Dry .

Thank you, I said, not really sure what I was thanking him for but absolutely sure that I would be running to a bookstore the next day. You certainly dont disappoint the gods when they show you favor.

Let me know what you think, he said. Write me after youve read them.

I will, I said, still unsure of why he had taken the time with me.

I had come there hoping just to meet Mike Nichols, to get his autograph. I was a fan of his . A picture of him directing Catch-22 , along with those of other movie gods, had graced my bedroom wall when I was a kid. I was his admirer and champion. His quotes were pinned up on my office walls, including The only safe thing is to take a chance. Play safe and you are dead.

And yet this god also seemed to be my admirer and champion. Why? What did he see in me that I could not yet see in myself? I never once told him that I had aspirations to write. I read the books he suggested, and he was astuteif not downright psychicin having suggested them. Those books led me in the direction of this book, so thank you, Mike Nicholsthank you for giving me a through line to my life. In the pages that follow, I am both the narrator telling you about my experiences in the movies but also outside them; Im a delighted fan sitting next to you on the couch exclaiming, Arent these people fascinating? Arent movies the best?

A word of warning. This is not a memoir with a wonderfully linear beginning, middle, and end. Sadly, its not a tell-all, unless you consider being alone in a hotel room with Ethan Hawke and watching Paul Mazurskys movie Blume in Love a tell-all. Its also not a book about my career, which I hope explains the omissions of some of the films and television shows Ive been in. That may sound surprisingly humble for an actordont worry, I make large, large costarring appearancesbut I am always more comfortable talking about the actors and directors I have worked with and how their work has changed me.

Oh, this is a book about movies. How movies tell a story. In this case, mine. Its called I Blame Dennis Hopper because I think you will see from the first chapter that sometimes a movie or an actor can change your destiny. I believe that all of us have been changed by the experience of movies. Think of the first movie you saw. What effect did it have on you? Who took you to see it? These questions, and the answers you give, connect us in a vital and emotional way. You may not know some of the people I write aboutsuch as Roddy McDowall and Rudy Valleyet their contributions are part of film history. These days, to look back at a classic movie is somehow considered to be old-fashioned. More and more we are asked to look forward without a glance back at the films and film stars that got us here.

The actor Rod Taylor recently died. He starred in such iconic films as Hitchcocks The Birds and George Pals The Time Machine . I had an intense crush on Rod Taylor when I was a kid, and I thought I was the only one who was devastated when he died. But when I mentioned his passing to a friend, she said, Well, a piece of my childhood just died. She was sobbing. Time Machine , she cried, and it wasnt even that good!

But it was good, I said. It was good because you remembered it.

Thats how movies change us: in ways we cannot even remember. Those images of movies stay in our brain; those fragments become shards in our memories. So when these gods die, its as if a piece of our childhood dies with them. Thats why its important to be a living historian. To pass on stories of why these movies and movie gods matter. Its all a part of our collective memory, and we all have to take part in upholding it.

Illeana, your life is like a movie. I hear that all the timeso much so that I finally accepted it. My life is like a movie! But so is yours. The greatest compliment I can give myself or anyone reading this is to say, You are the star of your own movie. You are surrounded by an amazing set of characters with a story that only you can tell. Now, you may not think its the healthiest thing in the world to live your life as if it were a movie, but somehow it has worked for me, with Dennis Hopper and many other movie gods to blame for every glorious moment.

We were poor, but we were unhappy.

In 1969, my parents, like many others of their generation, saw the counterculture movie Easy Rider. Its a road movie about two alienated and rootless hippie bikers (Dennis Hopper and Peter Fonda) traveling on their choppers through a broken America. It depicted the rise of the hippie culture, celebrated drug use and free love, and condemned the establishment. The tagline of the film was A man went looking for America. And couldnt find it anywhere, which is apparently how people felt in 1969 because it was the third-highest-grossing film of the year. Easy Rider was written by Dennis Hopper, Peter Fonda, and Terry Southern and was directed by Dennis Hopper. It became a cultural phenomenon, and many people who saw the film so identified with it that they sought to emulate the values of its two main characters, Captain America (Peter Fonda) and Billy (Dennis Hopper).