About the Author
Don McCullin grew up in North London and went to work in a cartoon animation studio in Mayfair before the Observer newspaper bought one of his gangland pictures and set him on the road as photojournalist. He moved to the Sunday Times, where he worked for eighteen years. His photographs of almost every major conflict in his adult lifetime until the Falklands war, provide some of the most potent images of the twentieth century. His pictures are in major museum collections all over the world. He is the holder of many honours and awards, including the C.B.E.
ALSO BY DON McCULLIN
The Destruction Business
Is Anybody Taking Any Notice?
Homecoming
The Palestinians
(with Jonathan Dimbleby)
Hearts of Darkness
(with an introduction by John Le Carr)
Beirut: A City in Crisis
Perspectives
Skulduggery
(with Mark Shand)
Open Skies
(with an introduction by John Fowles)
Sleeping with Ghosts
(with an introduction by Mark Haworth-Booth)
India
(with an introduction by Norman Sherry)
Don McCullin
(with an introduction by Harold Evans)
UNREASONABLEBEHAVIOURAn AutobiographyDon McCullinwithLewis ChesterVINTAGE BOOKSLondon
This eBook is copyright material and must not be copied, reproduced, transferred, distributed, leased, licensed or publicly performed or used in any way except as specifically permitted in writing by the publishers, as allowed under the terms and conditions under which it was purchased or as strictly permitted by applicable copyright law. Any unauthorised distribution or use of this text may be a direct infringement of the authors and publishers rights and those responsible may be liable in law accordingly.
Epub ISBN: 9781409001805
Version 1.0
www.randomhouse.co.uk
First published by Vintage 1992
This edition published by Vintage 2002
8 10 9
Copyright Donald McCullin 1990
Preface copyright Donald McCullin 2002
Donald McCullin has asserted his right under the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988 to be identified as the author of this work
This book is sold subject to the condition that it shall not, by way of trade or otherwise, be lent, resold, hired out, or otherwise circulated without the publishers prior consent in any form of binding or cover other than that in which it is published and without a similar condition including this condition being imposed on the subsequent purchaser
First published in Great Britain in 1990 by
Jonathan Cape
Vintage
Random House, 20 Vauxhall Bridge Road, London SW1V 2SA
www.vintage-books.co.uk
Addresses for companies within The Random House Group Limited can be found at: www.randomhouse.co.uk/offices.htm
The Random House Group Limited Reg. No. 954009
A CIP catalogue record for this book is available from the British Library
ISBN 9780099437765
The Random House Group Limited supports The Forest Stewardship Council (FSC), the leading international forest certification organisation. All our titles that are printed on Greenpeace approved FSC certified paper carry the FSC logo. Our paper procurement policy can be found at www.rbooks.co.uk/environment.
Typeset by SX Composing DTP, Rayleigh, Essex Printed in the UK by CPI Bookmarque, Croydon, CR0 4TD
TO ALL THOSE WHO DID NOT SURVIVE
C ONTENTS
P REFACE
It has been some time since the original publication of Unreasonable Behaviour and I have to say that I was truly staggered by the response that it received. I thought that publishing the facts about my personal life would help to chase away some of my demons. Instead, all I was left with was the pain and guilt that I brought upon myself by betraying my beautiful wife and family. But now, twelve years on, I am extremely happy. At this moment in time I have four lovely grandchildren and a lovely new lady in my life.
I am still very much the photographer and working on all kinds of projects. Ive presented three major exhibitions in France, where photography is, thankfully, still held in high regard, and last year, at the United Nations HQ in New York, I put together a major exhibition highlighting the AIDS crisis sweeping the southern continent of Africa. I have also published three new books and I am now working on a very exciting new project on the tribes of Southern Ethiopia.
So it all looks like I am, at last, beginning to pick up the pieces of my life once again. As for the future, I intend to keep working and, above all, try to be more adaptable to an ever-changing world.
Don McCullin
Somerset
March 2002
A CKNOWLEDGMENTS
Among a host of people who have opened doors for me to enlarge my life, I should like to acknowledge Bryn Campbell, the Observer picture editor, who first sent me to war; Philip Jones Griffiths, a freelance photo-journalist who encouraged me and taught me a great deal in the early days; Cornell Capa, who promoted my work in America; Mark Haworth-Booth for presenting my first exhibition at the Victoria and Albert Museum in London; and Mark Shand, my favourite travelling companion and friend, who has shared some dangers with me since I abandoned the worlds battle fronts.
Many other colleagues and friends have been overwhelmingly generous with their help in bringing a measure of depth and accuracy to this book, going to untold trouble to jog my memory about details of events encountered together, or providing me with their own accounts of situations that I saw from only one side. With apologies to anyone I may have inadvertently omitted, I offer grateful thanks in this respect to David Blundy, Tony Clifton, Peter Crookston, Hunter Davies, Jonathan Dimbleby, Peter Dunn, Harry Evans, James Fox, Frank Hermann, Michael Herr, Ian Jack, Philip Jacobson, David King, Phillip Knightley, John le Carr, David Leitch, Norman Lewis, Magnus Linklater, Cal McCrystal, Martin Meredith, Alex Mitchell, Brian Moynahan, Eric Newby, Michael Nicholson, Edna OBrien, Peter Pringle, Michael Rand, Murray Sayle, William Shawcross, Colin Simpson, Godfrey Smith, Sally Soames, Antony Terry, Bryan Wharton and Francis Wyndham.
Nick Wheeler, Clive Limpkin and Roger Cooper were kind enough to let me use some of their photographs in the book, and besides my own I have taken the liberty of including a few other pictures given to me by people who sadly are no longer around to ask permission.
Above all I owe an enormous debt of gratitude to Lew Chester for his patience and dedication in bringing some order and direction to my life, and to Lyn Owen for her tireless assistance in the preparation of the script.
To Tony Colwell, my editor at Cape, go my special thanks for making it all possible.
Don McCullin
Somerset
June 1990
They are like candles that no-one will put out, or stains that cannot be removed.
M. Haworth-Booth on McCullins photographs
No se puede mirar. (One cannot look at this.)
Yo lo vi. (I saw it.)
Goya
To make you hear, to make you feel, to make you see.
Conrad
P ART O NE
Becoming Streetwise
T HE B ATTLEGROUND
T WO BROTHERS MET on a desert battleground on a February day in 1970. The elder was myself, covering my twentieth battle campaign as a photo-journalist; the younger, engaged in skirmishing with horse- and camel-mounted tribesmen of that remote African country, was my little brother Michael, then Sergeant, now Adjutant McCullin of the French Foreign Legion. For the short hour in which I could touch down in this arid spot, we met only to disagree.