Maureen Tan - Too Close To Home

I was sixteen. Old enough that I no longer believed in story-book monsters. Young enough that, despite plenty of evidence to the contrary, I didnt quite believe in human monsters.

Dr. Porter changed that.

Im getting tired of waiting, he called from the vicinity of the living room. Come take your punishment like a good little wife.

His coaxing, reasonable voice was accompanied by the rhythmic slapping of a leather strap against an open hand. The sound echoed off the glossy, hard surfaces of the expensive suburban home and carried clearly into the kitchen at the back of the house.

Obviously, youve forgotten who your master is, he continued. You must be reminded.

From where I stood, I couldnt see Dr. Porter. Or the strap. But Id seen the welts and bruises left by the strap. Left by Dr. Porter on his wifes flesh. So maybe that was why it was all too easy to imagine what he looked like. No matter that I knew better, that Aunt Lucy and Gran had more than once reminded me that appearance was a poor predictor of behavior, I couldnt help but picture bulging muscles and twisted, lunatic features.

Nothing about his voice convinced me otherwise. And because my upbringing was Baptist and biblical, I imagined it was the same voice the serpent had used in the Garden of Eden. Low, vaguely seductive and absolutely evil.

It will only be worse if I have to come get you, Missy.

My name was Brooke. Not Missy. Missy Porter was gone. And monster or not, devil or not, I stood my ground and waited for her husband. Because that was what Id promised Missy I would do.

Just moments earlier, when the lock had turned in the front door, shed been standing beside me in the kitchen. Id watched as the blood drained from her face and she began trembling.

Missy was terrified. With good reason. Earlier that day, her husband had come home unexpectedly and found her packing. Missys punishment began before hed left the house and hed promised to continue it when he returned. In the meantime, hed taken their twin sons away with him, confident that she would never run away without her children.

When wed first arrived, she hadnt answered the door. Fearing that Dr. Porters escalating abuse had turned homicidal, Gran and I crept around the house trying to get a glimpse inside. We found an open window, shouted Missys name again, and heard a woman sobbing.

Right then, Id seen in Grans face that she wished Aunt Lucy was at her side. But Aunt Lucy was home with a broken leg andno matter that I was nothing more than a gawky adolescent girl with boring brown eyes and chopped-off brown curlsI was her replacement on this rescue. Mostly because, unlike Gran, I could see well enough to drive after dark. I was also undeniably more nimble than Gran. Reluctantly, she agreed that I should crawl inside. Without saying a word, she gave me the big leather handbag that concealed my grandfathers gun.

Id found Missy in the kitchen, sitting naked on the stool where her husband had ordered her to stay, urine puddling on the floor beneath her. Horrified and unsure of what to do or say, I ran to the kitchen door and let Gran in. Valuable time passed as she convinced Missy to leave the stool, to escape as planned. Then Gran stood guard on the front porch and I waited inside as Missy got dressed.

We were almost to the foyer when the doorbell rang three times. A warning that Dr. Porter was approaching. Grans usual tacticposing as a neighbor in search of a lost catbought us enough time to backtrack to the kitchen. And in that time, Missy lost her nerve.

As her husband bellowed for her from the front of the house, she stood, indecisive, unable to chose between the promise of escape and the certainty of abuse, between the risk of directing her own life and the terror of letting her husband control it. With her children in the balance, the decision was agony. And it was hers alone. In the endwith the sound of her husbands heavy steps echoing down the hallway toward usshe chose survival.

Run to the blue van parked down the street, I whispered just before she bolted out the kitchen door. Ill slow him down, give you time to get away.

I pulled my grandfathers gun from the handbag.