Table of Contents
CONTENTS
Designed by Julie Lyonn Lieberman
Published by Julie Lyonn Music
Cover by Loren Moss Meyer & Julie Lyonn Lieberman
Cover Photo by Will Ryan
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Copyright 2020 Julie Lyonn Music
Second Edition 2022
Printed in the United States of America
Available as an audiobook on Audible as well as in Epub format.
ISBN: 978-1-6678344-6-7
ENDORSEMENT
QUOTES
What do the words empathic, visionary, and creative have in common? Author Julie Lyonn Lieberman. The Roaring Brook Fiddler is the unique, compelling, and deeply touching story of the development of a truly creative spirit. For anyone living the creative life, or exploring sensitivities beyond the norm, this book is for you!
Sean Murphy, Hemingway Award-winning author of One Bird, One Stone and The Time of New Weather
Julie Lyonn Lieberman is a natural writer. Her book recounts her adventures as a formal classical musician who forged new paths to become a pioneering improviser and role model for a new generation to dare be creative. What she says rings true, speaks from the heart, and invites the reader into her world to hear you tell her story.
David Amram Composer, conductor, Multi-instrumentalist
Julie Lyonn Liebermans book is riveting an amazing tale. Man oh man can she tell a story and keep the readers attention glued to the page! I closed the cover with tears streaming down my face.
Pamela Spiro Wagner, author of We Mad Climb Shaky Ladders (CavanKerry Press, 2009) and Divided Minds (St. Martins Press, 2005)
This is a wonderful, courageous, sad and beautiful book, one that will leave the reader richer. It will be like a silver sword for themsomething that makes them feel that if the author could have survived all this and decided to thrive, so can they.
Anne Weiss, poet and songwriter
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
In 2006, days before my mothers death, I promised her I would finish writing her memoir, Creative Life, Even Under a Cloud by Dr. Rosilyn Wilder. I kept my promise in 2007, but no one would publish the book because its author was no longer alive to promote it. Yet, the manuscript had grabbed a hold of my soul and wouldnt let go. Gradually, over many years, it morphed into my memoir but not without a tremendous amount of support.
Many thanks to writers Sean Murphy and Tania Casselle and their group, Write to the Finish. They helped me with my first wobbly versions of the book when it was titled The Girl Who Stole Her Mothers Face. They assigned me to a writers group for the duration of the seminar. Our group, consisting of Kassie Benham, Lisa Vogel, and Marina Salazar, worked on one anothers manuscripts weekly for another four years.
Afterward, author Carrie Lahain and I worked together on one anothers manuscripts for several years. I deeply appreciate her meticulous edits.
After Id recorded with iconic pop singer Laura Nyro in 1991, I introduced Laura to photographer Will Ryan because she needed a photograph for the cover of her album, Mothers Spiritual. His visual artistry had established my professional face in the world. Happily, Laura loved how he captured her on film, as compared to the host of other photographers shed met with. While writing about her for this book, I realized that some of the stills from a photo-shoot Id done with Will for the 1980s cable TV show, The World of Photography, would be perfect for the front and back covers of this book. Thank you Will, for creating motion, depth, and music in your visual art long before Photoshop became the new standard for images.
I have enjoyed a co-creative relationship with former violin student Loren Moss Meyer for decades. She taught me how to navigate the world of design and page layout and worked on the covers for all twelve of my books. This title brings us to lucky thirteen.
I am also indebted to Sean Murphy, David Amram, Anne Weiss, and Pamela Spiro Wagner for their endorsement quotes.
DEDICATION
Albert Einstein said, The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed.
My parents exalted the great mystery that lay before them, embraced it, and courageously plunged into it. On my most agonizingly empty daysyearning for contact with my parents, yearning to understand their whereabouts, to connectwhen tears well up and that immeasurable pain of loss sets in, I give myself to the mystery mom and dads mystery and we are reunited again.
THE RIVER
When first I came to this river
I dreamed of past lives here
The rhythm of the water
Saved me from my fears
I thought life might be gentle
Like the rivers song
I still can hear its music
It soothes me all night long
When first I came to this river
I knew who I had been
I knew the life Id chosen
And all I lacked within
The river held my body
The river gave me hope
The river heard my story
The river healed my soul
I thought Id never leave the river
I thought perhaps Id die
A woman old and wrinkled
Given to the sky
But the silence of the river
Sent me on my way
For the purpose of the river
Had never been for me to stay
INTRODUCTION
I believed I could save the world through music. But midway along my lifes journey, I found myself trapped in a relentless wave of loss and disappointment. Everything Id spent decades fashioning crumbled and the forward pathway became hidden by degree. Survival instinct gradually squeezed my sensitive artists soul into a thin, numb version of the person I knew as Julie, until I no longer recognized myself.