John Saul - Midnight Voices

Midnight Voices

John Saul

*

PROLOGUE:

There's Nothing Going On.

Nobody's watching me.

Nobody's following me.

The words had become a mantra, one he repeated silently over and over again, as if by simple repetition he could make the phrases true.

The thing was, he wasn't absolutely certain they weren't true. If something really was going on, he had no idea what it might be, or why. Sure, he was a lawyer, and everybody supposedly hated lawyers, but that was really mostly a joke. Besides, all he'd ever practiced was real estate law, and even that had been limited to little more than signing off on contracts of sale, and putting together some boilerplate for leases. As far as he knew, no one involved in any of the deals he'd put his initials on had even been unhappy, let alone developed a grudge against him.

Nor had he caught anyone watching him. Or at least he hadn't caught anyone watching him any more than anybody watched anybody else. Like right now, while he was running in Central Park. He watched the other runners, and they watched him. Well, maybe it wasn't really watching--more like keeping an eye out to make sure he didn't run into anybody else, or get run over by a biker or a skater, or some other jerk who was on the wrong path. No, it was more like just a feeling he got sometimes. Not all the time.

Just some of the time.

On the sidewalk sometimes.

Mostly in the park.

Which was really stupid, now that he thought about it. That was one of the main reasons people went to the park, wasn't it? People-watching? Half the benches in it were filled with people who didn't seem to have anything better to do than feed the pigeons and the squirrels and watch other people minding their own business. One day a couple of weeks ago his son had asked him who they were.

"Who are who?" he'd countered, not sure what the boy was talking about.

"The people on the benches," the ten-year-old boy had asked. "The ones who are always watching us."

The little boy's sister, two years older than her brother, had rolled her eyes. "They're not watching us. They're just feeding the squirrels."

Up until that day, he'd never really thought about it at all. Never really noticed it. But after that, it had started to seem like maybe his son was right. It seemed like there was always someone watching whatever he and the kids were doing.

Some old man in a suit that looked out of date.

An old lady wearing a hat and gloves no matter what the time or day.

A nanny letting her eyes drift from her charges for a moment.

Just the normal people who drifted in and out of the park. Sometimes they smiled and nodded, but they seemed to smile and nod at anyone who passed, at anyone who paid them the slightest bit of attention.

They were just people, spending a few hours sitting in the park and watching life passing them by. Certainly, it was nothing personal.

But somehow they seemed to be everywhere. He'd told himself it was just that he'd become conscious of them. When he hadn't thought about them, he'd hardly noticed them at all, but now that his son had pointed them out, he was thinking about them all the time.

Within a week, it had spread beyond the park. He was starting to see them everywhere he went. When he took his son to the barbershop, or the whole family went out for dinner.

"You're imagining things," his wife had told him just a couple of days ago. "It's just an old woman eating by herself. Of course she's going to look around at whoever's in the restaurant. Don't you, when you're eating alone?"

point where no matter where he was, or what he was doing, he felt eyes watching him.

More and more, he'd get that tingly feeling, and know that someone behind him was watching him. He'd try to ignore it, try to resist the urge to look back over his shoulder, but eventually the hair on the back of his neck would stand up, and the tingling would turn into a chill, and finally he'd turn around.

And nobody would be there.

Except that of course there would always be someone there; this was the middle of Manhattan, for God's sake. There was always at least one person there, no matter where he was: on the sidewalk, in the subway, at work, in a restaurant, in the park.

Then it went beyond the feeling of being watched. A couple of days ago he'd started feeling as if he were being followed.

He'd stopped trying to resist the urge to turn around, and by today it seemed as if he was glancing over his shoulder every few seconds.

When he'd walked home from work this afternoon, he'd kept looking into store windows, but it wasn't the merchandise he was looking at; it was the reflections in the glass.

The reflections of people swirling around him, some of them almost bumping into him, some of them excusing themselves as they pushed past, some of them just looking annoyed.

But no one was following him.

He was sure of it.

Except that he wasn't sure of it at all, and when he'd gotten home he'd been so jumpy he'd had a drink, which he practically never did. A glass of wine with dinner was about all he ever allowed himself. Finally he'd decided to go for a run--it wouldn't be dark for another half hour, and maybe if he got some exercise--some real exercise--he would finally shake the paranoia that seemed to be tightening its grip every day.

"Now?" his wife had asked. "It's almost dark!"

"I'll be fine," he'd insisted.

And he was. He'd entered the park at 77th, and headed north until he came to the Bank Rock Bridge. He'd headed east across the bridge, then started jogging through the maze of paths from which the Ramble had gotten its name. The area was all but deserted, and as he started working his way south toward the Bow Bridge he finally began to feel the paranoia lift.

There was no one watching him.

No one following him.

Nothing was going on at all.

As the tension began draining out of his body, his pace slowed to an easy jog. Late afternoon was turning into dusk, and the benches were empty of people. Even the few runners that were still out were picking up their pace, anxious to get out of the park before darkness overtook them. Behind him, he could hear another runner pounding along the path, and he eased over to the right to make it easy for the other to pass. But then, just when the other runner should have flashed by him, the pounding footsteps suddenly slowed.

And the feeling of paranoia came rushing back.

What had happened?

Why had the other runner slowed?

Why hadn't he gone on past?

Something was wrong. He started to twist around to glance back over his shoulder.

Too late.

An arm snaked around his neck, an arm covered with some kind of dark material. Before he could even react to it, the arm tightened. His hands came up to pull the arm free, his fingers sinking into the sleeve that covered it, but then he felt a hand on his head.

A hand that was pushing his head to the left, deep into the crook of his assailant's elbow.

The arm tightened; the pressure increased.

He gathered his strength, raised his arm to jam his elbows back into his attacker's abdomen and--

With a quick jerk, the man behind him snapped his neck, and as his spine broke every muscle in his body went limp.

A second later his wallet and watch--along with his attacker--were gone, and his corpse lay still in the rapidly gathering darkness.

*

The girl lay in bed, determined not to go to sleep.

That was when it all happened, when she was asleep.

That was when the dreams came--the terrible dreams from which she could never awaken --so if she didn't want the dreams to come, she had to stay awake.

But it was so hard to stay awake. She'd tried everything she could think of, tried them so many times she couldn't even remember.