Nicholas Sparks - The Choice

The Choice

Nicholas Sparks

For the Lewis family: Bob, Debbie, Cody, and Cole. My family.

Acknowledgments

Okay, Ill be honest. Its sometimes hard for me to write acknowledgments for the simple reason that my life as an author has been blessed with a kind of professional stability that strikes me as somewhat rare in this day and age. When I think back to my earlier novels and reread the acknowledgments in, say, Message in a Bottle or The Rescue, I see names of people with whom I still work today. Not only have I had the same literary agent and editor since I began writing, but Ive worked with the same publicists, film agent, entertainment attorney, cover designer, and salespeople, and one producer has been responsible for three of the four film adaptations. While its wonderful, it also makes me feel like something of a broken record when it comes to thanking these people. Nonetheless, each and every one of them deserves my gratitude.

Of course, I have to begin-as always-with thanking Cat, my wife. Weve been married eighteen years and have shared quite a life together: five children, eight dogs (at various times), six different residences in three different states, three very sad funerals of various members of my family, twelve novels and another nonfiction work. Its been a whirlwind since the beginning, and I cant imagine experiencing any of it with anyone else.

My children-Miles, Ryan, Landon, Lexie, and Savannah-are growing up, slowly but surely, and while I love them dearly, Im proud of each and every one of them.

Theresa Park, my agent at Park Literary Group, is not only one of my closest friends, but a fantastic one at that. Intelligent, charming, and kind, shes one of the great blessings of my life, and Id like to thank her for everything shes done.

Jamie Raab, my editor at Grand Central Publishing, also deserves my gratitude for all she does. She puts the pencil to the manuscript in hopes of making it the best it can be, and Im fortunate to have had access to her intuitive wisdom when it comes to novels. More than that, Im lucky to call her a friend.

Denise DiNovi, the fabulous producer of A Walk to Remember, Message in a Bottle, and Nights in Rodanthe, is my best friend in Hollywood, and I look forward to those times on the film set, simply so we have a chance to visit.

David Young, the new CEO of Grand Central Publishing (well, not exactly new anymore, I suppose), has not only become a friend, but one who deserves my heartfelt thanks, if only because I have the nasty tendency to deliver my manuscripts at the very last possible moment. Sorry about that.

Both Jennifer Romanello and Edna Farley are publicists and friends, and Ive adored working with them since The Notebook was published in 1996. Thanks for all that you do!

Harvey-Jane Kowal and Sona Vogel, who do the copy-editing, always deserve my thanks for catching the little errors that inevitably crop up in my novels.

Howie Sanders and Keya Khayatian at UTA deserve my thanks for the good fortune Ive had in film adaptations. I appreciate all that both of you do.

Scott Schwimer always watches out for me, and Ive come to think of him as a friend. Thanks, Scott!

Many thanks to Marty Bowen, the producer responsible for Dear John. I cant wait to see how it all turns out.

Thanks again to Flag for another wonderful cover.

And finally, many thanks to Shannon OKeefe, Abby Koons, Sharon Krassney, David Park, Lynn Harris, and Mark Johnson.

Prologue

February 2007

Stories are as unique as the people who tell them, and the best stories are those in which the ending is a surprise. At least, thats what Travis Parker recalled his dad telling him when he was a child. Travis remembered the way his dad would sit on the bed beside him, his mouth curling into a smile as Travis begged for a story.

What kind of story do you want? his dad would ask.

The best one ever, Travis would answer.

Usually, his dad would sit quietly for a few moments, and then his eyes would light up. Hed put his arm around Travis and in a pitch-perfect voice would launch into a story that often kept Travis awake long after his dad had turned out the lights. There was always adventure and danger and excitement and journeys that took place in and around the small coastal town of Beaufort, North Carolina, the place Travis Parker grew up in and still called home. Strangely, most of them included bears. Grizzly bears, brown bears, Kodiak bears... his dad wasnt a stickler for reality when it came to a bears natural habitat. He focused on hair-raising chase scenes through the sandy lowlands, giving Travis nightmares about crazed polar bears on Shackleford Banks until he was well into middle school. Yet no matter how frightened the stories had made him, he would inevitably ask, What happened next?

To Travis, those days seemed like the innocent vestiges of another era. He was forty-three now, and as he parked his car in the parking lot of CarteretGeneralHospital, where his wife had worked for the past ten years, he thought again about the words hed always said to his father.

After stepping out of the car, he reached for the flowers hed brought. The last time he and his wife had spoken, theyd had an argument, and more than anything he wanted to take back his words and make amends. He was under no illusions that the flowers would make things better between them, but he wasnt sure what else to do. It went without saying that he felt guilty about what had happened, but married friends had assured him that guilt was the cornerstone of any good marriage. It meant that a conscience was at work, values were held in high esteem, and reasons to feel guilty were best avoided whenever possible. His friends sometimes admitted their failures in this particular area, and Travis figured that the same could be said about any couple hed ever met. He supposed his friends had said it to make him feel better, to reassure him that no one was perfect, that he shouldnt be so hard on himself. Everyone makes mistakes, theyd said, and though hed nodded as if he believed them, he knew they would never understand what he was going through. They couldnt. After all, their wives were still sleeping beside them every night; none of them had ever been separated for three months, none of them wondered whether their marriage would ever return to what it once had been.

As he crossed the parking lot, he thought about both of his daughters, his job, his wife. At the moment, none of them gave him much comfort. He felt as though he were failing in practically every area of his life. Lately, happiness seemed as distant and unattainable to him as space travel. He hadnt always felt this way. There had been a long period of time during which he remembered being very happy. But things change. People change. Change was one of the inevitable laws of nature, exacting its toll on peoples lives. Mistakes are made, regrets form, and all that was left were repercussions that made something as simple as rising from the bed seem almost laborious.

Shaking his head, he approached the door of the hospital, picturing himself as the child he had been, listening to his fathers stories. His own life had been the best story ever, he mused, the kind of story that should have ended on a happy note. As he reached for the door, he felt the familiar rush of memory and regret.

Only later, after he let the memories overtake him once again, would he allow himself to wonder what would happen next.

Part One

One

May 1996

Tell me again why I agreed to help you with this. Matt, red-faced and grunting, continued to push the spa toward the recently cut square at the far edge of the deck. His feet slipped, and he could feel sweat pouring from his forehead into the corners of his eyes, making them sting. It was hot, way too hot for early May. Too damn hot for this, thats for sure. Even Traviss dog, Moby, was hiding in the shade and panting, his tongue hanging out.