Donal Ryan - The Spinning Heart

My father still lives back the road past the weir in the cottage I was reared in. I go there every day to see is he dead and every day he lets me down. He hasnt yet missed a day of letting me down.

In the aftermath of Irelands financial collapse, dangerous tensions surface in an Irish town. As violence flares, the characters face a battle between public persona and inner desires. Through a chorus of unique voices, each struggling to tell their own kind of truth, a single authentic tale unfolds.

The Spinning Heart speaks for contemporary Ireland like no other novel. Wry, vulnerable, all too human, it captures the language and spirit of rural Ireland and with uncanny perception articulates the words and thoughts of a generation. Technically daring and evocative of Patrick McCabe and J.M. Synge, this novel of small-town life is witty, dark and sweetly poignant.

Donal Ryans brilliantly realized debut announces a stunning new voice in literary fiction.

MY FATHER STILL lives back the road past the weir in the cottage I was reared in. I go there every day to see is he dead and every day he lets me down. He hasnt yet missed a day of letting me down. He smiles at me; that terrible smile. He knows Im coming to check is he dead. He knows I know he knows. He laughs his crooked laugh. I ask is he okay for everything and he only laughs. We look at each other for a while and when I can no longer stand the stench off of him, I go away. Good luck, I say, Ill see you tomorrow. You will, he says back. I know I will.

Theres a red metal heart in the centre of the low front gate, skewered on a rotating hinge. Its flaking now; the red is nearly gone. It needs to be scraped and sanded and painted and oiled. It still spins in the wind, though. I can hear it creak, creak, creak as I walk away. A flaking, creaking, spinning heart.

When he dies, Ill get the cottage and the two acres thats left. He drank out Granddads farm years ago. After I have him buried, Ill burn the cottage down and piss on the embers and Ill sell the two acres for as much as I can get. Every day he lives lowers the price Ill get. He knows that too; he stays alive to spite me. His heart is caked with muck and his lungs are shrivelled and black, but still he manages to draw in air and wheeze and cough and spit it back out. I was left go from my job two months ago and it was the best medicine he could have got. It gave him an extra six months, Id say. If he ever finds out how Pokey Burke shafted me, hell surely make a full recovery. Pokey could apply to be beatified then, having had a miracle ascribed to him.

What reason would I have ever had not to trust Pokey Burke? He was young when I started working for him three years younger than me but the whole parish had worked for his auld fella and no one ever had a bad word to say much beyond the usual sniping. Pokey Burke was called after the Pope: Sen Pl, his parents christened him. But his brother Eamonn was not yet two years old when his parents brought the new baby home and he decided the new baby was Pokey and everybody agreed away with him and little Sen Pl was stuck with Pokey for a lifetime. And beyond, if he leaves anyone behind that will remember him or talk about him when hes gone.

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN something was up the day last year when Mickey Briars came in asking about his pension. Did ye boys know were all meant to be in a proper pension? We didnt Mickey. Ya, with some crowd called SIFF. A proper pension like, not just the state one. Tis extra. Mickeys left hand was outstretched. It held the invisible weight of what he should have been given but wasnt. He tapped out his list of ungiven things, a bony finger slapping on sundried, limeburnt flesh. There were tears in his yellow eyes. He was after being shafted. Robbed. And not even by a man, but by a little prick. Thats what he couldnt get over.

He went over and started to beat the prefab door until Pokey opened it a crack and threw an envelope at him and slammed the door again, just as Mickey put his head down and went to ram him like an old billy goat. Mickeys hard old skull splintered that door and it very nearly gave way. Pokey must have shat himself inside. I want my fuckin pension you little prick, Mickey roared and roared. I want my fuckin pension and the rest of my stamps. Come out you bollocks till I kill you. For a finish he went on a rampage around the place, turning over barrows and pulling formwork apart and when he picked up a shovel and started swinging, we all ran for cover. Except poor innocent Timmy Hanrahan: he only stood grinning back to his two ears like the gom that he is.

Auld Mickey Briars lamped Timmy Hanrahan twice across both sides of his innocent young head before we subdued him. We locked Mickey into the back of Seanie Shapers Hiace until he became more philosophical for himself. Then we left him out and we all dragged crying, bleeding Timmy up the road to Cisss and fed him pints for the evening. Mickey Briars softened his Jameson with tears and told Timmy he was sorry, he was always fond of him, he was a grand boy so he was, it was only that he thought he was laughing at him. I wouldnt laugh at you, Mickey, Timmy said. I know you wouldnt son. I know you wouldnt.

Pokey had shouted after us to put the first round of drink on his slate. There wasnt a man of us put his hand in his pocket all evening. Poor Timmy puked his guts up early on in the session and we slagged him good-naturedly of course and he laughed through his snots and his tears and the blood on his head caked up grand and came off in one thin scab before we sent him walking home for himself with a bag of chips and three battered sausages and a dose of concussion that could have easily killed him.

To this day theres a quare auld draw on one of his eyeballs, as if its not able to keep time with its comrade. But it makes no odds to Tim; if theres a mirror in that house he hardly pays it any heed. And if hes thicker than he was before, whos to say? Whos to care? You dont need brains to shovel shit and carry blocks and take orders from rat-faced little men wholl use you all day and laugh at you all night and never pay in your stamps.

Thats the worst of the whole thing. We all went in to draw our stamps and they only laughed at us. Stamps? What stamps? There wasnt a stamp paid in for any of us, nor a screed to the Revenue, either. I showed the little blonde girl at the hatch my last payslip. You could clearly see what was taken out: PRSI, PAYE, Income levy, pension. She held it in front of her with her nose wrinkled up like I was after wiping my armpit with it. Well? I said. Well what? Whats the story? Theres no story sir. I wasnt on the computer as an employee of Pokey Burke or anyone else. Did you never look for a P60 from your employer? A what, now? Youre some fool, she said with her eyes. I know I am, my red cheeks said back. I think she started to feel sorry for me then. But when she looked at the line of goms behind me Seanie Shaper, innocent Timmy, fat Rory Slattery and the rest of the boys, all clutching their dirty payslips she started to feel more sorry for herself.

TRIONA LETS ON she doesnt blame me for being taken for a fool. Sure why would you have ever checked, love? It wasnt just you. He fooled everyone. My lovely, lovely Triona, she fairly let herself down when she married me. She could have gone with any of them smart boys that got the real money out of the boom: the architects, solicitors, auctioneers. They were all after her. She went for me bald-headed though, as if to spite them. She put her hand in mine one night inside in town after the disco and that was that; she never let go of me. She saw more in me than I knew was there. She made me, so she did. She even softened my father. How did you pull her, he wanted to know. She wont stay with you. Shes too good for you. Youre her bit of rough, he said. All women goes through this auld phase. Ya, I thought, like my mother, except her auld phase didnt end until she died, twisted and knotted up and spent, exhausted, pure solid burnt out from him.