Glimpses of Something Vast Carolyn J. Sweers Copyright 2018 by Carolyn J. Sweers. Paperback:978-1-948556-08-8 eBook:978-1-948556-09-5 All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, without the prior written permission of the publisher, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical reviews and certain other noncommercial uses permitted by copyright law. Ordering Information: For orders and inquiries, please contact: 1-888-375-9818 www.toplinkpublishing.com Printed in the United States of America
Beauty it was ours to see in all its brightness in those days when we beheld with our eyes that blessed vision then were we all initiated into that mystery which is rightly accounted blessed beyond all others;.
There let it rest then, Our tribute to a memory That has stirred us to linger awhile On those former joys For which we long. From Platos dialogue: Phaedrus (translated by R. Hackworth)
In which the author attempts to give an account of why silence is important. My first experiences of mystic silence came when I was a young child, growing up on an Iowa farm. I cant say exactly how or precisely when they began. What I remember was being drawn into an experience for which I had no words except the ones about God which I heard in church.
Even at the young age I was when these began, I knew, in the deepest way possible, that I was in touch with the REAL! These experiences sometimes lasted for several days but never longer. And when they had receded I was left longing for their return and yet helpless to make that happen. But from time to time, the experience would find me. Sometimes in church, sometimes in quiet moments. Sometimes outside in the vastness of a landscape, I could sense it. These experiences have shaped my life.
In this little book I am trying to put into words what eludes words: the Stillness in which one gets a glimpse of something vast or, to put it another way, the glimpse that ushers us into the realm of reverence and wonder. You will soon know, as you read these words, whether you yourself are drawn toward the silence that brings insight about who we are, where we are, what we need to do. If at any point in your reading, you remember a moment of wonder, these words will have done their work. Think of time spent with this book as a kind of retreat. Pick it up when you feel a slight tug toward silence; toward a longing for a glimpse of something vast. Remember It is hard Not to be still When the Wonder comes!
The purpose of this book is to evoke the readers inner mystic.
Things are all the time signaling to us . But we, so immune to all advances other than the ones we plan, walk on, our intentions a protective barrier. What if, as we walked down the street, we walked knowing that down that street was a secret waiting to be disclosed? What if we walked in expectation that some enchantment awaited us? We would walk intently with that studied nonchalance of one who stalks elusive prey. We know that if we try too hard, our gaze might frighten it away and so we walk, pretending not to notice, pretending not to care but scanning, scanning, always scanning. And then, sometimes, enchantment comes: In the sound of moving water. The shadow pattern of branches moving in a summer breeze.
A hand stirring soup. Everything a marvel. Everything a wonder. A challenge to the reader . See if you can find such a moment, as those just described, in your own experience. See of you can remember moments of stillness; moments of wonder.
Here are some phrases that may help you to remember: When I was very young.... I shall never forget that particular afternoon... The strong scent came pouring from the open door... At first, the darkness frightened me... Such a dream I had that night... Even now, I can see it clearly....
All my words were as if they had been snatched away... I had passed that way many times before but had never noticed until I moved through once familiar places as if I were a stranger. I awoke with a start All at once I knew. I felt as if something long slumbering had begun to awake. At dusk (or dawn), I almost felt it... What words can sound these mystic moments? What words can draw us to the threshold? What words are still tied, as with a birth cord, To the Silence out of which They come? How good we get to be with words.
The words we think. The words we say. The words we hear. The words we read. The world is words, if were not careful.
A prayer of sorts: Help us find in each moment The still point of sweet repose.
A prayer of sorts: Help us find in each moment The still point of sweet repose.
Silence is more than the absence of words. Silence is the open space where listening is. Can you hear what is not said? There is Silence at the roots of speech: the Silence out of which true speaking comes. There is a silence at the heart of the world. The trees seem to remember. Sometimes poets have managed to catch silence in their nets of wordswords that strike our hearts like some awakening gong.
Out of the ageless Silence The womb of words and work, The rising tide of Silence Breaks against The shore of words. Silence descendsa benediction and a gift. What a gift to recognize that we can live in the place to which these words invite.
Silence is valued and recommended in many religions, especially in their mystical forms. Why? Bhagavad-Gita , a Hindu text makes this point: The voice of truth can be heard only in silence. The Tao Te Ching of ancient China asks: Have you the patience to wait until the mud settles and the water is clear? (Stephen Mitchell translation.) Buddha taught a way to meditate that would quiet the mind and bring insight.
A Psalmist said: Be stilland know. Some of the faces silence wears. The silence of great moments. that help us realize that our half-conscious longings have a kind of cosmic parentage: the hush when music or spoken words evoke something deep within us. There is the numb silence of unexpected grief. Too soon; too much.
There is the silence of great poetry, the words that are barely words sounds that seem minted out of silence. Images arising like a way that bids us walk its winding ways so innocent, so ancient, so wondrous, and so new. There is the silence that enters with the Eucharistic meal. There is the silence of prayer. The words that stop words. The mighty words in whose folds all other words are caught and held.
Prayer often begins in words but as it deepens words grow fewer.
Silence and Insight: What happens when one is still? Wills to be still? Practices being still? Try itand see. In silence, we make ourselves a receptive vessel. To be silent is to let go. To let go, at first, of the things of the world that crowd in upon us. In the seeming hollow places we can hear the sound of hearts, the cries and whispers of countless others.
We can hear in an ancient tale, or see mirrored in a painting, a message that awakes. We journey toward this meeting but the road is not well marked. The sign posts are ancient and obscure. The path often disappears in tangled groves of long neglect. But sometimes at expectations lowest ebb, the unexpected happens. The path reappears.
And our feet Know what to do.
A sense of fatigue. Too many demands; too many interactions. A need to stop and re-collect ourselves; to try to find, again, a wholeness that restores. Silence restores. Every time we sleep, we verify this truth.