Anaiah Dupont-Spencer - Things Only Get Worse to Get Better

Contentment a state of happiness and satisfaction.

Its okay to feel shitty in fact, its perfectly normal. There are plenty of ways to cheer yourself up chocolate, movies and friends. However when youre experiencing depression these things are utterly useless. Depression makes you feel like theres no escape, theres no way out and that no one can help. But there is always a solution to any problem. You cant cure depression instantly, and like anything it is a process. You cant pray depression away like many religious folks tell you to. God will make it better or Youre not really depressed. Words like these should be shut out and ignored. A holy saviour may give some hope but for others its a reminder of rejection for a being they cannot see and havent endured. When people try to tell you what you are feeling is not real, it creates self-hate and confusion as to why you feel the way you do. You blame yourself for these feelings when the actual culprit is only a clinical diagnosis away.

Talking, some say is the best start. Speaking about how you feel, and opening up can be very difficult but its the beginning of your journey. You can share how you feel inside, and finally not bottle up your feelings. Talking is one step away from depression and one step towards satisfaction. Phone helplines and talking to general physicians can make you feel patronised, less masculine if youre male and even weak. Medication can create fear of losing yourself completely, and can stir up worry about what other people may think of you. They must be mad, They belong in an institution, when in reality fuck what they all think. People project negativity on those who they envy or feel threatened by. They do this in order to validate themselves and give themselves a feeling of non-existent superiority. People hurt others to repair themselves. The world we live in is selfish.

Put yourself first. Every breath you take is worth it. You are worth it. Everything you do is worth it. Be the best version of yourself and dont you dare let depression bring you down. Prove it wrong; show it you are no longer under its jurisdiction. Break down all the barriers it created for you. Ignore all the names it called you. Kick over the feelings of isolation and rejection it subjected you to. Talk to someone. Go on medication. Engage in counselling. Do anything you must do to break away from this abusive relationship.

Thats what depression is; an unhealthy, vicious domestic abuse type of ownership. The emotional abuse you experience is not going to be dominant in your life forever. Walk away and dont look back. Leave it behind, you are worth more. You are unique. Tell this to yourself every morning. Im funny. Im smart. Im gorgeous/handsome. I am a bad ass human-fucking-being. You tell depression to go find another bitch because you are moving on to something so much better. You are going to begin dating contentment.