Awada - Monsters Inside Me

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Life is- a gift placed in our hands as we make our way into this world. Asany other gift we receive, it depends on us as to how best it is utilized orjust whiled away through mere existence. Why is it that we ourselves arewitness to lives being lived in front of us in all its majesticform and meanwhile some lives just being pushed around ,trying to still find its rightmeaning? This question kept knocking into horizons of my mind, beyond mycomfort level,pushing mehumanexistencetofindtheirSometimes it may be a varied number of circumstances or situations whichpushes us to question our relevance in the world. The world we live in ischanging at a pace beyond anyones grasp most of the times! Each one ofus is trying their level best to keep up in best method possible, few stayafloat and for some the process becomes very challenging.
tofindmeanswhich channelize anywaytomaximumpotentialpossible.

Living a life which may give you a vitalizing thrill from within iswhere we all want to be. Accomplishing anything great all the time maynot be our individual intention, yet to derive satisfaction in your career,relationships, finances and other facets of our life becomes the benchmark. There has to be a success formula which we could all follow, but,there exists none as each life has a different story. Its only when Iembarked on a journey beyond the comfort zone of living my life as aprofessional and a mother of two, did it strike me that somewhere Ineeded to make a difference in lives as I keep making in my own , andthose that are connected to me in different spheres. Drawing examplesfrom my own life and those around me, it became slowly yet painfullyevident that the power to live the way you want and the changes youwant to bring about, has always been in our hands. Its just that we werenot aware and it consciously doesnt dawn into our minds, till it ispointed out by another person in the right perspective.

The awareness that as individuals in this Earth, we are notmerely here to exist as independent units but to make a difference inothers lives too, to reduce the pain and hardships many face in life.Being in the know that we need to change some facets of our lives is thebeginning. Change has often been understood as a process which bydefinition is difficult in our minds, we find difficult to inculcate it, andfind comfortably numb in practicing what has been happening always,but it remains to be understood that change sometimes is also for thebest!!!Tobringaboutanythingdifferentthanwhatispresentlyhappening, needs pushing our own selves beyond our comfort zones. Tomovefrommediocretoinspiringisjourneywhichisdifficultyetachievable by each one of us. At this juncture it does not matter whereyou are but it definitely matters where you want to reach. It is then thatthe conviction in your own self needs to rise beyond what you havebelieved till now.

As these words of the book reach you, you will realize there isunlimited power within you, waiting to be unleashed, and may waneaway if never touched upon in the right way. At this stage the biggestmistake you could do is to believe that it is beyond your reach, andsuccumb to the feeling of fear within you which tends to overpower eachof us when we tend to start a journey within. Just beat it down with yourfaith and go beyond. I learnt to hold my thoughts together as theyformed the basis of what I would believe, and I decided that I could and Idid. If I could, so can you as there lays vast potential around to scale anycliff.

Let us emerge above the daily grind and let me take you on ajourney long postponed to spread the message of kindness, faith inhumanity beyond me and mine, show hope to selves and others toaccomplish what we always only dreamt of in our lives. If you wait foreverfor things to happen to you, for confirming every single step you take isright then maybe you may never get to doing anything at all. Thereare some risks of faith you have to dig in and follow your intuition with awell intended intention and you will be there. Make the choices; take thechances and the right changes will occur as time goes. Just because the pastdidnt turn out like you wanted it to, absolutely does not imply that yourfuture cannot be better than you ever imagined. Take things in your handand the will to follow it and success is bound to happen.
Sometimes you have to just believe that a decision you make can changethe entire course of your life, the change can come to you in strangest ofplaces or from most unexpected of people, yet be ready to see beyond the scene. It may be a single thing and you may just be flooded withseries of changes that happen as you go. Be willing to go with the flowwhen it does come to you. Have the conviction that what you decide todaywill transform your destiny. Coincidences are only a way of making it easierin your life. As I stand today, I am licensed NLP coaching trainer, awonderful set of teaching and techniques transforming lives with thepower invested in our own selves , I take the view that you will find yourcalling and happiness if you so desire so .The universe stands to aid youin this journey. Take the plunge, take the responsibility for it and you shallfind yourself at peace beyond you can ever imagine. I am grateful to myfamily and friends for standing by me in all my endeavors and supportingin all their capacity.

All of us at some point of our lives have questioned our worth.There may have been failures, rebukes may have come our way or attimes bouts ofdepression may have resulted inus questioning ourworth. The existence of the cosmic structure and the reason for onesexistence has been a highly debated topic with no clear winners. Eachoneofushaveexperienced theeffectotherhumanbeingsinourimmediate proximity have had in shaping our lives. The development ofour brain as we grow up in life and age is something which is intriguingto everyone who has given it some thought! The brain matures every daygetting enriched with facts, knowledge, multiple thought processes and ways to understandlife as it comes. This is always existent and happenstill the second we depart from this world!

Well, now virtual identity takes care of one beyond the realworld of people. Even the identity we hold as a person has always had twosides to it,like that of a coin!! One side being the unique self as anindividual, and the otherself in relation to others in the society or the socialidentity.Eventually bothlead to meet as one,to have the whole coin.

What is the meaning of I am? Who am I? Am I just a name, an identityamongst millions of lives roaming around me on this world every day? AmI a mere number or do I have any unique identity in this world infested byhumans? Our past experiences mould us into what we are today, in factwhile writing this I am discovering a new identity of myself that I didntknow I have, and future interplay of actions, environment, situation and people around me will shape me to be what I will be. Its a curiousinterplay of various factors that define who I am. As I write this book,I realised how the monster Teratoma seated deeply within me has beeneating away into my tissues and cells, possessing the ability of growinghuman cells without ever becoming a human embryo. The most horrifyingand alarming information about this tumor Teratoma is that, it has theability to grow hair and teeth that are verysimilar to real