Jill Shalvis - At Last

The fifth book in the Lucky Harbor series, 2012

Everythings better with chocolate.

Im not lost, Amy Michaels said to the squirrel watching her from his perch on a tree branch. Really, Im not.

But she so was. And actually, it was a way of life. Not that Mr. Squirrel seemed to care. I dont suppose you know which way? she asked him. I happen to be looking for hope.

His nose twitched, then he turned tail and vanished in the thick woods.

Well, thats what she got for asking a guy for directions. Or asking a guy for anything for that matter She stood there another moment, with the high-altitude sun beating down on her head, a map in one hand and her Grandma Roses journal in the other. The forest around her was a profusion of every hue of green and thick with tree moss and climbing plants. Even the ground was alive with growth and running creeks that she constantly had to leap over while birds and squirrels chattered at her. A city girl at heart, Amy was used to concrete, lights, and people flipping other people off. This noisy silence and lack of civilization was like being on another planet, but she kept going.

The old Amy wouldnt have. Shed have gone home by now. But the old Amy had made a lifelong habit out of running instead of taking a stand. She was done with that. It was the reason she was here in the wilds instead of on her couch. There was another reason, too, one she had a hard time putting into words. Nearly five decades ago now, her grandma had spent a summer in Lucky Harbor, the small Washington coastal town Amy could catch glimpses of from some of the switchbacks on the trail. Roses summer adventure had been Amys bedtime stories growing up, the only bright spot in an otherwise shitty childhood.

Now Amy was grown up-relatively speaking-and looking for what her grandma had claimed to find all those years ago-hope, peace, heart. It seemed silly and elusive, but the truth was sitting in her gut-Amy wanted those things, needed them so desperately it hurt.

It was harder than she expected. Shed been up since before dawn, had put in a ten-hour shift on her feet at the diner, and was now on a mountain trail. Still on her feet.

Unsure she was even going in the right direction, she flipped open her grandmas journal, which was really more of a spiral notepad, small enough that it fit in the palm of her hand. Amy had it practically memorized, but it was always a comfort to see the messy scrawl.

Its been a rough week. The roughest of the summer so far. A woman in town gave us directions for a day hike, promising itd be fun. We started at the North District Ranger Station, turned right at Eagle Rock, left at Squaw Flats. And with the constant roar of the ocean as our northward guide, headed straight to the most gorgeous meadow Ive ever seen, lined on the east side by thirty-foot-high prehistoric rocks pointing to the sky. The farthest one was the tallest, proudly planted into the ground, probably sitting there since the Ice Age.

We sat, our backs to the rock, taking it all in. I spent some time drawing the meadow, and when I was done, the late afternoon sun hit the rock perfectly, lighting it up like a diamond from heaven, both blinding and inspiring. We carved our initials into the bottom of our diamond and stayed the night beneath a black velvety sky

And by morning, I realized I had something Id been sorely missing-hope for the future.

Amy could hear the words in her grandmas soft, trembling voice, though of course she would have been much younger when shed actually written the journal. Grandpa Scott had died when Amy was five, so she couldnt remember much about him other than a stern face, and that hed waggled his finger a lot. It was hard to picture the stoic man of her memories taking a whimsical journey to a diamond rock and finding hope, but what did she know?

She hiked for what felt like forever on the steep mountain trail, which sure had looked a whole lot flatter and straighter on the map. Neither the map nor Roses journal had given any indication that Amy had been going straight up until her nose bled. Or that the single-track trail was pitted with obstacles like rocks, fast-running creeks, low-hanging growth, and in two cases, downed trees that were bigger than her entire apartment. But Amy had determination on her side. Hell, shed been born determined. Sure, shed taken a few detours through Down-On-Her-Luck and then past Bad-Decisionsville, but she was on the right path now.

She just needed that hope. And peace would be good, too. She didnt give much of a shit about heart. Heart had never really worked out for her. Heart could suck it, but she wanted that hope. So she kept moving, amongst skyscraper-high rock formations and trees that she couldnt even see the tops of, feeling small and insignificant.

And awed.

Shed roughed it before; but in the past, this had meant something entirely different, such as giving up meals on her extra lean weeks, not trudging through the damp, overgrown forest laden with bugs, spiders, and possibly killer birds. At least they sounded killer to Amy, what with all the manic hooting and carrying on.

When she needed a break, she opened her backpack and went directly to the emergency brownie shed pilfered from work earlier. She sat on a large rock and sighed in pleasure at getting off her feet. At the first bite of chocolately goodness, she moaned again, instantly relaxing.

See, she told herself, looking around at the overabundant nature, this wasnt so bad. She could totally do this. Hell, maybe shed even sleep out here, like her grandparents had, beneath the velvet sky-

Then a bee dive-bombed her with the precision of a kamikaze pilot, and Amy screeched, flinging herself off the rock. Dammit. Dusting herself off, she stood and eyed the fallen brownie, lying forlorn in the dirt. She gave herself a moment to mourn the loss before taking in her surroundings with wariness.

There were no more bees, but now she had a bigger problem. It suddenly occurred to her that itd been a while since shed caught sight of the rugged coastline, with its stone arches and rocky sea stacks. Nor could she hear the roar of the crashing waves from below as her northward guide.

That couldnt be good.

She consulted her map and her penciled route. Not that that helped. Thered been quite a few forks on the trail, not all of them clearly marked. She turned to her grandmas journal again. As directed, shed started at the North District Ranger Station, gone right at Eagle Rock, left at Squaw Flats but no ocean sounds. No meadow. No diamond rock.

And no hope.

Amy looked at her watch-six thirty. Was it getting darker already? Hard to tell. She figured she had another hour and a half before nightfall, but deep down, she knew that wasnt enough time. The meadow wasnt going to magically appear, at least not today. Turning in a slow circle to get her bearings, she heard an odd rustling. A human sort of rustling. Amy went utterly still except for the hair on the back of her neck, which stood straight up. Hello?

The rustling had stopped, but there, she caught a quick flash of something in the bush.

A face? Shed have sworn so. Hello? she called out. Whos there?

No one answered. Amy slid her backpack around to her front and reached in for her pocket knife.

Once a city rat, always a city rat.

Another slight rustle, and a glimpse of something blue-a sweatshirt maybe. Hey, she yelled, louder than she meant to but she