Kathleen Peacock - Thornhill

SOME ROOMS LOOKED BETTER IN THE DARK. THIS WAS definitely one of them.

Neon light slipped around the curtains, muted flashes of red as the vacancy sign blinked on and off. I shifted my weight and the mattress protested with a chorus of groans and squeaks.

Are you okay? Kyles voice was still rough around the edges as he tightened his arm around me. Was it okay? He had done this before; I hadnt.

I pressed my lips to his bare shoulder. It was perfect.

The muffled sounds of a fistfight drifted in from the parking lot, and Kyle made a skeptical noise in the back of his throat.

Okay, I admitted, a sleepy smile tugging at the corners of my mouth, so its not the most romantic place to deflower a girl.

Deflower?

My cheeks flushed. I shrugged and my skin brushed his, sending a wave of sparks racing down my spine. Thats what Tess calls it. Anytime she tries to give me a serious sex talk, she turns into the mom from a sixties sitcom.

Bet none of her talks covered werewolves. A somber note crept into his voice, one that hinted at the reasons he had left.

No, I said, struggling to keep my voice light, but she did say all teenage boys were ravenous beasts. Plus, her last boyfriend was a mass murderer. Compared to that . . . I shivered and cursed myself. I didnt want to ruin what we had just done with thoughts of Ben and everything that had happened in Hemlock.

Silence filled the spaces where our bodies didnt quite meet.

You shouldnt have come after me, he said, finally.

I had to. I couldnt remember finding him or how we had gotten here or who had kissed who first, but I knew there had never been a choice. We were inevitable. You know I did.

I know.

You cant just run away.

More silence.

Kyle?

Yeah?

Its still kind of perfect.

He pushed the hair back from my face and traced the line of my cheek with the pad of his thumb. I love you, Mackenzie.

I opened my mouth to tell him that I loved him, too, but a particularly loud thud from the parking lot made me jump. Okay, the setting could be a lot more romantic, I said, looking over my shoulder. The back of your car would at least be quiet.

I turned to kiss him, but he wasnt there.

Kyle? My throat was sandpaper dry, my voice thick with sleep. Soft snores came from across the room, and Jasons shapea tangle of blankets and skinshifted in the dark. Outside, the fight in the parking lot was going strong.

I skimmed my fingers over the other side of my bed. The sheets were cold. Reality sank in: I hadnt found Kyle; he had never been here; we had never done . . . that.

It had all been a dream.

For a moment, it was like losing him all over again, and I put a hand over my mouth to smother the small, strangled sound that lodged in my throat and fought to get free. I wouldnt cry. I couldnt cry.

Jason was sleeping seven feet away. If he woke, hed put his arms around me and whisper that everything was going to be all right.

Part of me wanted the comfort and the liewanted it badlybut it wouldnt be fair. Not to Kyle, who had walked away from everything to keep us safe. And not to Jason, who thought he loved me and who belonged to my best friend even in her death.

Burying the desire for comfort, I stood and made my way to the bathroom, ignoring the way the carpet crunched under my feet. The North Star Motor Inncash up front and no questions askedwas a step above a total dive, but it wasnt a very big step.

I should know.

Home isnt a permanent addressnot for people like us. My fathers words drifted back to me as I flicked on the bathroom light. Hank had seen motels as the way stations between cons and as dumping grounds for things he no longer wanted. Things like me.

I ran the water in the sink and scooped up a drink in my palm. It tasted of chlorine and brine and did nothing to dislodge the lump in my throat.

Rat-tat-tap.

Three glistening drops of red hit the porcelain. They mixed with the water, tingeing it pink.

My heart jackhammered as I glanced up.

Amymy best friend and one of Bens victimsstared at me from the other side of the bathroom mirror.

I scrambled away so quickly that I tripped and had to grab the towel rack to keep from falling.

Easy, tiger. Amy leaned forward. Her ink-black hair fell around her like a curtain and her eyes were shadows that shifted and swirled like smoke.

I hadnt seen her in daysnot since the night Jason and I had left Hemlock. Foolishly, Id begun to think maybe I had left her behind.

Just because you didnt see me didnt mean I wasnt here, she said, reading my mind in the unsettling way she sometimes did. Dont you remember what I told you?

I shook my head. Amy had said a lot of thingsboth before and after death.

She pressed her fingertips to the glass, her manicured nails making the same rat-tat-tap sound the blood had made when it hit the sink. With each tap, fault lines spread across the mirror. Somethings coming, Mac. She sounded oddly sad. Almost apologetic. Its not over.

A large crack split her face in two and the mirror exploded outward.

I wokereally wokegasping. Soft yellow light filled the motel room, and I was lying, fully clothed, on top of my bed.

I struggled to shake away the fog of sleep.

Jason and I had come back to regroup. I remembered lying downjust for a secondand . . . nothing. I must have passed out.

A ball of lead settled in my stomach as I realized I was alone.

I checked the bathroomemptyand then pulled my phone from my pocket. Ten p.m. Id been asleep for over three hours. Pacing, I dialed Jasons number. The call went straight to voice mail.

Where are you? I woke up and

My foot hit something smooth and solid. I glanced at the floor and then crouched down.

GoddamnitJason. I breathed the words in a rush as I straightened, one hand still pressing the phone to my ear, the other holding a half-empty bottle of Jack Daniels.

THERE WERE FIVE BARS WITHIN STUMBLING DISTANCE OF the motel, but in the end, I found Jason right back where I had started.

More or less.

We were in room eleven. He had made it as far as number seven before slumping to the pavement, bloody and battered, beer and whiskey riding his breath. Hed forgotten the room number. And his key.

That had been thirty minutes ago.

Now he leaned against the bathroom door frame, shirtless, blond hair still dripping from a dunk in the sink. Two cuts crossed his chestjust over his heartlike the X on a pirates map. There was a third gash on his upper arm. A broken bottle, he had promised. All three. Not claw marks.

I thought he needed stitches, but he had refused to go to the hospital.

He reached past me and set a bloodstained washcloth on the edge of the sink. You cant give me the silent treatment indefinitely. The slur had left his words, but his voice was slow and cautious.

I stared at his tattoo in the mirrorthe black dagger on his neck that marked him as an initiate in the largest anti-werewolf group in the countrybefore dragging my eyes upward.

Jasons gaze was brilliant green and bloodshot.

Are you hurt anywhere else? The wordsthe first I had spoken since he told me where he had gonesliced my throat like razor blades.

No.

I glanced at the floor where his shirt lay in a crumpled heap. Torn and stained red, it was beyond saving. The cuts were bad, but they werent that bad. Id had enough practice patching people upmy father and, more recently, Jasonto know that much.