Vivian Arend - Rising, Freestyle

Beta: Climbing slang that means to gather information about a route.

Go on, you can do it.

Melanie remained immobile, gaze glued to where her fingers wrapped around the holds on the climbing wall. The dark Adonis holding her safety rope had been nothing but positive and upbeat with her since shed signed up for the private climbing lessons. Even without looking she could picture him, his wide smile bright against his tanned skin. Dark hair slightly messed, chocolate-brown eyes that made her think all kinds of naughty things.

The next hold in the route is that blue one, off to the right. Match your feet, transfer your weight and youll be there in no time.

As she moved to follow his instructions, she wondered for the millionth time if he was staring at her butt simply to help her find the best route, or if he was staring at her butt for more nefarious reasons.

She could only dream it was the second.

Derrick James was exactly the kind of guy she admired. Tall, dark and good with ropes. Now if she could get up the nerve to make a move on him other than when they were checking each others harnesses for secure straps.

Concentrate. She needed to focus on the wall, not the dry spell in her sex life. Even if dry was the wrong word to depict something comparable to the Sahara during a drought.

A few adjustments later shed made it to the hold hed described.

Awesome job. You want to go higher? he asked.

Oh man. There were many things she wanted. She wanted to drag her fingers through his long hair and pull his head to hers for a kiss that would make her toes curl. If he happened to use his strong fingers on her back for a massage that somehow turned into a more erotic playtime, that would be fine as well. Maybe letting her crawl over him as they writhed together in wild, passionate lovemaking that would leave her gasping for breath and sexually sated. All of those were on the instant hell, yeah list.

Going past the fifteen-foot mark on the vertical climbing wall? That one wasnt nearly as easy a decision.

Melanie stared upward. The holds were simple on this section of the wall, the route easy to follow. Old training patterns kicked in and she automatically shifted her weight as she saw the correct sequence to reach for next. She could do this.

Until she turned and looked down. The floor wavered beneath her, fading farther and nearer like some freaky optical illusion. She clung to her handholds as her tongue stuck to the dry roof of her mouth. Fear laced through her, a shot of adrenaline making her limbs shake and all the blood rush from her head.

I got you. The harness around her hips snugged upward as Derrick took in the slack of the rope and secured her in place. Thats as high as youre going right now, Melanie. Just take a deep breath. Youre okay.

The bulging muscles of his arms as he held the belay ropes blurred into the background as she stared into his eyes. Her heart pounded, there was a ringing in her ears and she needed to pee. It took too much effort to squeeze out the words, and she sounded like a two-year-old. Dont drop me.

Ive got you, he repeated. His expression was no longer the sexy one that got her blood pumping. There was deep concern, and suddenly the corner of his mouth was the most important thing for her to concentrate on. Because if she looked at his mouth, and thought about kissing that spot, then she didnt need to think about the fact she hung in the air above a hard floor. Didnt have to think about how much it would hurt if she fell again. I need you to look at the wall, Melanie. Just turn and look at the wall so I can lower you. You understand? Im not going to drop you. Youre safe, but I need you in position to get you down.

Scared. Throat tight. Breathing tough.

I know, but I promise youre safe. Im not going to drop you, and you know it. Want me to lift you a tiny bit? Prove that youre secure?

She nodded rapidly. He leaned back and pulled easily, no more than a couple of inches. It was enough to make her body rise and take the weight off her shaking legs. Mel snapped her head back to face the wall. It took conscious effort to loosen her death grip and press her hips away from the wall. Letting go of the handholds made her heart leap to her throat, but she didnt change elevation. Derrick held her in one spot, rock solid and firm. Quickly, she wrapped one hand around the rope at her chest level, the other thrust toward the wall for protection. She moistened her lips so she could speak.

Lower. The climbing command stuck in her throat, but she got it out.

Lowering. Good girl. His deep voice enveloped her and she let the warmth act as a protective barrier.

Her descent was so smooth and slow she had time to walk her way down the wall like a little child inching down a sidewalk following a snail. She hung in a modified sitting position as she relied on him to control her motion. He did an amazing jobeven the stop at the bottom came smoothly, no sudden jerk to startle her already overwrought nerves.

Why in the world had she thought facing her fears and learning to climb again was a good idea?

Her butt landed on the crash mat with a delicately soft touch, and she breathed a sigh of relief, laid back and closed her eyes. Only fifteen feet and shed had a freaking acrophobia attack. After three weeks of hard work, that was all shed accomplished? How was she supposed to get back to living a full and exciting life when she couldnt even get past the baby marker?

Beside her shoulder, the mat dipped, and she wearily popped one eye open to spot Derrick seated on her left. I know you probably dont think so, but you did great.

Bullshit. Define great. That sexy smile of his was back, and at least now she could blame the way her heart beat out of control on something other than her annoying new fear of heights.

You didnt expect to be able to hit the ceiling so soon, did you? Go back to free climbing and lead climbing as if nothing happened? You had a major fall and its going to take time to get over

Shut up. Mel snapped to a sitting position to glare at him across a more even playing field. Damn, that was inexcusably rude, but she didnt care. The intensity of anger that hit came as a surprise, yet it was a welcome relief to counteract the paralyzing fear that controlled her life. She tilted her chin and met his gaze again. Dont tell me its going to take time. Its been three years, and Im still so chicken Im afraid to walk across the street without looking both ways twelve times.

Confusion flashed over his face. What does that have to do with climbing? Or your accident? The ropes failed. It was a freak situation and never should have happened, but youve recovered and

Melanie slammed a hand onto the mat next to her. Recovering. Im not nearly as strong as I was. Before the accident, I was always traveling and exploring the wilderness. Set new routes for others at outdoor sites in the summer. I used to climb all day and dance all night. And its all gone, okay? The exploring, the friends. The dancing and enjoying being with other people. Ive been living like a hermit. Shit, I havent had sex in three fucking years. So when the hell am I going to get over being afraid?

Oh my God. She hadnt said that. She scrambled to her feet and turned her back on him, fumbling to undo the figure-eight knot holding the rope twined through her safety harness.

Strong arms surrounded her, his hands blocking her attempts at the knot and holding them still. He was a wall of muscle behind her, hot and firm, making all her earlier thoughts return. Sweaty, needy, entangled bodies andshe wasnt going to be distracted from the fact she was pissed off. She struggled and his grip tightened as he backed up a pace, moving away from the wall.