Copyright 2019 Jeanine Cummins
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Contents
Title
Copyright
About the Author
Praise
Also by Jeanine Cummins
About the Book
Dedication
Epigraph
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
Epilogue
Authors Note
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Author pic Joe Kennedy
Jeanine Cummins is the author of three books: the novels The Outside Boy and The Crooked Branch and one true crime work, A Rip in Heaven. She lives in New York with her husband and two children.
Praise
A perfect balancing act with terror on one side and love on the other . . . Its marvellous Stephen King
From the opening page your heart will be in your mouth . . . it will change your view of the world Kirsty Wark
Made me understand better why someone would give up the home they know and love to survive Tracy Chevalier
Electric, important, heartbreaking and joyous Kate Hamer
A roaring human triumph Laline Paull
A dazzling accomplishment Julia Alvarez
Leaps the borders of the page and demands attention Sarah Blake
Relevant, powerful, extraordinary Kristin Hannah
Harrowing and necessary. As pacey as a thriller but full of deep compassion Julie Cohen
Not simply the great American novel, its the great novel of Las Amricas Sandra Cisneros
Also by Jeanine Cummins
Fiction
The Outside Boy
The Crooked Branch
Memoir
A Rip in Heaven
About the Book
She feels every molecule of her loss and she endures it. She is not diluted, but amplified. Her love for Luca is bigger, louder. Lydia is vivid with life.
Yesterday, Lydia had a bookshop.
Yesterday, Lydia was married to a journalist.
Yesterday, she was with everyone she loved most in the world.
Today, her eight-year-old son Luca is all she has left.
For him, she will carry a machete strapped to her leg.
For him, she will leap onto the roof of a high-speed train.
For him, she will find the strength to keep running.
For Joe
Era la sed y el hambre, y t fuiste la fruta.
Era el duelo y las ruinas, y t fuiste el milagro.
There were thirst and hunger, and you were the fruit.
There were grief and ruins, and you were the miracle.
Pablo Neruda, from The Song of Despair
Chapter One
One of the very first bullets comes in through the open window above the toilet where Luca is standing. He doesnt immediately understand that its a bullet at all, and its only luck that it doesnt strike him between the eyes. Luca hardly registers the mild noise it makes as it flies past and lodges into the tiled wall behind him. But the wash of bullets that follows is loud, booming, and thudding, clack-clacking with helicopter speed. There is a raft of screams, too, but that noise is short-lived, soon exterminated by the gunfire. Before Luca can zip his pants, lower the lid, climb up to look out, before he has time to verify the source of that terrible clamor, the bathroom door swings open and Mami is there.
Mijo, ven, she says, so quietly that Luca doesnt hear her.
Her hands are not gentle; she propels him toward the shower. He trips on the raised tile step and falls forward onto his hands. Mami lands on top of him and his teeth pierce his lip in the tumble. He tastes blood. One dark droplet makes a tiny circle of red against the bright green shower tile. Mami shoves Luca into the corner. Theres no door on this shower, no curtain. Its only a corner of his abuelas bathroom, with a third tiled wall built to suggest a stall. This wall is around five and a half feet high and three feet long just large enough, with some luck, to shield Luca and his mother from sight. Lucas back is wedged, his small shoulders touching both walls. His knees are drawn up to his chin, and Mami is clinched around him like a tortoises shell. The door of the bathroom remains open, which worries Luca, though he cant see it beyond the shield of his mothers body, behind the half barricade of his abuelas shower wall. Hed like to wriggle out and tip that door lightly with his finger. Hed like to swing it shut. He doesnt know that his mother left it open on purpose. That a closed door only invites closer scrutiny.
The clatter of gunfire outside continues, joined by an odor of charcoal and burning meat. Papi is grilling carne asada out there and Lucas favorite chicken drumsticks. He likes them only a tiny bit blackened, the crispy tang of the skins. His mother pulls her head up long enough to look him in the eye. She puts her hands on both sides of his face and tries to cover his ears. Outside, the gunfire slows. It ceases and then returns in short bursts, mirroring, Luca thinks, the sporadic and wild rhythm of his heart. In between the racket, Luca can still hear the radio, a womans voice announcing La Mejor 100.1 FM Acapulco! followed by Banda MS singing about how happy they are to be in love. Someone shoots the radio, and then theres laughter. Mens voices. Two or three, Luca cant tell. Hard bootsteps on Abuelas patio.
Is he here? One of the voices is just outside the window.
Here.
What about the kid?
Mira, theres a boy here. This him?
Lucas cousin Adrin. Hes wearing cleats and his Hernndez jersey. Adrin can juggle a baln de ftbol on his knees forty-seven times without dropping it.
I dont know. Looks the right age. Take a picture.
Hey, chicken! another voice says. Man, this looks good. You want some chicken?
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