Daniel H.Wilson - The Clockwork Dynasty

The age of a thing is in the feel of it. Secrets are locked in the fingerprints of cracked porcelain and the bloom of rust on metal. Youve just got to pick up a dusty artifact in both hands and squeeze your eyelids shut. With a little thought, the mind-reeling eons of time will stretch out before you like a star-filled sky.

I didnt learn this feeling in a classroom. No scientist does.

My grandfather, my dedushkahe taught me this awe for the forgotten past.

When I was sixteen, Vasily Stefanov caught me hiding in his toolshed, rummaging through his war souvenirs and trying to open the brass padlock on a battered green ammunition box with a screwdriver. He whistled low, like a cuckoo. This was how hed gotten my attention since I was a little girl, and I froze in embarrassment.

Instead of punishing me, he told me a story.

You are so curious, he said, words soaked in the heavy Russian accent he brought to the United States from another life. What are you looking for?

Im sorry, Dedushka, I stuttered. Nothing. I only wanted to

He waved me off with a callused palm.

Its okay. Curious people learn things, he said.

My grandfather took the ammunition box from me and set it clattering on his workbench. He unlocked the padlock and opened the dented lid, revealing a few faded photographs, an old pocket watch, and scattered medals. Then, he lifted out an oily cloth with something heavy wrapped in it. Without a word, he dropped the shrouded bundle across my palms.

Inside, I found something metallic and dense, something so intricate and alien that my breath caught in my throat. Etched into a crescent-shaped slice of metal the size of a seashell, I saw a labyrinthine pattern of groovesa language of bizarre angles.

This thing, he said. This incredible thing. I always meant to share it, you understand? But the years march.

Its heavy, I said.

It is a relic from a war. With a story I have never told anyone.

I remember his face now so clearly, lined with wrinkles that could be scary until the old man smiled and you saw where they came from.

Do you believe in angels, June? he asked.

I dont know, I responded. No.

Perhaps you should, he said.

Grandfather cleared his throat, leaned against a creaking workbench.

I was barely a teenager, same as you, when the second world war came. My family lived in a village near the Ural Mountains. The Germans stormed onto Russian soil and it was decided I was old enough to journey to the front. All the boys in the village were sent. We were excited. Excited.

He shook his head at the memory.

Stalingrad. Winter, he said. Early in the battle. We were already starving. Frozen. The Germans had pushed a million Soviet soldiers nearly to the banks of the Volga. The women and children and wounded who were left in the citythey finally tried to escape across the icy black river. All hope was gone. It was only survival then.

The Volga was choked with great green military tankers, filthy fishing rigs, civilian yachts, and human beings, thousands of them, aamass of them, clinging to anything that would float. And the low gray clouds over the river were screaming with Nazi warplanes. The sky was weeping tears of fire onto the backs of those women and children. Oil and gas had spilled on the water. The river herself was burning.

I and the other scouts were on the near bank, covering the retreat. Stalingrad itself was already bombed to oblivion. You cant understandit was a moonscape. Another world. A place of shattered brick and wood. Crumbling walls sagging in fields that were once neighborhoods, empty windows like open mouths, vomiting dust. The fallen froze where they lay and were not buried.

We boys survived like rodents, climbing through the remains of collapsed basements or abandoned trenches. Nothing aboveground was left. We lived this horror for monthsmonths that went on for eternity. Frostbite and thirst and snipers. Early on we had trained our dogs to wear explosives and run under the German tanks. Later, we ate them. And I do not know how to explain to you, vnuchkabut over timein that strange cold world, the memory of my life faded to gray ash.

Foolishly, I came to believe there was nothing left that could horrify me.

Grandfather blinked, gazing at the open ammunition box and its dangling brass padlock. Lost in the act of remembering, he would not look at me while he spoke.

A Nazi plane must have called out our position. One minute the other boys and I were lined up in our greatcoats, rifles snapping bullets, stocks laid over a wall of rubble. Not one step back, was the saying. Those who ran were shot. We pulled our triggers when forms appeared in the smoke and held our ground. No matter how many German helmets appearedwe were ready to make the sacrifice.