Colin Wilson - The Outsider

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Copyright 1956 by Colin Wison

Introduction Copyright 1978 by Colin Wilson

Foreward Copyright 1982 by Marilyn Ferguson

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First Diversion Books edition September 2014
ISBN: 978-1-62681-382-3

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FOR

ANGUS WILSON

WITH GRATITUDE

Christmas Day, 1954, was an icy, grey day, and I spent it in my room in Brockley, south London. I recall that I had tinned tomatoes and fried bacon for Christmas dinner. I was alone in London; my girlfriend had gone back to her family for the holiday, and I didnt have the money to return to my home town, Leicester. Besides, relations with my family were rather strained; my father felt Id wasted my opportunities to settle down in a good office job, and prophesied that Id come to a bad end.

For the past year Id been living in London, and trying to write a novel called Ritual in the Dark, about a murderer based on Jack the Ripper. To save money during the summer, Id slept out on Hampstead Heath in a waterproof sleeping bag, and spent my days writing in the Reading Room of the British Museum. It was there that Id met the novelist Angus Wilson, a kindly and generous man who had offered to look at my novel andif he liked itrecommend it to his own publisher. Id finished typing out the first part of the book a few weeks before; he had promised to read it over Christmas. Now I felt at a loose end. So I sat on my bed, with an eiderdown over my feet, and wrote in my journal. It struck me that I was in the position of so many of my favourite characters in fiction: Dostoevskys Raskolnikov, Rilkes Malte Laurids Brigge, the young writer in Hamsuns Hunger: alone in my room, feeling totally cut off from the rest of society. It was not a position I relished; Id always been strongly attached to my home and family (Im a typical Cancer), and missed being with them at Christmas. Yet an inner compulsion had forced me into this position of isolation. I began writing about it in my journal, trying to pin it down. And then, quite suddenly, I saw that I had the makings of a book. I turned to the back of my journal and wrote at the head of the page: Notes for a book The Outsider in Literature. (I have it in front of me now as I write.) On the next two pages, I worked out a fairly complete outline of the book as it eventually came to be written. I fell asleep that night with a feeling of deep inner satisfaction; it seemed one of the most satisfying Christmas Days Id ever spent.

Two days later, as soon as the British Museum re-opened, I cycled there at nine oclock in the morning, determined to start writing immediately. On the way there, I recalled a novel I had once read about, in which a man had spent his days peering through a hole in the wall of his hotel room, at the life that comes and goes next door. It was, I recollected, the first major success of Henri Barbusse, the novelist who had later become world famous for Le Feu, the novel of World War One. When I arrived at the Museum, I found the book in the catalogue. I spent the next few hours reading it from cover to cover. Then I wrote down a quotation from it at the head of a sheet of paper: In the air, on top of a tram, a girl is sitting. Her dress, lifted a little, blows out. But a block in the traffic separates us During the remainder of that afternoon, I wrote the opening four pages of