PrologueMemories for an IntroductionI Used to Be a Fool in Love
She was too pure, too beautiful
There was a fledgling scriptwriter who paid tribute to the woman he loved with those words, but when I was in middle school, I was trapped in a mire of passion that made his pale in comparison.
When I woke in the mornings, my first thought was of Mius face. Her tea-colored almond eyes and her plump lips. The rustle of her brown hair tied up in a high ponytail.
Miu always peeked at me with teasing, playful looks.
Good morning, Konoha.
Good morning, Miu.
Every morning I would greet the Miu of my imagination. Her eyes would crinkle with her smile, and joy would shoot through my heart. I would head to the bathroom in a haze of nervous excitement, eager to get to school so I could see the real Miu just one minuteone secondsooner.
How would Miu smile at me today? Would she be teasing me today? How far had she gotten in the story she was writing? I wanted to see her! I wanted to hear her voice and see her smile.
I couldnt wait to get to school, and I would linger under a sycamore along the way until Miu came. When she appeared, bathed in pure light, her ponytail bobbing, I would pretend that I had only just gotten there and run up to her shouting, Miu! Miu!
She was all I could think about during classes, too. When her seat was behind mine, I would turn around constantly during the day, and the sight of her bangs falling across her forehead or of her lowered lashes never failed to send a thrill through my heart. When we changed seats and her desk was diagonally in front of me, I never grew tired of gazing at the slender taper of her neck or her profile that reminded me of a budding flower.
Miu usually had a sky blue binder open in front of her, writing a story on loose-leaf paper.
Writing out the dreamlike world she was creating
The beautiful words that flashed and danced like light on the page.
When they streamed from Mius lips, the words shone even fresher and more beautiful, driving me ever deeper into my dreams.
Youre special, you know. Im only showing this to you, Konoha.
Every word Miu spoke to me was sweet like sugar drops.
Back then, I was walking on air, an utter fool for love; with her smiles washing over me, I was an incorrigible dreamer.
I assumed that Miu would, of course, feel the same way about me, and I never doubted even for a moment that we were bound together by destiny.
Even after we started high school, even after we went to college, even after we got jobs, Miu would be at my side, writing her stories and calling my name with a teasing smile. And that wasnt all. Some day Miu would become a real author, and everyone would know how good she was. Thats what I believed.
But in the spring of our last year of middle school, I debuted under the pen name of Miu Inoue as a brilliant, mysterious author who happened to be a lovely fourteen-year-old girl, and I lost Miu.
And now, in my second year of high school
Im a perfectly normal high school boy, going to class like anyone else, and I go to the book clubs room after school and write snacks for my not-at-all-normal club president.
Chapter 1Dont Leave a Crumb
Tomb of the Wild Chrysanthemum tastes like freshly picked apricots, Tohko murmured affectionately as she flipped through a collection of stories shed borrowed from the library. It reminds me of being on a footpath bathed in the light of the setting sun, plucking a rouged apricot between your fingers, then popping it into your mouth and sloooowly biting into it. Its thin skin ruptures, and a gentle tang and joyous sweetness seep across your tongue as your heart squeezes tight at the forlorn bitterness of it! Ahhh, the sweetly ephemeral memories of a boys first love!
The author of Tomb of the Wild Chrysanthemum was Sachio Ito, who was a disciple of Shiki Masaoka. He published the story in the magazine Little Cuckoo in 1906. It was acclaimed by the great Sseki Natsume. The classics really are wonderful! Its like how apricots produce different fruit every yearits fresh and delicious every time, no matter how often you eat it!
Sitting at the old oak table, I wrote Tohkos improv story in a notebook.
I guess Tohko was really into old Japanese love stories lately, because yesterday she had read Ogais The Dancing Girl and before that Yasunari Kawabatas The Izu Dancer and before that Ichiy Higuchis Growing Up, and shed expounded passionately on them all.
Thats school property. You cant eat it, I warned her placidly as my pencil raced over the page.
I know that! she answered, pouting. She had accidentally eaten a library book before, and shed whined that she was too embarrassed to go apologize on her own, so shed forced me, her lackey, to go with her.
She gave a desolate sigh immediately after. But it looks soooo good. Argh!
She was like a toddler looking in the window of an ice cream parlor and nibbling covetously on her fingers.
No eating it.
I know, I know! Augh, this part here? Its ever so slightly tart and totally delicious!
Im serious. You cant have any.
Fiiiine, she replied lazily, her face like that of a cat basking in the sun. Ill just wait until your snack is ready, like a good girl.
The room stood at the far western end of the school building and was extremely cramped, stacked all over with mounds of old books. Tohko had set her fold-up chair next to the window, and she sat with her legs drawn up on it, awash in the autumn sunlight streaming in the window as she paged through her book with slender fingers. Her white kneecaps peeked out from under her pleated skirt, and her long, black braids that looked like cats tails spilled over her shoulders.