SECOND VINTAGE BOOKS EDITION, SEPTEMBER 2001
Copyright 1991, 2001 by Terry Tempest Williams
All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. Published in the United States by Vintage Books, a division of Random House, Inc., New York, and simultaneously in Canada by Random House of Canada Limited, Toronto. Originally published in hardcover in the United States by Pantheon Books, a division of Random House, Inc., New York, in 1991.
Vintage and colophon are registered trademarks of Random House, Inc.
The Clan of One-Breasted Women by Terry Tempest Williams was originally published in Northern Lights, January 1990, Volume VI, No. 1.
Grateful acknowledgment is made to the following for permission to reprint previously published material: Atlantic Monthly Press: Wild Geese from Dream Work by Mary Oliver. Copyright1986 by Mary Oliver. Reprinted by permission of Atlantic Monthly Press.
Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, Inc.: The Peace of Wild Things from Openings by Wendell Berry. Reprinted by permission of Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, Inc.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Williams, Terry Tempest.
Refuge / Terry Tempest Williams.
p. cm.
Originally published: New York: Pantheon Books, 1991.
eISBN: 978-0-307-77273-2
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Map design by Anne Scatto
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Praise for
TERRY TEMPEST WILLIAMSs
Refuge
This is a book of life and loss and love, harrowing in some parts, heart-warming in others, written in a spare prose that seems to reverberate.
Seattle Post-Intelligencer
The courage, the passion, and the purity of motive in Terry Tempest Williamss voice are remarkable. Her demonstration of how deeply human emotional life can become intertwined with a particular landscape could not be more relevant to our lives.
Barry Lopez, author of Arctic Dreams
Terry Tempest Williamss honesty is downright searingsearing, and perhaps healing [She is] a fine writer, and a brave one.
Wilderness
Refuge is an intensely private love story of a woman and her landscapethe one she sees with her eyes and the one mirrored by her heart.
Salt Lake Tribune
Williams is a remarkable writer. This book is more than a pleasure to read, it offers a disturbing message for all to consider. I found myself ruminating on it long after I had closed the cover for the final time.
Jackson Hole News
Refuge is an almost unbearably intense and skillful essay on mortality, our own and that of the creative world. It is isolated from nearly all others of the genre by Ms. Williamss greatness of soulthere is no other way to express the dense beauty and grace of this book.
Jim Harrison, author of Legends of the Fall
Refuge is a simultaneously courageous and graceful book.
Durango Herald
The wonderful thing about Refuge is that Terry Williams is too full of life herself, and too fascinated by all its manifestations, to write a gloomy book. There isnt a page in Refuge that doesnt whistle with the sound of wings.
Wallace Stegner
ALSO BY T ERRY T EMPEST W ILLIAMS
The Secret Language of Snow (with Ted Major)
Pieces of White Shell: A Journey to Navajoland
Between Cattails
Coyotes Canyon
Earthly Messengers
An Unspoken Hunger
Desert Quartet
Leap
Red: Passion and Patience in the Desert
TERRY TEMPEST WILLIAMS
Refuge
Terry Tempest Williams worked as curator of education and naturalist-in-residence at the Utah Museum of Natural History in Salt Lake City from 19811996. She is the author of An Unspoken Hunger, Desert Quartet, Leap, and Red: Passion and Patience in the Desert. The recipient of a Lannan Literary Award and a John Simon Guggenheim Fellowship in creative nonfiction, she lives with her husband, Brooke Williams, in the redrock desert of southern Utah.
For
Diane Dixon Tempest
who understood landscape as refuge
WILD GEESE
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body lovewhat it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
MARY OLIVER ,
Dream Work
CONTENTS
BURROWING OWLS
lake level: 4204.70
WHIMBRELS
lake level: 4203.25
SNOWY EGRETS
lake level: 4204.05
BARN SWALLOWS
lake level: 4204.75
PEREGRINE FALCON
lake level: 4205.40
WILSONS PHALAROPE
lake level: 4206.15
CALIFORNIA GULLS
lake level: 4207.75
RAVENS
lake level:4209.10
PINK FLAMINGOS
lake level: 4208.00
SNOW BUNTINGS
lake level: 4209.15
WHITE PELICANS
lake level: 4209.90
YELLOW-HEADED BLACKBIRDS
lake level: 4209.55
REDHEADS
lake level: 4208.50
KILLDEER
lake level: 4208.40
WHISTLING SWAN
lake level: 4208.35
GREAT HORNED OWL
lake level: 4208.45
ROADRUNNER
lake level: 4210.90
MAGPIES
lake level: 4211.30
LONG-BILLED CURLEWS
lake level: 4211.65
WESTERN TANAGER
lake level: 4211.85
GRAY JAYS
lake level: 4211.40
MEADOWLARKS
lake level: 4211.00
STORM PETREL
lake level: 4210.85
GREATER YELLOWLEGS
lake level: 4210.80
CANADA GEESE
lake level: 4210.95