Jodi Picoult - Songs of the humpback whale: a novel in five voices

In the upper right hand corner of the photo is a miniature airplane that looks as if it is flying right into my forehead. It is very tiny and steel-blue, a long bloated oval cut in the middle with its own wings. It is the shape, really, of the Cross. It was the first thing my mother noticed when we received the photo in Massachusetts. You see, Rebecca, she said. Its a sign.

When I was three and a half, I survived a plane crash. Ever since, my mother has told me I am destined for something special. I cant say I agree with her. I do not even remember. She and my father had had a fight-one that ended with my mother crying into the garbage disposal and my father taking all of the original paintings off the walls and stashing them in the trunk of his Impala for safekeeping. As a result, my mother took me out to my grandparents breezy yellow home near Boston. My father kept calling. He threatened to send the FBI if she didnt send me back home. So she did, but she told me she couldnt go with me. She actually said, Im sorry, honey, but I cant stand that man. Then she dressed me in a little lemon knit outfit with white gloves. She turned me over to a stewardess at the airport, kissed me goodbye, and said, Now dont lose the gloves. I paid a bundle.

I dont remember much about the crash. The plane broke all around me; it split in half right before row number eight. All I recall was trying so hard to hold tight onto those gloves, and the way people didnt move, and not being sure if it was all right to breathe.

I dont remember much about the crash. But when I was old enough to understand, my mother told me that I was one of five survivors. She said that my picture was on the cover of Time- me crying in a burnt little yellow outfit with my arms outstretched. A farmhand had taken the photo with a Brownie camera and it had gone out to press and into the hearts of millions of people in America. She told me about fires that reached the sky and singed the clouds. She told me how insignificant the fight with my father was.

A trucker took this photo of us the day we left California. In the corner is that airplane. My mothers hair is tied up in a ponytail. Her arm is casually draped around my shoulder, but her fingers rest unnaturally tight on my neck as if she is trying to keep me from running away. She is smiling. She is wearing one of my fathers shirts. Im not smiling. Im not even looking at the camera.

The truckers name was Flex. He had a red beard and no moustache. He said we were the best scenery hed seen since Nebraska. Flex used his own camera-wed left in too big a hurry to take ours. He said, Ill take your picture and you give me your address and Ill send it. My mother said what the hell, it was her brothers rental address. If Flex turned out to be a lunatic and burned the place down no one would really be hurt.

Flex sent the photo to us care of Uncle Joley. It came in a used, readdressed manila envelope snaked with a line of twenty-five one-cent stamps. He attached a Post-it note for my mother that she did not let me read.

Im telling you the story of our trip because Im the only one who has really put it all together. It involved all of us-Mom, Daddy, Uncle Joley, Sam, even Hadley-but we all see it different ways. Me, I see it going backwards. Like a rewinding movie. I dont know why I see it like this. I know, for example, that my mother doesnt.

When we got the photo from Flex, we all stood around the kitchen table looking at it-me, Mom, Joley and Sam. Joley said it was a nice picture of me, and where did we take it? Sam shook his head and stepped back. Theres nothing there, he said. No trees, no canyons, nothing.

Were there, my mother said.

Thats not why you took that picture, Sam said. His voice hung at the edges of the kitchen like thin silver. Theres more. We just all cant see it. And like that, he walked out of the room.

My mother and I turned to each other, surprised. This had been our secret. We both looked instinctively at a spot in the highway to the right of our bodies. It is the place where California becomes Arizona-a change that truckers can sense in the pavement; that for everyone else remains unmarked.