Table of Contents
for Chris and Sue
two shoo-ins for the sibling hall of fame
Les paysages de nuit ont
envahi les jours.
Louise Bourgeois, The Insomnia Drawings
Open Voyage
For as long as this painting has hung here,
the figure living within its framed wooden borders has pushed
herself
down the Nile, her vessel
gliding above the bookshelf, past the vase of scissors and pens,
towards the walls great expanse, that still
gyprock sea
leading to nowhere
but the corner of the room where the latex continues
throughout the house,
intersecting at comfortable angles.
Just once,
I would like her small boat to crest the wooden waterfall
of the paintings frame
and circle around me, a red shadow
staining the eggshell white, a ripple of blue appearing beneath
her cedar hull
as she parts new waters;
for her to push around the doorways frame, to dodge the light
switch
while a wallflower moon, hiding
too long now in the cellar, rises over a horizon of dusty
radiators. Or one morning,
settling myself in for another days shift, to look up from the
desk
and find shes gone: receding in the distance,
a nautical brush mark
miles away, her small ship gliding into the paintings
canvas, into its beginnings
where she stands, faintly
stenciled, waiting for the river to be
drawn in her hand, the waters generous gift that will
lift her into perspective,
the final blackened brush stroke that will
ferry her into the night.
Hinterland Whos Who
X-Ray
So this is where Ive hidden
my ghost, shadow of all
my firsts, essential self
shuttered down to its most
basic pajamas:
Ive been looking for you,
ornithological bouquet
blooming in the dark
room of my days,
Ive been walking around
in negative,
Ive been wondering
how I fit, moony
white, in the wetsuit of my body
so its good
to greet you at last,
and to see
theres nothing wrong
with me, nothing
broken, nothing missing
but the wings
of a book
in my hand, nothing
but a little
lamplight
left on inside me.
The Garden Shed
Could I live in this
thing? Good shack, sturdy
shed, reliable
Home Hardware
special, Ill make
a place where the mower
might have been,
one square window
to steam with a kettle
atop a potbelly
stove, beans
and stew when I see
someone coming,
plaid and bad patch
of beard when I dont:
Im there already,
stupidly proud of my
misery, pulling
cans from an overstocked
pantry, the black flies
threatening me
while I rant against
the covenants
of my old suburban
zonenot
here, not as I set up
on a bluff
near a beach,
eccentric cough
of the cliff, believing
theres a bead
of wind to climb back
with, one knotted
rope that knows
its way down to the water,
and a claystone
rosary still
waiting below.
Hinterland Whos Who
Distant cousin to the broom
closet coaster, the mailbox
mifter, and the winnebago wisp,
the chimney swift is a small, sooty bird
that clings to the bricks of chimneys,
which is why
they call it the chimney
swift, not the telephone wire
warbler or the tall
tree startler; and hardly
ever do they call it
the-little-swat-that-flies-off-with-my-sleep,
the-small-slip-of-somnolence
lining-my-chimney, the-ball-of-feathers
for-whom-Ill-cap-the-chimney-
altogether, thereby
evicting the swift without sixty days
notice. Little crematory bird
that breeds in North
America and winters in Peru,
little late shift of wind
whose habitat is already smoke,
I dont care where you go
with my sleep,
just stay there
a good while longer;
and be a smart witness
to whats left of the chimneys
warmth; stay hidden,
and stay ashen,
and Ill meet you there,
however it may
happen, someday on the soft side of masonry.
Aubade
This morning I saw the front
lawn for the first time, I
saw the grass and the garden,
I saw the street and the houses
slowly gain momentum
as they ran down it,
all the magnificent cars
of the century were headed
somewhere, they were
celebrating and they
didnt even know it: they rolled
past, invisible flags waving
from antennas while the wind
confettied the street, and
the front lawn sunned
its brush cut, and the paper
arrived in its plastic.
And even the skys headlines
seemed happy to see me,
breathless with news
of their little blue world.
Suburbia the Beautiful
Theres nothing I
dont know about marigolds.
Thats why
I can tell you
the tallest is nodding to the second
in-command
in a small
battalion of summer.
Thats why
theyre paused and sympathetic
next to the patio lattice.
Thats why
you should really
fix your patio lattice.
The stop sign
reddens the street.
The raccoon
machetes the hedge.
And the paperboy
you forgot to pay
last week skirts
the sidewalks edge,
fielding a fly ball
deeper and
deeper in the canola fields
of his mind. Only
hes never seen canola,
so thats why
the fly ball never lands.
(Theres nothing
I dont know
about fly balls that never
land.) Thats why
the sun sets
the way that it does
well past the gates of evening.
Thats why
the garage doors
close the way that they do,
thats why
they wave slowly
goodnight,
thats why
the foliage, why
the drawbridge,
and why
the quiet castle.
The pavement rivers
past empty
lots. The lawn
waters itself off to sleep.
And the soft
raft of the day,
it gets lost
in the sea
of the paperboys
fading
blue denim.
The White Papers
Theres this one stack of paper
going slowly around
your glass desk, and you
nudge it lovingly
like an overweight kid on skates,
the kind whose snowsuit
bunches like a pillowcase,
who lags behind the others,
who grips chairs as though holding
tight to a forests wooden
shoulders; whose
nose runs, whose toque blankets
his forehead and drips
onto his face, and who looks up
at you, after twenty minutes
of innocent effort,
having moved just as many