Jay Lake - Endurance (Green Universe 2)

This book would not have been possible without the wonderful assistance of people too numerous to fully list here. Nonetheless, I shall try, with apologies to whomever I manage to omit from my thank-yous. Much is owed to Dr. Kevin Billingsley, Kelly Buehler and Daniel Spector, Sarah Bryant, Michael Curry, Dr. Daniel Herzig, Bronwyn Lake, Ambassador Joseph Lake, Shannon Page, Dr. Paul Schipper, Ken Scholes, Jeremy Tolbert, the Umberger family, Dr. Gina Vaccaro, the Omaha Beach Party, Amber Eyes, and, of course, everyone in my blogging and social media communities. To those whom I may have neglected to mention: That omission is my own and does not in any way reflect upon you.

I also want to recognize the Brooklyn Post Office here in Portland, Oregon, as well as the Fat Straw coffeehouse and Lowells Print-Inn for all their help and support. Likewise, the doctors and nurses of the Knight Cancer Center at Oregon Health Sciences University for keeping me alive so I could write this book. Special thanks go to Jennifer Jackson, Beth Meacham, Melissa Frain, and Terry McGarry for making this book not only possible but real. Also, I want to thank Irene Gallo and Dan Dos Santos for another striking cover that shows Green as she livesin angry motion.

And of course my brother and his ox. Errors and omissions are entirely my own responsibility.

I SAT AMONG the late autumn-blooming clover amid a sloping grave-meadow and picked at my memories as if they were old scars. Fat, slow, red-bodied bees bumbled about me as they passed through scattered shafts of sunlight limning the damp, chilly air. Their indifferent drone was desultory. Empires would rise and fall, gods pass from bloody birth to fiery death, every woman who ever lived slip quietly into her final sleep, and still bees would find their flowers.

That was a lesson for me. I was certain of it. Sick of lessons, I ignored the thought.

Recollection served my mood little better. As they always have, the people of my life crowded close in these quiet moments. Federo, locked inside the bandit-god-king Choybalsan, that haunted look in his eyes at the last. Septio, the only man Id then bedded, his neck snapped within the loving circle of my arms. Shar, the desperate woman whod lived with my father into the final days of his ruination. Mistress Danae, whose addled mind and ravaged body survived as a shadow among the graves. Cities full of flame and despair, knives in the dark, my fear racing faster than even the flying of my feet.

Stop!

The single word echoed among the silent graves scattered across this empty hillside. Tiny birds whirred up from the long, golden grass into the cerulean bell of the sky. My belly twinged as the child within stirred. She was still so little, this poor god-struck bastard of mine. I placed my hands upon my abdomen and crooned softly. I dont know if the ancient ghosts whose abode this was heard me. Perhaps it didnt matter. My baby returned to sleep and took the bitter sting of memories with her.

In time I emerged from my enclosing song and looked about. Inattention has never been a habit with me, not from my earliest years. Even so, the unquiet dead were no threat, the nearest possible ambush was hundreds of paces away downhill, and this place smelled of safety. Most of the bees had moved on to other stands of clover on their days rounds. The pallid northern sun had climbed higher into the patient vault of the heavens. The day was as warm as ever it would be at this time of yearalmost enough to make me wish for a hood or a hat, rather than simply sitting bareheaded in the wind that carried the first sharp-edged tang of winter. The scent of the clover remained strong, mixed with the dusty-rock odor of the ridgetops.

Even now, I still believe that the High Hills were as timeless a place as Id ever known, at least since the never-ending summer amid the rice paddies of my earliest youth. No ox stood placid and wise to watch over me. Instead, I watched over myself and my child. These forgotten grave-meadows were safely outside the purview of the several gods who had made themselves so dangerous to me. Nothing here but ghosts, dwindling gently with the slow passage of years as we all must do.

The grave nearest me offered a smidgen of shadow, but Ilona had said the old king who lay there rested uneasy. It was not so good to place myself close under his touch. A shame, too; his grave was pretty enough. The sepulcher had been dug back into the hill, so that only the face stood clear. That visible portion of the monument boasted a cladding of red stone, carven into small pillars and a carved entablature. The elaborate frieze had long since worn to a tale of shapeless heroism among faceless warriors. Brass and bronze banded the pillars, and served as tarnished ornaments to the tiny stoa. The grave was a miniature of a classical Smagadine temple, rendered through the imagination of some Stone Coast mason whod likely never even sailed as far as Lost Port.

An idea of a memory of someone elses history. Just as with my own life, from my happy beginnings down all the years since. But also as with my life, in a curious manner all the disparate elements and desperate divisions came together to form something greater than could be inferred from the constituent parts. In the case of this grave, the harlequin whole of the architectural truth served to hold a dead man and his unquiet ghost. The mound that rose behind the facing was pretty, a gentle swale of turf dotted with tiny, wound-pink flowers.

But unquiet. So unquiet.

The ghosts whispered when you walked among them if you had ears to listen. Ilona had suggested that as I had been god-touched, my hearing was plenty sharp for what was needful here. Id certainly had my share of arguments with the divine, from the Lily Goddess to Blackblood to Endurance himself.

My god. The one Id created.

That thought still had the power to stagger me, months later here in my exile.

I wandered along the slopes. Yarrow hissed against my calves. Clover crushed beneath my feet added a sharp rush of bruised green to the already-heavy scent of flowers. Smaller, less forward blossoms peeked eye-bright from among the larger stalks.

And through it all, the graves. Some little more than hummocks of grass, covered in brambles or roses or stranger things, depending on the will of the original mourners and perhaps the sensibilities of the ghost lurking within. Others were more elaborate, such as the final home of the redstone king Id just left behind. Certain of their fellows were merely collapsed hollowsdents in the earth where I could lay myself down and walk awhile among the strange dreams of the lords of the dead past.

Each carried a whispering voice. Certain of them spoke like wasps under a distant eave: barely a buzzing whine, hints of meaning concealed within the cycling tonality. More resembled chatter after a temple service. Arguments, bargaining, the rhythm of a joke being recounted; the sense still not quite fully formed to my ear.

A few were awake, aware. Some called my name with voices as forceful as life.

Green.

Come here, girl.

You dare too much.

You do not risk enough.

Still, they were merely ghosts. Like so many of lifes oppressions, the power of such clinging souls is only that granted by the victim. I had already faced worse than any of these would ever wield against me.

Sleep, I called, invoking the formulation that Ilona had taught me. Sleep, and rest upon your beds of dreams.