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To the resilient people of Nashville.
Prologue
It was raining so hard I could barely see my hands as I wrapped my fingers around the tree house step and started to climb. Even the shelter of the leaves still clinging to the branches didnt offer much relief from the downpour. I was climbing blind, the lack of visual cues making the swaying of the massive trunk and the groans lurching from deep inside the tree even more disturbing.
It was a horrible storm, worse than it had been the first time around. Freezing wind whipped through the valley behind my house, cutting through the tightly woven fabric of my fleece v-neck, plastering it to my skin with another layer of cold and wet.
But still I climbed, shouting his name as I went. I had no choice but to go to him. He hadnt heard me the first or second or third time Id called from the ground.
Or maybe he was just ignoring me.
Im coming up! I screamed again, the act of forcing my stiff lips to form words helping keep my mind off the fact that I was six... seven... ten... twelve feet in the air. I shivered, fingers clawing into the damp wood, fear of heights throbbing through my body in new and powerful ways.
I could feel the empty space behind me growling, a hungry void that wanted my slick hands to slip, wanted to watch me fall and gobble up my fear as I dropped. I licked my lips, tasting salt and sticky, and thought for a second I must have bitten myself.
Cramped fingers dared a brush up and down my face, swiping away water and something hotter that rolled down into my mouth. The blood was coming from my nose, from the place where the lockets chain had scraped away my skin.
The locket.... It had drawn blood.
Bringing both hands to cling onto the ladder once more, I turned and brushed my face against my shoulder, leaving a spot of black on the gray fabric.
Go away, he yelled above me, his voice slurred and thick.
Im not going away. You shouldnt be drinking up here, I said, shouting to be heard over a sudden gust of wind. The tree rocked back and forth, moaning, while my pulse raced and my hands gripped the ladder step so tightly my knuckles snapped and cracked.
For the first time since that night in Isaacs truck, I felt the obscene weight of holding the future in my own hands. I had to get us both out of this tree before something bad happened, before someone was seriously hurt, before anything else was lost or broken....
Chapter One
SATURDAY, OCTOBER 10, 5:25 P.M.
Lavender and rotted peaches and old-lady face cream. Ugh. The smell was enough to make me cringe even if it hadnt been underscored by VapoRub and the fruit-flavored Tums Gran ate like candy. My bathroom had been hijacked, right when I needed sanctuary more than ever.
Since the day my family moved into my great-grandmothers old house, my big room with the window seat and private bath had been my safe place. It was where I felt peaceful, in control, no matter what was going on in the outside world.
Unfortunately, my sanctuary had been violated by Grans arrival for her first visit in years. She was sleeping in the guest room, but sharing my bath. The counter was covered in pillboxes, the vanity buried in jewelry and face cream, and the entire room reeked of sweet and flowery old person.
I loved Gran to death, but really... her nose must have ceased to function or there was no way shed be able to live with her own odor.
As I rushed through drying my hair and brushed blush on my cheeks, I wondered if the scent would linger on my clothes. Would Isaac smell it and think Id used that body spray he hated? The one my mom had given me for my sweet sixteen that Rachel Pruitt had said made her nauseous and Isaac had made me promise never to wear again?
My forehead bunched, making the penciling in of my light red brows more challenging than usual. More than anything, I wanted this night to be perfect. I needed it to be perfect. It had only been two weeks, but it felt like Id been living with this horrible ache in my chest for years. I couldnt remember what it felt like to be at home in my own skin.
Even before my screwup, there were times when Id felt out of place. In the lunchroom, at parties, even just hanging out at Ramons or Jukebox Java after school, I was just... awkward with Isaacs crowd, the girl who never said the right thing, who never knew when to laugh or toss her hair. Despite the fact that Id been dating the star of the basketball team my entire dateable life, Id never fit in with the perfect people. I was pretty, but not that pretty, smart, but not that smart, and I didnt possess a single athletic bone in my body, so volleyball or cheerleadingthe approved platinum sportswere out of the question.
I wasnt even a good drama geek. The closest Id come to landing a starring role was being cast as first understudy in Our Town.
Thats why it had happened. Because Id felt uncomfortable, and frustrated with Isaac because of it. I had to do better. Be better. I had to make sure nothing like that happened ever again. Our anniversary had to be perfect, romantic, unforgettable.
I didnt even care that today was also my birthday. Seventeen was a weird number anyway, and celebrating three years with Isaac was what really mattered.
Id spent the better part of the morning choosing the perfect anniversary outfita silver-and-black-striped tissue tee with a clingy black cotton skirtand for once was happy with the way I looked. I felt sexy, but casual, and my pale skin actually looked dramatic rather than sickly. My red hair had cooperated and dried in smooth waves down to my shoulders andslightly crooked eyebrows asidemy makeup had turned out better than usual. I looked as pretty as I ever did... but something still seemed to be missing.
I was stabbing around in my jewelry drawer, looking for my oversized hoop earrings, when I spotted the locket in the tangle of necklaces on top of the vanity. It was silver, engraved with intricate swirls and a cursive G on one side. It looked old. And expensive. And it was sooo pretty. My inner cat perked up and demanded I bat my paw at the shiny object.
I knew I shouldnt invade Grans privacy, but I couldnt seem to help myself. I reached for the locket, flipping it over, running my fingers over the cursive-scratched silver. There, in delicate scrawl, an inscription read, Some mistakes werent meant to last.
My chest tightened and a shiver ran across my skin, raising all the little blond hairs. The message was eerie, disturbing almost.
Lifting the locket from the pile of jewelry, I thumbed open the latch holding it closed. Inside, two faded pictures smiled at each other. The woman I recognized as a very young version of my gran, so I assumed the man with the dimple popping in his left cheek and eyes sparkling with mischief must be my grandfather. I hadnt seen many pictures of himhed died when I was a babybut Id heard Grans stories. Theyd met when they were fifteen, married when they were seventeen, and divorced a few months later under pressure from Grans parents.
Grandpa had gone away to war soon after and they hadnt seen each other for five years, until the day theyd run into each other on the street, gone for coffee, and eloped to Nashville a few hours later, proving that
