A. H. Alonso - Another Chance

A. H. ALONSO

This is a work of Fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the authors imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

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Copyright: 2021 A. H. Alonso

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To all the Kpop stars, the ones that were, are and are to be

Authors Note

I wrote this book as a Kpop fan for 12 years. In that time I have seen what idols go through (or at least part of what they do). A lot of them have Depression and yet us fans dont even know it until sometimes its too late and they end their life. On the outside Kpop may look glamorous and the idols may seem happy but behind those smiles we cant really know whats going on. As someone that has had Depression I can say for certain that we dont always show how we truly feel and many times act like everything is okay, all for the sake of others. So through this book I wanted to show what those on the outside arent able to see and as dark as it may seem, this is what life is really like. Not everything is rainbows and sunshine. With every smile theres always a pain thats hidden thats just never brought to light because we hold it in and suffer on our own but we have to know that there will always be someone for us. And even if you dont think it, youll always have another chance.

1. CAIN

T he music is off, the lights are off, the stage is bare and the cheers are no more. It feels like it was just yesterday when our music video hit 30 million views within 24 hours. But it wasnt yesterday, it was four years ago. So when did things start to go wrong? Well I really shouldnt blame anyone as these things happen to every Kpop group and not just my own. It however all started when Abel left the group two years ago. Our 7 year contract hadnt even expired but he decided the idol life was no longer for him as he found a new passion, something he loved more than his career as an artist. And again, I shouldnt blame him because I too would have done the same if only four years ago Abby would have said it was me she liked instead of Abel.

With one of the members getting married, it started to worry fans that others in the group would also have a secret relationship. They even started to look into each of our Instagrams and past videos just to see if they could find any clues of any of us dating. Most of the time all it would take was one small interaction with a female idol and suspicions would arise. Fans just couldnt bear the thought of us not being fully devoted to our careers that they decided to leave the fandom and stan other groups, ones that were younger and had less chances of dating or getting married.

Of course the ideal idol is always single and in reality we all were except for three of the members, two of which were dating each other. As they were already shipped by the fans, Lucas and Simon were able to get away with dating. Seth on the other hand had a relationship that was hidden for years and that infuriated the fans. He didnt go public about it until after the groups disbandment but the fans still saw it as a sort of betrayal for having lied to them the whole time. Just like it doesnt take much to make fans happy, it also doesnt take much to anger them.

We only really lasted two more years after Abels departure because of Lucas and Simon. As CasMon was the most popular ship in the group, it was like a yaoi fanfic come true to the fans. There were a few that didnt support same sex relationships but while we lost those fans, we gained new ones. Fans of other groups started to listen to us simply because two of our members were a couple. It was after all something that had never been seen in a Kpop group. We made headlines, or more like Lucas and Simon did. EVE was happy as it was basically free publicity. Normally a 5 year old group would start to lose popularity but we were gaining some. So if it was all going well, what went wrong? What caused a #1 ranked Kpop group to disband all of a sudden?

An accident and a scandal, that was all it took. Had it just been one or the other, the group might have still been able to go on with 6 members but two incidents within the same month was just too much. The company no longer wanted us and neither did the fans. We were a broken group to them. We were disposable. With our 7 year contract already expiring, there was nothing we could do. Normally we would have been given the opportunity to sign a new contract, one that was for three more years but we werent given that chance. With Josiah no longer able to perform due to an ankle injury that left him with permanent damage and Eli who was caught drunk driving, we werent worth it anymore. Dozens of trainees were waiting to debut so why put in any more money into an old group that caused so many problems?